Why Not Me?

Chapter 6

May'sPOV

Yesterday was weird. Being with Harry was strange. I might have overeacted a little but when he tried talking to me in the car- he was making an effort but for some reason it really angered me.

There was just something at the back of my mind telling me that he was only doing it because of Kelly. It doesn't seem like such a bad reason but it killed me. Just knowing it's all happening now because of his involvement with Kelly is something I can't handle emotionally.

I have a weak spot for Harry and I wanted to call him to apologise for how rude I was but I couldn't bring myself to do it. After all, he was also an ass.

I was currently sitting down on Mariana's bed with her fast asleep behind me. I needed to clear my head so I decided to go jogging. All hope wasn't lost because I was going to see Zayn today and jogging always helps me to clear my head which was exactly what I needed.

I rose to my feet and made my way out of Mariana's room. I climbed down the stairs and the smell of bacon struck me. My legs carried me closer and I saw Mrs Duapez working her way around the kitchen. She felt my presence and turned giving me a bright smile.

"You're up early" She said turning back to her work.

"Yeah I want to go jogging" I sat down on a barstool at the counter. I pulled out my phone and saw a text Zayn sent last night that I didn't reply to.

"Is that couch potato still sleeping?" Mrs Duapez asked of Mariana and I chuckled. Couch potato she is indeed, she just has that lazy stance and not to mention the fact that she sits around lazily all the time.

"Infact she is snoring" I answered and Mrs Duapez burst out laughing. I chuckled "I'd be back" I said walking towards the door but her voice stopped me.

"Aren't to going to eat something before you leave?" She asked. Who eats before exercising? I smiled at her explaining why I can't eat before I exercise and she looked confused but nodded anyways after saying she hasn't worked out a day in her life at which I laughed.

I stepped out the door, took a minute to put my earpiece on and begun to jog to the only place that could make me feel better. I jogged pass Harry's house and his car wasn't there. I wondered where he could have been at such an early time but didn't let it distract me.

I arrived after about an hour of jogging and my legs were killing me. I bent over resting my hands on my knees to catch a breath. To say I was tired is an understatement. I stayed there for some minutes and begun to walk deeper into the woods.

I sighed when I reached near the familiar tree. I removed my earpiece, folding it nicely and put it into the pocket of my sweatpants. I braced myself and begun to climb the tree, my arms where tired as hell.

When I reached the top I couldn't stop myself from smiling. The view was spectacular and it never gets old. I've been coming here since I was 10 years old and I can never get over it's beauty.

I sat high up and could see the entire forest and even the small lake that was really far. l always wished I could go further but never did for fear of what could exist further. I sighed and pulled out my phone once more and continued to listen to my music. I have no signal which is the best part of isolating myself.

It was calm and peaceful, I kept thinking about Harry but it wasn't anything that could ruin my day. It was more of him and not Kelly's involvement with him. Just how his curly hair fell over his face occasionally and how tall and beautiful he is.

Thoughts of Zayn also crossed my mind, his mysterious eyes and his lips and the way he kisses. My mind was all over the place.

After what seemed like hours, I climbed down the tree readying myself to head back home. I walked back to the main road and I was the only one. It is slightly outside our neighbourhood and it isn't a route that is used frequently.

Chills ran down my spine as I begun walking home. My earpiece was still in my ears and I bobbed my head up and down to sugar we're going down by Fall out boy.

A familiar car passed by me and parked. I would have been scared but I knew it was Gemma's car. Gemma is Harry's older sister. She barely spoke to me but whenever she did, she was extremely nice. I strolled towards it in glee, my legs were sore so I couldn't be happier.

"He-" I was caught off quard as it wasn't Gemma, it was none other than Harry staring back at me. I regained my posture and bit my lip not know what to say to him.

"Get in" He commanded slyly but it annoyed me. Does he think he can control me? He didn't even ask if I wanted a ride and there he was trying to push me around.

"Thank you but I can walk" I forced a smile and started walking away from his car. He is so full of s**t. I wanted to slap him, he brings out the worst in me.

He drove beside me slowly but I didn't once look his way as I bobbed my head enjoying my jam.

He honked and I stopped to look at him. He looked like he just walked out of a magazine or a runway show. It took all within me not to fall at his feet.

His hair was messy and he just looked tired and deprived of sleep. I wanted to smile but didn't.

