Why Not Me?

Chapter 9 [T W O]

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I woke up on a bed next to May. She was sleeping peacefully and I didn't want to disturb her. I rolled out of bed and made my way downstairs and out the door to my house.

The house was completely empty because my family left for a a trip which I refused to join.

I took a quick shower and wore a grey sweatpants and a black t-shirt and made my way back to May's house. I just feel really comfortable there.

I heard loud music immediately I entered so I just made my way to her room.

She had already freshened up and was wearing a black sweatpants and a white t-shirt. She looks beautiful in white. She looked really good in a boyish outfit with her hair left hanging on her shoulder.

She paid no attention to me even though she knew I was there.

"Zayn said to come over, do you want to tag along?" She asked showing her phone screen to me. Considering everything that happened yesterday I just wanted to be far away from all the hangouts for a few hours at least. I shook my head no. She shrugged and typed on her screen.

"So what do you want to do today?" She asked cheerfully.

"Aren't you going over to Zayn's?" I asked with a quirked eyebrow.

"Nope" she said popping the p. God she's beautiful.

"I wanted us to go but since you aren't interested we could just do something else" She explained as though I was dumb. She wanted to spend the day with me? Somehow that made me smile. When I'm with May I don't think about Kelly compared to when I'm alone but I still think about her and miss her. I rolled my eyes and chuckled.

"Hey I'm not dumb" I pinched her sides and she flinched swatting my hand away.

She fake glared at me but I could tell she wanted to laugh.

"Isn't someone dressed like a boy?" I teased and she folded her arms like a small girl.

"I rock this outfit better than you anyways" She poked her tongue out and I laughed. I've been feeling so much better now even though things with Kelly wasn't good. I didn't like the new her and I think that's the only thing making this easy for me.

"Let's go get breakfast shall we?" She asked rising to her feet and standing before me still looking at her phone.

"I thought you'd never ask" I said reaching my hand out for her to pull me up which she did.

"So where to?" I asked as we walked side by side down the stairs.

She just shrugged "how about we just go get fruits and then off to my favorite place?" She said and I paused to look at her as we walked through the front door.

"For real? I thought you said you have never taken anyone there?" I asked rather shocked. She didn't stop walking. She scratched her neck. "Erm you said you wanted to be the first and I just feel like being there today" She shrugged again. I couldn't help but smile widely. She had already grown to trust me this much to take me where she's never even taken her best friends.

"Can I drive?" She asked as we reached my car.

"Well if you can reach it then yeah" I said as I raised the keys above my head.

"Oi so you want to play dirty huh?" She laughed and jumped way up and pulled it out of my grip. I widened my eyes because I had no idea she could jump that high. She did a happy dance whiles I was still in my state of shock. She hopped onto the driver's seat and I the passenger seat. Seconds passed and she didn't start the engine and I turned to see her already looking at me expectantly.

I creased my brows "what?"

"Erm seatbelt please" She said like a mother scolding her child to put on their seatbelt. I refused and she also refused to drive off so I eventually ended up putting on my seatbelt which she smiled like a proud mother and drove off.

The car ride was silent while she drove but I couldn't help but stare at her, she looked so focused whiles her front hair fell on her forehead. There was just something about her in that particular moment that I couldn't point on but I know for sure that I stared more than I should have. She turned suddenly and caught me but she just smiled and diverted her eyes back to the road. A few minutes later we arrived at the supermarket.

She parked and we entered in search of delicious fruits. She picked up a small basket totally taking control. I just followed her like a lost puppy. She picked up a couple of fruits such as apple, beetroot which I complained bitterly but she just ignored me, guava, strawberries, grapes and other fruits which I barely knew.

"May" A strange looking guy called her as we made our way to the counter. We looked back immediately and her face dropped. She literally looked like she wanted to run the f**k out of there. She smiled awkwardly as he walked towards us.

"Hi Olly. How are ya?" She asked trying to sound cheerful. I just stood there watching them interact. I didn't like the way he was looking at her but it wasn't my place to intrude so I didn't. I vowed to myself not to think about May the way I have been for a couple of days. It was just wrong.

"Yeah see you later" She said as he walked away. A sigh left her lips immediately he was at a far distance and I couldn't help but laugh. She pinched my side

"Shhhh that's not funny" She scolded.

"You looked like you could bury yourself" I teased further.

"Truss bury is an understatement" she added and we made our way to the counter. That was another long story after she insisted she wanted to pay for the fruits but I being a gentleman said no. It took us several seconds arguing at the counter before we spilt up the bill since that was the only way. She is very stubborn if I must add.

