Why Not Me?

Chapter 2

May's POV

"I can't believe you guys talked me into this" I whined bitterly as I squeezed myself into a tight black dress. Mariana looked concerned minutes ago when Kelly mentioned Harry being there as well but then there was a smirk on her face when she sent me a text saying I needed this if I wanted to get over Harry.

Why did she make sense though? Ugh

As soon as I agreed Mariana had forcefully done my makeup because I refused to wear any. Thankfully she didn't overdo it this time and just stuck with a natural look. I left my hair to hang down my shoulders freely not giving it any of my time. Kelly wore a black bodycon matching set, leaving her beautiful blonde hair to cascade down her shoulders. Mariana was the only one wearing a different color, white dress that exposed her back and she held her hair in a neat ponytail. Her makeup fleeking.

This was going to be a long night.

Within 30 minutes we were all ready, the same girls that claimed to be very tired minutes ago.

We hurried into Kelly's car and she drove off. I connected the aux cord to my phone and blasted alone together by fall out boy.

"That's more like it" I stated proudly and they chuckled but I couldn't care about their outburst. They thought my taste in music was weird but oh well screw them anyways.

Bistro was not very far from her house so within no time we arrived. Getting a place to park was the only problem.

"Seriously?" Kelly yelled at the driver that made a run for our parking spot .

"Hey you jerk" Mariana barked as well but I on the other hand didn't care honestly. I was dreading the moment I'd step my foot in anyway.

It took us a few minutes to get a vacant space. My heart was pounding in my chest at a pace that was completely new to me. The last thing I wanted was to hang out with Harry and his friends. They always looked at me like I was dirt? I don't know how to explain this but I'm sure they all thought I was a weird bimbo or something. I've known his entire clique for years but I've never spoken to any of them. We made our way towards the entrance steadily. I was nervous as hell and it was either Kelly is just plain dumb or way too distracted to notice.

"Calm down! You'd be fine" Mariana spoke loud enough so only I could hear her, Kelly was walking in front of us. I nodded but I'm sure she could still see my nervousness, I mean come on I kept biting my lips - trust me when I say I wasn't doing it in a sexy way. I groaned.

Get yourself together May. Ugh

As soon as we entered I spotted them in the corner. My heart stopped and my entire body froze.

Harry looked like a Greek God as always. He spoke to Zayn effortlessly and graciously. I could only see his white shirt because they were all seated but I knew for a fact that he was wearing those extremely tight black jeans of his. There was Liam, Zayn, Niall, Louis, Iola and her sister Bella.

"Hey guys" Kelly said. We all just exchanged greetings but I didn't dare look at Harry. He stood to his feet and hugged Kelly. Zayn excused for Kelly and Mariana to slide into the booth. I was left outside standing awkwardly and I took a seat at the edge next to Zayn. Everyone started chatting amongst each other and I just sat there. I felt so out of place. It was easy for Mariana cause she actually hangs out with them and as for Kelly it was super easy for her because she believes she was made to be famous and would fit in anywhere.

For the first time I felt truly invisible. I just sat there silently as everyone chatted back and forth.

Harry couldn't keep his eyes off her. He looked at her as if she was his most valued trophy and that killed me.

The waitress came to take our order. I found it extremely rude how she kept flirting with the boys at our table. I get it, they are all f*****g gorgeous but she needed to show some respect. There were girls at the table and anyone of us could have been their girlfriends.

I mean Kelly is Harry's girlfriend and considering the fact that she kept shamelessly trying to flirt with him was very disrespectful. She needed to have some respect for Kelly...

And for me as well...

Thankfully Harry didn't pay any attention to her. He was far too busy chatting up Kelly.

"Why are you so silent?" Liam asked from across the booth staring at me. At first I didn't know he was talking to me but then I quickly caught on cause he held my gaze.

"I'm not one to talk much" I lied immediately cause I thought to myself that it'd be awkward explaining that it's because I'm not familiar with them even though I've seen them around for years.

"Yeah right, she is one to be begged to shut up" Mariana joked and everyone chuckled including myself.

It was weird being at the same table with Harry considering the fact that he has ignored my messages for ages. My presence.

"Oh shut up" I stuck out my tongue before I could even think. Mariana faked disgust and I rolled my eyes at her. I was always scared that my eyes would roll out one day because of how I rolled it constantly. I would definitely blame Kelly and Mariana if that ever happened.

Harry and Kelly paid no attention to our petty chat though. They were just whispering into each other's ears smiling like two love struck poppies.

"How can you say that? I'm no gay but I'd rather f**k a dog than like Justin Bieber" Louis stated and the rest of the guys nodded in approval except for Harry who was busy with his 'girlfriend'. We the girls faked shock, we were probably just used to guys saying this by now. They were jealous of the fine young man. He was my second option any day.