"Come on we are headed the same way" He said. I looked at him thoughtfully, my legs were killing me as well so I wasn't going to bluff. I rolled my eyes and walked around to the passenger seat next to him. He smiled a boyish smile and started driving.

The old Harry wouldn't even give me the time of day but now here he was, being happy because I accepted his offer to drive me home? It was totally above me but it made me happy.

The ride was quiet for a few seconds as I stared out the window but Harry cleared his throat trying to get my attention.

"What were you doing out there?" He asked and I could tell he was being careful not to make me lose my s**t which I seem to do a lot when he talks to me.

"Nothing you should care to know" I replied without looking his way but I wasn't harsh. Truth is it wasn't his business and that was the nicest way I could have said it. I heard him chuckle and I smiled but he couldn't see my face.

"I'm passing over to Zayn's to pick him up, do you mind?" Harry asked.

I looked at him and smiled before I could stop myself. "Why would I?" I answered his question with a question.

"Right" He muttered and I rolled my eyes. That was a stupid question to ask considering the fact that Zayn and I were kind of seeing each other.

The rest of the ride was silent and I caught Harry stealing glances from me every now and then. We made eye contacts a few times and I thought he was going to look away but didn't except when he had to focus back on his driving.

He parked at a familiar house, typing away on his phone and within less than a minute, none other than the handsome Zayn and Liam made their way towards us.

Zayn looked taken aback when his eyes landed in me and I immediately got down from the car and walked, meeting him half way.

"Hey" I greeted, genuinely excited to a him. Liam replied but I barely gave Zayn the chance to reply and I smashed my lips on his. He hands found their way to my waist pulling me closer as I grazed my fingers through his hair. Seeing him made me realized how much I missed him.

I pulled back and he chuckled. "I see I wasn't the only one missing you" He smirked still holding me close. I giggled and pecked his lips again pulling away. There was a smile on his face that melted my heart just i knowing I was the cause.

When I met Zayn I was scared that I was just using him to get over Harry but as time passed I know I have feelings for him. I still really like Harry- if not love but I also really really like Zayn. He makes me feel wanted in ways no guy ever has.

We made our way back to Harry's car and Zayn and I sat at the back seat with Harry and Liam at the front. I sat closer to Zayn and he wrapped his arm around me.

The drive back to Harry's house was silent except for Liam who kept clearing his throat to end Zayn and I' kissing sessions.

Fucking cockblocker.

Zayn couldn't keep his hands off me and oh boy I wasn't objecting either. I liked it very much. Harry on the other hand continued to steal glances at me.

He was acting strange. If I were really dumb I would have thought he was angry? Or...

Jealous..

Harry's POV

I was tired as f**k because I had to wake up to a call from Gemma who apparently had a flat tire and needed me to bring her my car and get hers fixed.

I was on my way back from the garage in which I had taken her car to to get it fixed and I saw a familiar body...

May.

I parked in front of her as I waited for her to get near. She approached me cheerfully

"He-" She stopped her sentence and her smile dropped. She probably though it was Gemma.

"Get in" I told her- more like commanded her and by the look on her face I could tell I f****d up. "Thank you but I can walk" She forced a smile and without waiting for a reply she begun to walk away.

There we go again. She is always moody when it comes to me. I was just trying to be nice and she wasn't making it easy because I was already in a grimm mood, with Kelly not replying any of my texts and all that jazz.

I drove next to her but she was occpied by her music as she bobbed her head up and down obviously ignoring my existence. I honked and she paused, turning to look at me.

"Come on we are headed the same way" I said trying to make her see reason. She looked as though in deep thoughts, she nodded making her way around the car and took a seat next to me.

I couldn't help but smile. I pulled off and the ride was silent. I couldn't help but wonder what she was doing out there in the woods. I still think she is weird. I cleared my throat trying to get her attention and even though she didn't turn I knew I had it.

"What were you doing out there?" I asked thoughtfully, the last thing I wanted was her her to throw insults my way for just a harmless question.

"Nothing you should care to know" She replied and I chuckled, she really is something.

"I'm passing over to Zayn's to pick him up, do you mind?" I asked. She looked at me with a beautiful smile on her face. Yesterday she returned a few smiles my way but it wasn't like the one I was seeing now. This was genuine.

"Why would I?" She asked and it was then I figured that what I asked was dumb. Of f*****g course she wouldn't mind, if anything she'd be f*****g excited to see him.