Once again we made our way to my car and she pulled off.

"It's not funny. That was very awkward" she said whiles still focused on the road.

Apparently the guy at the supermarket was her first and ever since then she claims to just feel really awkward around him.

It felt strange because I didn't even know what she had seen in that guy in the first place.

She drove slightly out of our community and into the woods. Exactly where I picked her from the last time. I guess I have the answer to my question. We kept talking about her s****l experiences which I kept teasing her about.

She parked in the middle of no where. I looked at her as though she was crazy. This? Her favorite place in the world? This?

"Are you trying to get us eaten by those bitches in the wrong turn?" I asked her sarcastically and she rolled her eyes whiles leading the way deeper into the forest with the stuff we got from the supermarket in her hand.

"Don't worry I'd protect you" She said and I huffed. Protect me? That's the total opposite of what would happen if we indeed got into any form of trouble. I chuckled and kept whining about how the road would never come to an end.

Finally she stopped in front of a big tree that was isolated from the rest of the trees. It was a huge open field unlike anything I'd ever seen. It looked magnificent. She turned towards me with the brightest smile on her face. It was just a new side of her I'd never seen before. She looked so happy like she had everything she'd ever wanted.

There was just something in that moment that looked extremely beautiful about her and again I found myself smiling.

"What are you doing?" I snapped back to reality when I saw her climbing the massive tree.

"This is not the best part" Was all she said as she kept climbing. I took that as my cue to follow her and I did. I saw a wide branch that she sat on and laid the fruits next to her. I sat opposite her and my mouth fell open. The beauty was too much to take in. I could see the entire forest. There were no buildings around but it was simply fantastic and amazing. I'd never stop thanking her for bringing me here.

"This is the only thing I'm scared to leave behind" She told me. I turned to look at her and I was mistaken. The smile on her face and the fear in her eyes when she spoke about this place intrigued me.

"I started coming here since I was 10. Well once my nanny forgot to come get me from school and I was in a bus on my way home and overslept and passed my stop. I woke up right where I parked and then got down. I panicked and called but she said she'd arrive within an hour" I took in her features carefully as she spoke with soo much happiness. The last time I saw her this happy was when we were drunk off our asses and laughed our asses off for no reason.

"I was bored so I kept walking deeper and deeper into the forest. Then I saw this. The beauty amazed me but then I got scared of seeing wild animals and climbed up this tree. That's the only thing I'm proud of in my life" She told me and I couldn't help but smile. She was letting me in. Opening up to me in ways she hadn't opened up to her best friends or anyone for that matter.

"I never told anyone because I didn't want anyone to take 'this' away from me" She added, answering my unasked question. I totally understood her. It's her thing and now it's our thing? I pray she lets me come here, I wouldn't without her permission.

I listened to all her stories and shared a few with her. We ate the fruits we had and just looked at the view before us. We were there for hours.

The ride back home was fun as well. She couldn't stop smiling and neither could I.

"Hey you want to go to a party tonight?" I asked her. She remained quiet for a while contemplating.

"The guys are all going" I added and she looked at me smiling.

"Yeah sure" She told me as she pulled into my driveway.

I got down and so did she.

It was still early probably a little pass lunch time but hey we were still going to eat anyways.

I lead the way into my house and she followed. She looked uncomfortable because it was the first time she had entered my house in years. My mum and Gemma really like her so she used to come over once in a while when we were little but she stopped. I lead her upstairs to my room.

"Typical" she teased immediately she entered. Oh but I saw that coming. We had soon developed a playful friendship. We went on for seconds arguing about how I am a clean freak and I went on defending myself that I'm not. I left her for a few minutes to come down stairs and make pasta which I did damn well and went back up.

"I can't believe you cooked this" she said with a mouth full. I laughed at how she enjoyed it. She is the first girl I've ever cooked for apart from Gemma but I wasn't going to tell her that. We finished eating and I took the plates to the kitchen where she joined me. We sat on the couch just talking. I hadn't seen her on her phone the entire day except for when we were still at her place and to my surprise I hadn't been on my phone either. I could just imagine the amount of messages I had.

"So are we going for dinner tonight before partying?" She asked. Zayn told me that Kelly was going to show up for the dinner and the last thing I wanted was to see her so I declined his offer for the dinner. If she looked at her phone she would probably see texts from Zayn telling her to meet him.

"Well they are but we aren't" I told her and she creased her brows probably expecting me to explain further but I didn't.