"Not to mention that his songs are trash" Niall added. Kylie pinched his side and we all chuckled.

"So you are a Justin Bieber fan too?" Zayn asked me loud enough for everyone to hear. I had been silent for most of the conversation just chipping in occasionally.

"Pfft" I chuckled nervously. "Who isn't?" The boys looked bored by then but we the girls just kept talking to irritate them even more. Kelly agreed to how amazing Justin Bieber was and Harry didn't look pleased if I must say. But let's face it, there was no chance for Kelly with Justin Bieber so I guess Harry was in the clear.

The night wasn't so bad and I was actually enjoying myself. Zayn and I kept talking to each other and I got to know a lot about him and the rest of the guys. I just wished Harry would have opened up too but he was hung up on Kelly.

I was bent over laughing and when I sat back up straight my eyes almost fell out of my socket. I fear for the first time in my life I felt my heart literally stop as I watched Harry exchange saliva with my best friend. Everyone else seemed oblivious to it but my worst nightmare was happening right before my eyes. I turned to see Mariana looking at me. I just smiled assuring her I was okay but deep down I wanted to drown myself, come back to life and stab myself back to death.

This is going to be harder than I thought.

I stood up and walked away. I couldn't spend another second there. I couldn't watch him kiss her eagerly like his life depended on it. My legs wanted to betray me but I forced myself not to crumble.

I made my way to the restroom in no time. I stood in front of the mirror watching myself. I wanted to cry it all out but I couldn't, I just stood there without a single tear threatening to fall. I felt nothing after feeling everything. I smiled and walked out of the bathroom..

I have been through hell and back and even though I was a little bit broken, I always held my head up. This wasn't going to break me.

I decided to go to the mini ice cream stand up stairs. That's the only thing that could make me feel human once again.

"Hey" I smiled at the fine gentleman that was behind the counter smiling back at me.

"Hello" He replied genuinely.

"May I have vanilla cream ice cream with almond fudge?" I said politely. He smiled and nodded reaching for the plastic cup.

"Hey" I turned around to the side to see Harry standing next to me. I rolled my eyes internally, great so you want to talk to me now because you are dating my best friend?

The thought alone killed me already. I felt so hurt all over again. It took Kelly to make it happen.. Wow.

But I was also extremely happy. He is making an effort even though it's not how I'd want it.

"Hi" I smiled but it didn't reach my eyes. The cute guy behind the counter turns his attention to me.

"Here you go"

"Thank you err" I squinted to read his name tag "Mason" I smiled. I could feel Harry's eyes on me. I handed Mason the money for the ice cream, he smiled charmingly and nodded. I turned to Harry.

"I'm gonna go join the guys" Without waiting for his reply I turned to walk away but was stopped.

"May" Harry's voice filled my ears. Butterflies erupted in my stomach. I've never heard him mention my name ever. I turned around quickly almost falling on my face. Thumbs up to being clumsy as f**k.

"Yeah.. yeah" I steadied myself.

"I want to get ice cream for Kelly. What's her favorite ice cream?" He asked casually. It took every bone within me to push aside my hurt. The first time we ever get to talk after 10 years and that's what comes out of his mouth? I wanted to slap him for not seeing me. Why can't he see me? I swallowed hard. How is it possible to love a stranger this much. Well he isn't a stranger cause I know everything there is to know about him.

Asshole. Asshole. Asshole.

I smiled but as usual it didn't reach my eyes.

"She hates ice cream" I shrugged. His eyes widened.

"I've never met a girl that hated ice cream" He made his way towards me. I looked at him like I was staring at his soul, through my lashes but it wasn't a sexy stare.

"She's not just any girl" I said. I wanted to remain silent but Kelly is really not just any girl and even though I convinced my mind that I wanted Harry to hurt her, deep down seeing her happy makes me happy and if he ever did hurt her it'll kill me.

Harry smiled widely. I've watched him date several girls for years and I never once saw him get soo excited about any of them in particular.

"I know" Was all he said. I stood before a guy that I saw everything in and he was standing before me seeing everything in someone else. Life is a b***h. I smiled and walked away towards the rest of the group.

I scooted back in my previous seat next to Zayn. He smiled widely when I got back.

"I wanted to come look for you. You looked off" He smiled a smile I wish I could fall for. I've only been talking to this guy for a few minutes and I already like him as a person. He always looked soo mysterious to me because of how he dresses but sitting next to him now he just looks like the most normal boy I've ever met.

"I went to get ice cream dummy" I showed it to him. In came Harry with a box of chocolates for Kelly.

Don't get jealous May.

Zayn and I shared my ice cream and joked around as we got to know each other better.

"Hey guys! It's past time so lets start heading over" Iola called everyone's attention. Everyone nodded in agreement and rose to their feet.