"Right" I muttered and she rolled her eyes. After that, we kept to ourselves except for the fact that I couldn't stop looking at her and she even caught me a few times and held my gaze. I didn't want to turn away but I had to because I was driving.

We arrived at Zayn's house and I pulled out my phone sending him a text that I was outside. He opened his front door walking towards us with Laim behind. He furrowed his brows when he saw May sitting next to me. Zayn is very jealous and overprotective when he's in a relationship or likes a girl so the last thing I wanted was for him to put meaning to anything. My head was in the clouds as I saw May walking to them, I didn't even notice when she got out of my car.

She nodded towards Laim and he spoke back and proceeded to walk towards me. Next thing I know, she smashed her lips onto Zayn's. That looked f*****g hot, just the way she did it. I tried to look away but couldn't. She looked like a damn good kisser and I found myself wanting to confirm if that was true of not.

Zayn pulled her closer and I was losing it when Liam opened the front seat and sat next to me.

"Hey mate" Laim greeted and I replied offhandedly. I cleared my throat as I saw May and Zayn making their way towards us. They both sat at the back and I drove off. Zayn couldn't keep his hands off May and I was very thankful to Liam who kept messing with them by interrupting the kissing sessions. The more I saw her chewing off my best friend's face, the more I imagined her in inappropriate ways. Which was f*****g wrong because I'm dating her best friend and she is kind of dating mine for f**k's sake.

She looked extremely sexy with her slightly swollen lips. I groaned inwardly.

The ride was painfully long compared to other days. I parked in my drive way and everyone got out of the car. May pulled Zayn in for another kiss as Liam and I walked into my house leaving them alone.

We made our way towards my bedroom. I pulled out my phone to check if I had gotten any texts from Kelly but nothing. I groaned frustratedly causing Liam to look at me funny but I ignored him. Kelly was going to be the death of me.

I flopped back on my bed exhaustedly. Liam typed away on his phone and within no time Zayn appeared.

"So you and May are pretty serious huh?" Liam asked and I was glad.

Zayn shrugged. I've known him long enough to know that he doesn't really like talking about his love interest.

"Yeah.. I really like her" was all Zayn said. I've also known Liam long enough to know that he doesn't just let it go.

"Exactly how much?" He asked. Yup he was going to push it. I sat up to watch them. Zayn rolled his eyes obviously planning to ignore Liam.

"Because I haven't seen you that horny in ages" Liam teased and I chuckled.

"Have you not seen her? She's bomb, what can I say?" Zayn defended his hormones.

"And now you notice?" Liam pressed on. He was right but I couldn't blame Zayn. May is f*****g hot and it's now I even noticed.

Zayn shrugged "Nope, I always have but let's be honest she looks kind of bitchy to approach" Zayn said chuckling. I couldn't agree more, I never tried speaking to her but she did look like a slob. Even now that I know it's just her front, I walk on egg shells around her.

Liam burst out laughing and I joined. "I tried talking to her once and she just passed by like I wasn't even there" Liam said between laughs.

"That's because you looked like you were trying to catch a fly" I teased. I remembered that day oh so clearly. I can't blame May, he did look foolish.

We continued to talk about May and Kelly's name popped up. The guys agreed that it was strange as well and Zayn decided to send her a text to see if she would reply in which she did instantly. I felt a pang of hurt.

She was actually avoiding me.

I made up my mind to give her space. The guys and I just sat in my basement playing games.

It was around 12:43 and the guys called up May and Mariana to ask if they wanted to go hang out at he beach in which they accepted.

We decided to go with my car so we were currently seated as we waited for the the ladies. I saw them make their way towards my car.

Mariana was wearing a short jeans and a blue bikini bra in which I assumed she was wearing the panty underneath. She had a big bag hanging on her shoulder.

May on the other hand was wearing a mustard swimming trunk with a black booty shorts or whatever it's called. Her hair looked wet as they hung freely, she also had a bag on her shoulder.

They opened the car and slipped in with May in the middle, sitting next to Zayn and Mariana by the window.

I pulled off. The ride was anything but quiet. May insisted that we played take me home by Jess Glynne? I have no idea who she is but watching her sing along was amusing. There was also an awkward silence between Liam and Mariana. They couldn't keep their hands off each other days ago but now they were barely even looking at each other.

He must have told her about Annie.

