Why Not Me?

Chapter 8

Harry's POV

I squinted as I opened my eyes because of the bright light. I took in my surroundings which just so happened to be a garden. I sat up immediately trying to figure out where the hell I was but I regretted immediately because of the massive headache I felt instantly.

Thought of last night came rushing back to me. Kelly broke up with me and I came rushing to the nearest person for a shoulder to cry on and ended up having a long night with May. It was a night I didn't want to come to an end even in my drunken state. I felt soo pathetic of how weak and vulnerable I was. What I felt yesterday and still feel is new to me. What I feel for Kelly is unlike anything I've felt since I've been knowing myself. On the bright side May forgave me last night. I just hope she hasn't changed her mind because let's face it, one day she is nice and the next she is like a f*****g tornado.

I stood to my feet and made my way back into her house. It was awfully quiet and May was no where in sight. I reached for my phone on the table and checked if luck was on my side and Kelly had sent me messages but nope. I dialed her number in hopes that she'd answer but she didn't. I was really frustrated by then, I made myself comfortable on the couch silently praying May would come out of nowhere because I was extremely tired to go looking for her smallish body in this house. I just hoped things aren't awkward now that we aren't drunk off our asses.

Minutes passed and she wasn't coming. I was busy on my phone texting Mariana to convince her to help me since May said she wouldn't.

All Mariana could say was when Kelly makes up her mind nothing can change it and to give her time and space.

"Even if I fall down when you're not around don't worry about me" I heard a song out of the blue. It sounded so cheesy like something only girls would listen to.

"I'd do anything to go through it instead of you" I heard again. I rolled my eyes and followed the direction in which the music came from. I soon stood in front a half opened door. I walked closer and I could see gym appliances but May wasn't in sight. I walked into her gym but stopped at the door when I saw her back facing me. She wore a tracksuit that exposed a good amount of her body as she was doing squats. Me being a typical guy I admired her fine backside. Which guy wouldn't? But I snapped out of it when thoughts of Kelly came to mind. If I wanted to get Kelly back, the last thing I should be doing is checking out her best friend. That's like fueling a fire that was burning your house.

No wonder why she was so fit considering the fact that I never saw her jogging frequently or making her way to the gym. She had one in her house. I decided to mess with her as I made my way in slowly to her speaker. I immediately switched off the speaker and she jolted in my direction. She looked scared to death. I burst out laughing at the look she had on her face.

She rolled her eyes. "That's my favorite song you arse" She whined. I laughed enjoying the reaction I was getting from her.

"That's the worst s**t I've ever heard" I said between laughs. I couldn't see her face but I just know she rolled her eyes at my statement.

"No it's not. It's about love and it's beautiful" She defended. I threw my arms up in surrender not wanting to continue arguing like yesterday when we argued about how funny she was.

She drank from her water bottle and wiped herself with a white towel.

"You just ruined my vibe" She said as she walked pass me clearly done with exercising for the day. I followed her like a lost puppy. She lead me into the kitchen.

"Hungry?" She asked as she stared into the fridge. Probably looking for useful ingredients for breakfast. According to my phone it was about 10:15 which was extremely early for me.

I nodded my head but immediately noticed her back was facing me.

"Starving" I said.

"You can cook right?" She asked and my mouth dropped in amusement. Was she really going to make me cook my own food? How nice is she? Note the sarcasm.

"Nah I can't sadly" I lied feeling too lazy to attend to myself.

"Oh too bad cause I can't either" She said but I could tell she was lying. She probably caught on to my lie.

"You liar. You cooked for the children at the orphanage home" I accused her.

She laughed turning around to face me.

"Yeah so did you..... liar" She said while putting a salted butter and bread in clear sight for me.

I chuckled at how childish we were being.

"Help yourself to a salted butter toast" She said whilst walking away. Is this girl serious? I'm a boy for crying out loud. Stuff like that don't satisfy us. We could eat for an entire country if the need ever arose. I stopped her before she could disappear from sight.

"You are pulling my legs aren't you?" I asked internally praying she'd turn around, say yes and bring out things I could put to better use.

"Nope" Was all she said and disappeared. I shrugged and headed for the front door. She must be crazy if she thought I was actually going to eat only that for breakfast. I assumed she went away to go get freshened up so I decided to go do same as well. I walked straight towards my house.

"Am I dreaming or did I just see you coming out of May's house?" Gemma asked as soon as I entered through the front door. I rolled my eyes, She's my elder sister but trust me when I say she doesn't miss an opportunity to tease me.

A thousand things were coming out of her mouth about what she just saw. I couldn't care less about what she was saying, all I could think about was Kelly and what she must be doing. I had to wait one more day to see her beautiful face again. Just knowing I wouldn't be able to kiss her on sight or make love to her killed me.

"That's a stupid question Gem" I pointed out as I made my way upstairs.

"So you are you both f*****g?" Gemma shouted so I could hear her. I rolled my eyes. Lets just say Gemma has a dirty mouth, I've said a bunch of s**t myself but whenever Gemma speaks I can't top it. Thankfully she hasn't teased me about Kelly because I personally saw to it that she didn't find out and f**k it up for me. Speaking about Kelly, as soon as I closed the door to my room behind me I pulled out my phone and tried calling her for the hundredth time. As I expected she didn't pick up. I sighed and flung myself into my bed exasperatedly.