I cleared my throat " I think I'd just head home guys" I announced. I didn't mind going out to party with them but I wasn't happy and needed to be far away from everything that's going on here even though Zayn is absolutely the best, I couldn't pull in together.

I was done pretending for the night.

"Why? It's still early silly" Bella asked. I could see Kelly and Mariana glaring at me, if only eyes could kill. I personally feel like I've done my best just by being here and couldn't take it any longer. If I wanted to keep breathing I had to get the f**k out of there. Just the look in Harry's eyes when he looked at her killed me. Like she was the most beautiful thing he'd ever laid eyes on. Why didn't he look at me like that? Why didn't he see me?

I just smiled in response to Bella. The last thing I wanted to do was talk and I silently prayed that Mariana would back me up but I guess my prayer didn't get answered.

Suddenly she was mute. Soo much for having my back.

"There is no way in hell I'm letting you leave" Niall said.

"Me too" Louis added and I couldn't help but roll my eyes at them even though it was cute.

"Me three" Zayn muttered loud enough for my hearing alone. I smiled and it did reach my eyes this time.

Everyone kept going on and on about how I wasn't allowed to leave. Kelly and Mariana scolded me and my excuses didn't cut it as usual. There was no escaping that and I just threw my hands up in surrender.

"Fine" I surrendered to their whimps. Bitches..

We were all quite a lot to fit into a single car so we just stuck to the cars we had originally come with. Mariana, Kelly and I sat in Kelly's car. I internally prayed that no one would speak because I just needed peace and quiet to think. But hell no I couldn't have just that.

"I've never been this happy in ages" Kelly chirped. Somehow that statement made me smile. She has always been in relationships but never really excited. She was always just in them because she didn't want to be alone. At that point I didn't know if I was happy for her or envious of her but I guess it's both. I liked seeing her this happy even if it was at my own expense.

"I'm glad you're happy" I said and my heart didn't disagree with what came out of my mouth. This was going to take some time but I guess I'd get used to them being together. It only matters that they are happy right? We just kept talking, Mariana kept trying to read my expression to see if I was being honest. Honestly speaking, I got too caught up in how happy she was and how I wanted her to be happy that I was happy too. It wasn't getting to me at that point.

We parked about two blocks away from the house but we could still hear the loud music that was booming through the speakers. The neighbors must be tired of complaining because I heard Jeff throws these parties every weekend even though I've only attended a few times. We all gathered up. Kelly immediately finding her way into Harry's arms. Mariana to Liam, they've been really flirty the whole night but they looked extremely cute together. I gave her a questioning look but she just shrugged it off discreetly. I always knew she liked him but she was just in denial.

Bella made her way to Louis and Iola to Niall even though they were all only just friends. It was kind of awkward having Iola around because she is Harry's ex. I know for a fact that she still loves him but he just played her. At least I wasn't the only one dying inside when Harry was all over Kelly. Zayn finished parking and walked towards us. He reached for my hand and locked our fingers. I couldn't help but smile. He is the best but I was a little bit scared that he was interested in more than friendship. I couldn't bare to break his little heart. Seeing him for years, I've come to notice that he isn't one to just play with the feelings of girls. We all walked towards the party house with Zayn's hand still in mine. There were people around, dancing, making out, passed out and smoking. As soon as we entered the house everyone just disappeared into thin air except for Zayn that stayed with me. I was glad he came tonight because he made it bearable for me.

He lead me towards the kitchen through the crowd. There was literally no space to pass. I was glad he was holding my hand because we could have lost each other.

There were people sitting on the counter with red plastic cups in their hands, some passing weed back and forth and there was Harry, Kelly and Niall. Kelly was standing in between Harry's legs as he sat on the counter, her hands resting on his thighs and Niall was just sitting next to Harry with a cup in his hand as he typed on his phone screen. Harry and Kelly looked soo happy if I must say. We made our way towards them. Zayn and I sat opposite them on the counter in the middle of the kitchen.

"I'm going to go get us something to drink. Be right back" Zayn whispered into my ears because of the blasting music. His warm breath fanning against my ears. He smelled soo nice. I nodded as he hopped off the counter and went where the alcoholic beverages were kept. Everyone was soo wasted, dancing like there was no care in the world. Niall came to sit near me and we were talking back and forth over the loud music. He is quite the funny guy. I couldn't stop laughing my ass off within a few minutes but my eyes couldn't stop wandering to Harry and Kelly who were busy making out like there was no tomorrow. My throat was very dry and the worst part was I had to pretend like my attention wasn't there and that I was listening to every word coming out of Niall's mouth. There was no way I was going to have fun. Zayn returned with two red plastic cups filled with alcohol. He grinned and handed one to me. I took it and mouthed thank you. My grief was real and the only thing I could think about was gulping down the substance in my hand. Zayn and Niall cheered and encouraged me.