We arrived at the beach and made our way in. It wasn't really crowded because we chose a lonely beach which isn't frequented. We stopped by a liquor store and Zayn went in to get a s**t ton of Liquor.

We settled for a spot in which there weren't a lot of people. We laid our blankets on the sand getting comfortable. May sat down next to Mariana and Liam next to me whiles Zayn say next to May.

Mariana pulled out a bottle of hennesy. She opened it up and gulped it down like she didn't have a care in the world. She passed it to May who gulped down as well and passed it on to Zayn.

Zayn did the same and passed it to me and I skied, hanging the bottle above my lips and passed it to Liam. I guess no cups then.

My eyes widened when I saw May rise to her feet and pulled down her shorts. Parts of her breasts could be seen from her side which wasn't covered by the mustard fabric. Her n*****s could be seen through her attire and I probably shouldn't have looked but maybe it was the alcohol.

Liam passed the bottle back to Mariana that tried not to let their hands brush. May sat between Zayn's legs and leaned back into his chest.

Mariana passed it to Zayn who took a swing and passed it to May. We the guys were the only ones lifting the bottle above out lips except for when May passed it to Zayn and he literally sucked the bottle- because it was her.

May passed it to me and before I could process what was happening, I had the bottle between my lips. Her eyes were on mine and looked taken aback. She probably expected me not to drink directly from the bottle. I expected me not to as well but I did. It wasn't a big deal either but the way she looked at me made me put meaning to it.

I turned away and gave the bottle to Liam. I shouldn't be thinking about May the way I was because of Kelly but who can blame me? I've always been a hormonal teenager. I know I have to snap out of it and set my head straight because I couldn't afford to loose Kelly, much less Zayn. I needed to keep a distance from May, she could cause a lot I damage if I didn't and I tend to always have what I want.

Let's just say I have a hard time keeping my hands to myself sometimes...

May's POV

I passed the bottle to Harry after I gulped down as much as I could. Mariana and I were the only ones drinking directly from the bottle whiles the guys skied except for Zayn who drank directly from it because I had handed it to him.

My eyes widened as I watched Harry put the bottle between his lips. Everyone else seemed oblivious to it but his eyes were glued on mine. Something about the way he was looking at me turned me on a f*****g lot and I couldn't look away. At that point I didn't care who noticed.

Why was he looking at me like that? I became extremely confused. If I wasn't smart I would have thought he was doing it intentionally. Maybe it was meant to be harmless but I put meaning to it.

He turned away after what seemed like hours of blatantly staring at me. He handed the bottle to Liam.

Niall and Louis showed up shortly after with a bluetooth speaker that Zayn connected to his phone and played his type of music for us which I actually liked.

"Mar can we go talk for a minute?" I heard Liam speak to Mariana and from the look on her face she was dreading every second of it.

She looked my way pleadingly but I refused to help her out. Call me mean but she needed 'the talk' with Liam, it could do her some good. I watched her leave, at least if they talked it out the atmosphere wouldn't be awkward.

The guys begun to talk about their favourite topic- s*x. I've never been one to feel awkward whenever the topic arose, after all, it is indeed something we all do really enjoy.

Niall was extremely explicit when he told us about how he met a s*x craved girl that practically r***d him but he wasn't going to complain because he loved every part of it.

The guys chuckled rolling their eyes. They must've heard that story countless times.

"When did you lose yours?" Louis asked looking at me. I looked around to see who he was talking to before confirming it was me. Zayn's nails tightened around my thighs. It was obvious he didn't want to know and I know for a fact that that was why Louis asked, to get on Zayn's nerves. Louis was grinning so hard that I worried his facial muscles would hurt.

I shrugged, totally ignoring Zayn's act of plea. As I've said before, talking about s*x isn't something that makes me feel uncomfortable.

"Erm months ago actually" I answered. With Olly, but I didn't add the last part. Their eyes widened except for Harry who remained expressionless. I wish I could see Zayn's face but I was sitting before him.

"No way" Niall stated. He thought I was lying. I shrugged.

"How was it?" Niall asked and my mouth fell open. Really? Did he expect me to tell exactly how it was? The only people I told were Kelly and Mariana.

"I honestly don't want to know this" Zayn said seriously.

"Its just a question" Louis argued and I couldn't help but roll my eyes. At that point I was sure they had never been more curious in their lives.

"Yeah like I want to hear about another d**k fu-" Zayn was losing it so I interrupted him.