Harry: Baby can we just talk? Please... I already miss you so much. I can't go on like this any longer. I love you.

I waited to see that my message was delivered. I never told her I loved her but at that point I had nothing to lose, I needed her to know. She was online and it immediately stung. Who could she be talking to apart from me? The fact that soo many guys were lined up just to get into her pants killed me. Seconds later my text was marked as read. My heart stopped knowing she had seen it. There was a bit of hope that she'd reply but after a few minutes I knew there was no way in hell she was going to.

I went on to check the text I had gotten back from Mariana.

Mariana: Wish I could help you b but I've seen her do this countless times. Once she said it was over it was. Nothing could change her mind.

The reply I got from Mariana killed every thread of hope I still had within me. What was I going to do? The only girl I've ever seen everything in is rejecting me in return saying she sees nothing in me. I felt shattered.

I wasn't going to stop until I got her to hear me out and if Mariana wouldn't help me then I had to find another way, May.

I rushed to the bathroom and took a quick shower. I freshened up and after some minutes, I was done. I went for the usual; A black V-neck t-shirt and black skinny jeans. It took me no time and I was done.

I went downstairs straight to the kitchen. Thankfully mum had made the usual sandwiches she makes every morning. I took a small basket and put 3 into it. Also I grabbed 2 boxes of my favorite boxed juice throwing them in as well.

I could feel Gemma's eyes on me but I just ignored her. I walked for the door but she stopped me.

"Since when did the both of you become friends?" She asked totally shocked.

"Well that's if you are just friends because I know you didn't come home last night" She smirked.

"Can you just mind your own business?" I said. I didn't bother to deny it because once Gemma thinks that way there is no changing her mind even if I used all the words in the world.

She threw her hands up in surrender, the act even annoyed me more. The whole issue with Kelly was affecting me more than I thought because on a normal day I'd tease her back and come up with the best comeback ever to exist but I couldn't be bothered today.

I glared at her and walked out.

"Wow someone has their panty in a twist" I heard her say but didn't turn back.

I made my way over to May's front door with the basket in my hand.

I didn't bother knocking as I just barged in like I owned her home. My eyes widened immediately as I saw her standing in only a black lace underwear and a lace bra. Her eyes widened as she noticed my presence too.

I immediately turned around to face the front door. If I must say she looked soo f*****g sexy....

'stop it Harry! You love Kelly and that's her best friend'

"You know there is something called knocking right?" She said sternly. I took it as she had covered herself because there was a dress in her hand when I walked in.

"You know the room is made for dressing right?" I asked as I turned around. She glared at me clearly tired of me already. I have the tendency to annoy people all the time.

"This is my house I didn't expect you or anyone else to come in without knocking" She shot back.

I smiled at how cute and adorable she looked as she got agitated.

"I brought you breakfast" I said changing the topic as I made my way to her dining table where I knew she probably hadn't used in ages. She ran her fingers through her shrunken curls and pulled it into a messy bun as the blue sun dress she wore graced her body. She sat next to me on the table as I pulled out the food I brought.

"Thanks I was starving" She said as I handed her a sandwich and a small box of juice.

"You are making it a habit of just showing up" She said as she bit the sandwich. I grinned at her remark. It surprised me how quickly I got used to her. I was super comfortable around her even though we only started talking to each other few days ago- going ape s**t on each other to be precise.

"At least now I have a place to run to for dear life when my mom is nagging me to death" I said and saw her laugh clearly amused by my answer.

"You look all dressed. Are you going out or something?" I asked.

"No Zayn and the guys are coming over to hang out" She told me. Over the weeks the guys had gotten really close to May and wouldn't shut up about how amazing she was and fun to be around. I just listened to them but now that I've gotten the chance to hang out with her I couldn't disagree. Zayn on the other hand kept talking about how things were between them. She's the first girl he had ever talked about in such a manner, as though she knew the secret to life.

He constantly whined about how she was soon moving all the way to England. Even though I miss home, it's fun here and I wouldn't prefer to be anywhere else.

I nodded as I devoured my sandwich. Shortly after I took it as my cue to go ahead and ask for her help in getting Kelly to at least talk to me.

Unlike yesterday she agreed to help me although there was an expression on her face that I couldn't read. I couldn't tell if she was sad and pitied me but why would she be sad anyway right?

The air suddenly felt awkward as she shifted in her seat and acted weird. I was about to question her on if she was okay but she beat me to it.

"Kelly is back, she left her mum and brother there" She informed me and my heartbeat quickened.

I opened my mouth to speak but I didn't know what to say. I nodded my head.

"Will she be coming over as well?" I asked. The smile on May's face looked forced and strained. She opened her mouth to speak but we were interrupted.

The door creaked and we both turned at the same time to see Mariana. The girl was still in her pajamas and I couldn't help but chuckle. I wish I could say she just woke up and walked here but no, she looked like she had freshened up but decided to remain in her Mickey Mouse pajamas. I saw May roll her eyes from the corner of my eyes.