"But I want to eat dinner" She whined shortly after she noticed she wasn't getting an explanation. I chuckled

"We are going for dinner but just you and I" I told her and she sighed in relief.

"You are such a foodie" I teased and she faked hurt

"You better take that back" she warned but I quirked my brow challenging her. She sprung on me tickling me whiles I laughed my ass off trying to stop her but she was just too good at it.

She was soon straddling me and I just flipped us over hovering over her small frame. She kept laughing and so did I. She looked f*****g beautiful beneath me and me being a typical guy couldn't control myself. I stared at her biting my bottom lip and she stopped laughing as she stared back at me.

I didn't make a move to kiss her. My right hand came between us as I touched her bare skin because her white t-shirt had risen up. She opened her beautiful lips slightly but didn't make a sound.

I was clouded with want. I caressed her skin slowly as I made my way up, not once breaking eye contact with her. Her beautiful eyes, gosh her eyes gave her away. In that moment with her beneath me, she wanted it just as much as I did. Her hair laid across her face messily but it didn't hide her features.

My hand moved up slowly as I caressed her. I stopped just below her breast that was covered by her bra. I wanted to stop myself, to pull back and apologise but I couldn't. I couldn't stop myself. She bit her bottom lip and that was it for me.

I lowered my head down and pressed my lips to hers. Her lips parted and my upper lip was between hers, with her bottom lip between mine.

I started lowering my body closer on her and I could feel her heart beating. I tried to stop myself but I couldn't especially with her big hazel green eyes looking back at me.

I bit onto her lower lips and her hands immediately landed on my waist. I was extremely slow. I sucked her soft lips but she didn't return it. My hand landed on her breast and she closed her eyes opening her mouth wider. I squeezed it softly- I wanted to rip her bra off.

I left her breast and my hand begun to go lower. I stopped at her waist band, I could hear her breathing in my mouth.

"What are you doing Harry?" She asked shakenly. She probably shouldn't have spoken because she sounded sooo sexy and that increased my arousal. I answered her by pushing my tongue into her mouth and begun to kiss her like there was no tomorrow. I wanted to confirm if she was a good kisser and man she was.

I slipped my hand into her sweatpants and her arms tightened around me. I needed to stop.

"Stop me May!" I told her but that was the more she deepened the kiss. All my senses went out the window. I touched her through her underwear. She was so wet. She moaned into my mouth, my hair was tightened around her fingers at that point and it felt amazing.

She moaned as I kept touching her. Her moaning was doing things to my d**k. I wanted more access and just as I was about to pull her underwear to the side to finger f**k her, we heard a vibration followed by a ringtone. I immediately pulled back and she sat up awkwardly searching through her pocket for her phone. She held my gaze I just watched her breathlessly. I wanted her more than ever at that point. Not even the thought of Kelly could bring me back to sanity. I felt guilty knowing it was Zayn but I didnt regret it.

"Hey" She said into the phone. "Yeah I'd be there tonight" She fidgeted looking everywhere and anywhere but me. "Uhuh me too" She said. They spoke back and forth for a while and she hung up.

I know how much Zayn likes her and I was mentally thanking God that he called to ruin the moment because if he didn't I wasn't going to stop, I was going to do things to May that I've never done in my house and I know how attached he can get and wouldn't want to hurt my best mate in any way.

"So what time is the dinner?" She tried to clear the air and I was glad she spoke because I was nervous as f**k.

"8:00 so you should probably go start getting ready" I answered looking at her lips, she needed to leave before I lose control again. All I was thinking about was to get courage to pull her back in.

"It's only 6:54pm Harry" She said playfully like we didn't just almost explore each other.

I was dying to know how tight she was and how my fingers would feel deep inside of her.

Ughhh.

"But I better start going cause I gotta look for something to wear" She said rising to her feet and walking away.

"May" I called her before she could make it out. She closed the door and turned to look at me.

She sensed the tension, I was mute. I just stared at her opening my mouth to speak but closing it.

"It's fine Harry. Nothing happened" She said but I felt like she was talking to herself instead and not me. I just stood there, that's not why I stopped her. I have no idea why I did.

"Nobody has to know and it definitely won't happen again" She said. I want to agree with her but not when I wanted to grab her and kiss her again.

She closed the door and left. I just stood there in confusion. Then it came rushing all at once. So many questions... Why did it borther me when I saw her kissing Zayn?

I was definitely attracted to May and I most definitely had feelings for her.

Not more than what I feel for Kelly but I definitely liked May to a certain extent.

I was so confused.