"Okay okay okay" I said raising my hands up. I didn't mind telling but out of respect for Zayn's feelings I wasn't going to.

I turned around and planted a kiss to his lips. We have been kissing a lot the entire day. Niall and Louis rolled their eyes at Zayn for ruining their fun.

We talked back and forth and I noticed that Mariana and Liam still weren't back yet. Zayn, Niall and Louis excused themselves to go into the ocean but Harry stayed behind.

I smiled lazily at him and averted my gaze away from him. I took another swing from the bottle of alcohol and Harry's eyes were glued on it that I asked if he wanted it.

He nodded and I handed it to him. He sucked from the bottle again. It felt like we kissed indirectly in a way and I wanted nothing more than to throw myself on top of him and have my way with him. I turned away sharply.

Think about Kelly May. He's her boyfriend who happens to be the best friend of the boy you were kissing minutes ago.

"So how was it?" My head snapped to Harry's direction. I was distracted and probably looked lost. What was he talking about?

"The s*x" He answered my unasked question. I was shocked to say the least. Harry f*****g Styles was asking me about how my first time was. I know I said earlier that I didn't feel uncomfortable talking about my s*x life but in that moment I wanted to burry myself.

"Errm errr" I stuttered trying to come up with a way to tell him to f**k off but nothing came out of my mouth. I was a nervous wreck. My first time was the best? I had nothing to compare it to...

Saved by the f*****g best friend.

Liam and Mariana came back just in time and I couldn't be happier. Harry on the other hand kept looking at me, I could feel it.

Mariana and Liam looked weird. Liam's hair was messy and Mariana's bikini bra just looked slightly twisted. Realization hit me, they were somewhere getting down and dirty. Make up s*x?

The guys joined us shortly and we continued to joke. I avoided Harry the entire time. I was trying to get over him but he wasn't making it easy. The last thing I wanted was for his harmless actions to consume me.

As soon as Zayn returned I gave him a long ass kiss to set my head back on track. His mouth is my sane tablet. It didn't work though, when I kissed Zayn, I had imagined Harry's lips on mine instead. f**k I was screwed.

We were driving to go have dinner. Zayn and I hitched a ride with Niall and Louis whiles Mariana went along with Harry and Liam. The ride was normal, I was just texting Kelly and Mariana in our group chat through out.

It was weird because Kelly never once spoke about Harry, if anything she avoided talking about him.

We arrived at chicks and ribs. It was more like a pub with pool tables in the middle and booths here and there. The smell of cigarettes and hookah filled my nostril immediately we entered.

I held onto Zayn as we made our to a booth. I was about to sit down when Zayn gave me a not so discreet smack on the butt. We were all settled with me between Zayn and Niall, Liam was sitting between Harry and Mariana.

We ordered for our food. We were eating and talking at the same time. Now I get why Mariana said Harry can be a dork sometimes. He kept cracking jokes along with Niall. Being with them felt like I was in England, their accents were thick. Some of their slangs left me confused. I thought by now that they would have outgrown it by nope, it was still fresh in their mouths like they all just moved to America yesterday.

We transfered to the pool table as the guys played whiles Mariana and I cheered on. I was cheering for Zayn when he played against Harry and kissed him as good luck which he didn't object. Niall and Louis we currently playing. I was leaning against the wall lazily a bit isolated from everyone else. The waiter came up to me with a drink and I furrowed my brows.

"Sorry I didn't order this" I told him politely showing him the drink I already had.

"This is from the gentleman over there" He said pointing. A very handsome guy waved at me, he looked in his early twenties.

Before I could reply I felt an arm snake around my waist. I turned to see Zayn asking the waiter what was happening. The rest of our squad were just standing looking our way.

The waiter explained to Zayn and walked away taking the drink with him. Next thing I know, I was pressed against the wall with Zayn's lips on mine... marking his territory.

I kissed back just as eagerly. His tongue entered my mouth and I sucked on it as he sucked on mine as well. His hands made their way to my booty pants and squeezed my butt. I moaned into his mouth, pulling him closer to me than he already was.

He pulled back and leaned his forehead on mine for a second and then he turned around to look at the man that sent the drinks. There was just something about his protective nature that turned me the f**k on.

He pulled me with him towards the pool table where everyone was and he continued playing his game like nothing has happen. I was just standing there at a loss of words....

Wow...