Dil-e-Nadan

Ayat ka dil buhat zor se dhadak raha tha. Aaj uski shaadi ka din tha. Wo kamre me aaine ke samne baithi apne aap ko dekh rahi thi. Usne surkh rang ka joda pehna hua tha, haathon par gehri mehandi lagi hui thi, aur gale me haar tha. Lekin uski aankhon me khushi nahi thi, balke ek anjana sa khauf tha. Bahar dhol ki awaz aa rahi thi, ghar me roshniyan lagi hui thi, mehmaan has rahe the, lekin Ayat ke dil me ek ajeeb si khamoshi thi. Wo is shaadi se khush nahi thi. Ye shaadi uske abbu ke karz ki wajah se ho rahi thi. Haider ka khandaan buhat ameer tha, aur Ayat ke abbu ne unse karz liya hua tha. Karz utaarne ka sirf ek hi tareeqa tha ke Ayat ki shaadi Haider se kara di jaye. Ayat ki ammi uske paas aayi aur kaha, Ayat beta, tayyar ho jao, baraat aane wali hai. Ayat ne kaha, Ammi, kya Haider mujhe khush rakhega? Ammi ne uske sar par haath rakha aur kaha, beta, Haider dil ka bura nahi hai, bas thoda gusse wala hai. Tum usko samjho gi to wo bhi tumhe samjhega. Ayat ne chup chap sar jhuka diya. Uski aankhon se aansu nikalne lage, lekin usne unhe saaf kar diya. Kuch der baad neeche se awaz aayi ke baraat aa gayi hai. Ayat ko neeche le jaya gaya. Wo dulhan bani stage par baithi thi. Har taraf log usko dekh rahe the, uski tareef kar rahe the, lekin Ayat ki nazar sirf ek shakhs ko dhoond rahi thi, Haider ko. Thodi der baad Haider stage par aaya. Usne kaale rang ki sherwani pehni hui thi. Wo dekhne me buhat handsome lag raha tha, lamba kad, gora rang, lekin uske chehre par muskurahat nahi thi. Uski aankhon me ek sakhti thi, ek gussa tha. Usne Ayat ki taraf dekha bhi nahi, bas aakar uske saath baith gaya. Phir Maulvi sahab aaye aur Nikkah padhana shuru kiya. Jab Maulvi sahab ne Ayat se poocha, Ayat bibi, kya aapko Haider Ahmed ke saath nikkah qabool hai, to Ayat ne kuch der khamosh rehne ke baad halki awaz me kaha, Qabool Hai. Uski awaz kaanp rahi thi. Phir Maulvi sahab ne Haider se poocha, to Haider ne buland awaz me kaha, Qabool Hai. Sab logon ne Mubarakbaad di, lekin Ayat ko laga jaise uski zindagi ka ek naya imtehaan shuru ho gaya hai. Raat ko jab sab mehmaan chale gaye, to Ayat ko uske naye kamre me le jaya gaya. Kamra buhat bada aur khoobsurat tha. Har cheez mehngi thi. Lekin Ayat ko us kamre me dar lag raha tha. Wo bed par baithi Haider ka intezaar karne lagi. Raat ke baarah baj gaye, lekin Haider nahi aaya. Ek baj gaya, phir do baj gaye. Ayat thak kar so gayi. Raat ke 2 baj kar 30 minute par darwaza zor se khula. Ayat dar kar uth gayi. Haider andar aaya. Uske chehre par buhat gussa tha. Ayat ne jaldi se apni chadar sahi ki aur kaha, As-salamu Alaikum. Haider ne jawab diya, Wa Alaikum Salam, aur seedha almari ki taraf chala gaya. Usne apni sherwani utaari aur ek aam si shirt pehan li. Ayat usko dekh rahi thi, usko samajh nahi aa raha tha ke kya bole. Phir Haider Ayat ke saamne aakar khada ho gaya aur kaha, Ayat, ek baat kaan khol kar sun lo. Ye shaadi sirf mere maa baap ki zid ki wajah se hui hai. Main is shaadi se khush nahi hun. Main kisi aur se mohabbat karta tha, lekin mere maa baap ne tumhare abbu ka karz maaf karne ke liye mujhe tumse shaadi karne par majboor kiya. Ayat ki aankhen khuli ki khuli reh gayi. Usne kaha, Haider, ye aap kya keh rahe hain? Main aapki biwi hun. Haider ne kaha, nahi, tum sirf kaagaz par meri biwi ho. Asal zindagi me tum meri kuch nahi lagti. Tum is kamre me reh sakti ho, is ghar me reh sakti ho, lekin mere kareeb aane ki koshish mat karna. Mujhe tum jaisi nadan ladkiyan bilkul pasand nahi hain. Ye keh kar Haider ne ek takiya uthaya aur sofe par ja kar let gaya. Ayat bed par baithi roti rahi. Usne aaj tak apni zindagi me itna dukh nahi dekha tha. Usne socha tha ke shaadi ke baad uski zindagi khushiyon se bhar jayegi, lekin yahan to uski zindagi ka sab se mushkil waqt shuru ho gaya tha. Ayat ne rote hue Allah se dua ki, Ya Allah, tu hi mera sahara hai. Mere abbu ne ye faisla mere liye kiya, ab tu hi mujhe himmat de. Kya Haider kabhi mujhe apnayega? Wo raat Ayat ne rote hue guzari. Subah jab wo uthi to Haider kamre me nahi tha. Wo sofe par nahi tha. Ayat ne neeche ja kar dekha to Haider apne maa baap ke saath nashta kar raha tha. Ayat ki saas ne kaha, Ayat beta, aao nashta kar lo. Ayat ne kaha, Ji ammi. Wo Haider ke saamne wali kursi par baith gayi. Haider ne uski taraf dekha bhi nahi. Nashta ke baad Haider office chala gaya. Ayat saara din apne kamre me akeli rahi. Shaam ko jab Haider wapas aaya to Ayat ne uske liye chai banayi aur kamre me le gayi. Haider ne kaha, mujhe chai nahi chahiye. Ayat ne kaha, maine apne haath se banayi hai, ek baar pi kar to dekhein. Haider ne gusse se kaha, kaha na nahi chahiye, ek baat samajh nahi aati tumhe? Ayat ki aankhon me phir se aansu aa gaye. Usne chai mez par rakh di aur wahan se chali gayi. Ab Ayat ko samajh aa gaya tha ke Haider ka dil jeetna itna aasaan nahi hoga. Lekin Ayat bhi haar maanne wali ladki nahi thi. Usne dil me faisla kar liya ke wo Haider ke gusse ko apni mohabbat se khatam karegi. Kya Ayat apne is faisle me kamyaab ho payegi? Kya Haider kabhi Ayat se mohabbat karega? Ya ye Dil-e-Nadan hamesha rota rahega?