Within no time my cup was empty. My throat was on fire and I felt extremely hot within. The only way I could make it through the night was if I couldn't remember it the next day and not live through it.

Alcohol was my only escape.

And escaping I was.

Harry's Pov.

I never knew I had feelings for Kelly until it was a few days to our graduation. She suddenly became the thought that consumed me. I stared at her every chance I could get. She moved in town in the 9th grade but we barely spoke and I never really paid attention to her. One day I was just hanging with my friends and she passed by with her two best friends, Mariana and May. From afar I could tell they were joking around and messing with each other and the smile she had on her face gave her away. I couldn't bring myself to look away. She was just too perfect and I had no idea why I didn't see that long time ago until we were all about to graduate. I became restless and needed to have her. Now here she is, all mine as we made out in the kitchen at Jeff's party. Kissing her has quickly become my favorite thing to do. And with her it just feels like it's meant to be. I've always been a jerk but when it comes to her I know I could never make a single tear roll down her cheek.

I'd hate myself if that ever happened.

"Can you guys get a room?" Iola said as soon as she made her way towards us. She was joking but I can't help but think there is some seriousness to it because we were dating once. She was my longest relationship and at some point I really cared about her but I ended it even though she kept begging me not to hurt her...

I'm such a horrible person. I definitely didn't deserve Kelly.

I can be heartless sometimes and I know it. Like for May example. I've known her for 10 years but never spoke to her. She tried a couple of times to establish that friendship considering we live opposite each other but I just ignored her. I have no reason for doing it, I guess I just wasn't interested and now that her best friend and I are dating I'd be seeing her a lot and I guess that might be awkward like today. I just feel weird talking to her...

As for Mariana we have been friends since I moved into the neighborhood. I smirked and rolled my eyes at Kendall and Kelly just blushed and snuggled into my shoulder. God can this girl be any less cuter than she already is? I asked myself as I stared at her. Opposite us were Niall, Zayn and May. They seemed to be having fun. Its soo obvious Zayn is feeling May cause he can't keep his eyes off her. This is literally my first time seeing her talk to any of them. May on the other hand looked drunk. She was laughing and looked free. I've always thought of her as a weird and shy person but she just looked carefree.

She looked free.

She hopped off the counter almost falling flat on her face but Zayn held onto her waist quickly. She giggled pushing his hand away and grabbed it, dragging him away with her leaving Niall to his phone. The rest haven't been seen since we got here. Kendall and Kelly got into a conversation that I couldn't be bothered with so I pulled out my phone to do whatever it is I could do. The old me would have been drunk by now but I didn't want to wake up the next morning with no memory of tonight. I didn't want to wake up and forget the way Kelly would have giggle, laugh, blush and everything that followed.

"Do you want to get out of here?" Kelly asked biting her lower lip. God she looked soo f*****g sexy and a thousand thoughts of what I could do to her clouded my mind. I nodded frantically and jumped down. She held my hand in hers and started leading the way. The look on Kendall's face wasn't a pretty one. She looked pale and drained... I spotted Mariana and Liam chewing off each other's faces on the dance floor. I knew she liked him but she always denied it, girls. I also saw May and Zayn on the dance floor as we climbed the stairs. My eyes widened when I saw her grinding on Zayn against the wall. I could see Kelly's face from the corner of my eyes and she looked shocked. I guess May doesn't do this often.

She lead me up the stairs. I was nervous because I knew what she was doing, normally I'd be the one doing it but this time around she was in control. For the first time I'm not the one trying to get into someone's pants and I've f****d a lot of girls so imagine.

The first room she opened was empty so we entered. She locked the door and switched on the light with my hand still in hers. She turned around and pecked me on my lips and turned around swiftly making her way to the bathroom. I made myself comfortable by sitting on bed waiting nervously. It took minutes and she still wasn't back.

I laid back on my back with my hands beneath my head, staring at the ceiling. Seconds later the bathroom door opened and there stood Kelly only in a underwear. My eyes widened, she looked breath taking. She took slow strides towards me never once breaking eye contact. Time literally stood still. I immediately sat up straight. She stood before me with her half naked body exposed. She was driving me crazy. I've never been driven crazy. I was speechless.

'Say something i***t' I thought to myself. I opened my mouth several times to speak but I looked like a fish trying to eat as much as I could.

That isn't a sexy look. Get yourself together Harry.

She straddled me, our faces just inches away from each other.

"I want you soo bad Harry" She whispered even though we were the only ones in the room. Her words sent shivers throughout my body. The effect she had on me was incredible. She smashed her lips onto mine.

God... I was going to make her mine in ways she didn't think possible.