Her eyes widened as she took in the scene before her.

"Since when?" She pointed from me to May in shock. I rolled my eyes at how shocked she was acting but I don't blame her. She had asked me before why I never spoke to May and I told her I thought May was weird and a bunch of other stuff.

"Close you mouth! You'd catch flies" May joked clearing the already awkward air. I chuckled and so did Mariana.

"But really though? You couldn't at least wear normal clothes?" I asked fully amused by her tired state. She poked her tongue out at me and sat comfortably on the couch flipping through Netflix.

May's phone beeped and she literally jumped for it as though she had found her lost treasure. Her eyes lit up as she typed on the screen and I knew it had to be Zayn.

"Okay I got Kelly to agree to come" She said to me looking away from her screen briefly. I became nervous as hell but I was happy I'd at least get to see her.

The front door flew open again and this time it was Niall, Liam and Louis. They all entered liked they owned the place. They had hung out here a couple of times so I guess it was only normal. May made her way to them and hugged each and every one of them. They all looked shock to see me seated at the dining table probably because they didn't expect me to be friends with May. Mariana that seemed soo grumpy minutes ago but immediately cheered up as she saw Liam, he pecked her on the lips and took a seat next to her. Niall reached for the cute red guitar at the corner of the room and begun to play. Louis had disappeared into thin air but came back later with two bottles of Hennessy and a big bottle of coke. Alcoholic ass. I cleared up the table and took the stuff into the kitchen where I left the basket on the counter.

As I made my way back to the crowd, I saw a familiar blonde hair and I stopped in my tracks. I instantly became nervous. Zayn had arrived by then already and I saw him chew off May's face. I walked casually and sat next to her.

"Hey" I whispered just to her hearing.

She didn't look up from her phone "Hi" was all she said.

I saw that coming, I didn't expect her to say much. She didn't look up but I knew she was shocked to see me at May's house.

"We need to talk" I told her. Again she didn't look up at me.

"Yeah? About what?" She asked flatly.

This was a new side of Kelly I was now seeing and I didn't like it. She was being so childish and immature and for what?

My mouth became dry and I was speechless. I looked around awkwardly and I saw May looking at me with concern on her face.

"What should I do?" I mouthed to her. She rolled her eyes as she played with Zayn's hair whiles sitting on his laps. Everyone else was oblivious to what was going on.

She rose to her feet making Zayn frown from the distance that existed between them.

"Kelly follow me to the kitchen please!" She reached for Kelly's hand pulling her to her feet.

"Ugh but I'm tired" Kelly whined as she followed May. I couldn't help but smile, she looked so cute when she was being childish.

I took that as my cue to go and talk to Kelly, obviously that was May's plan.

I rose to my feet and followed them. I heard them talking harshly to one another so I stopped in my tracks.

"Are you f*****g serious right now?" May spat. Kelly just threw her hands up in surrender, clearly fed up.

"I don't know why you are acting so surprised. It's not like he's the first guy" Kelly shouted right back.

"I can't believe you right now. We are talking about Harry here, the very guy you've had a thing for for years. The same one that made you the happiest girl in the world according to you some weeks ago" May clenched her fist.

Kelly sighed "If you care so much why can't you just go ahead and date him?" She asked. May glared at her, there was an expression on her face that I couldn't read. She looked really angry and I've never seen her like that.

Things were beginning to get out of hands so I cleared my throat calling both their attention.

Kelly sighed softly with her beautiful lips, she looked broken and sad.

"I was about to rip your hair out, you're lucky" May spat at Kelly and walked away

"Yeah like I haven't heard that before" Kelly shouted back but I doubt May heard it. She was probably scared to say it to May's hearing so she waited for her to walk away.

I leaned against the counter with folded arms as I observed her. She stood there looking at me too with hooded eyes. I could tell she was sad as well and from the look in her eyes, She did miss me so what I don't get is why?

"I know you don't want to talk b-" I got interrupted before I could finish. "Then why are you pushing it Harry?" She spoke barely audibly.

"I need to know why baby, what did I do wrong?" I asked walking closer to her but she took steps back, she looked scared like my touch would burn her. I wish I could tell her everything I was feeling but I didn't know how to.

She remained quiet scratching her head.

"I'm done talking to you" She said with a more relaxed tone walking pass me. I wasn't going to let her leave just like that so before my mind could stop me I held onto her hands. She frowned at my sudden action.

"Get the f**k off me Harry!" She yelled this time pulling herself from my grasps. My hands had a mind of its own and next thing I know I grabbed unto her waist pulling her closer to me. I smashed my lips on hers and begun to forcefully kiss her.

Her hands wrapped around my neck as she pulled me in to deepen the kiss and that confirmed everything. She still had feelings for me so I didn't understand her sudden change of attitude.

She pushed me back abruptly.

"You want to know why the f**k I don't want to be with you anymore huh?" She laughed bitter as she stepped closer to me. I clenched my fist and my jaws, anger completely taking over the best of me. I just couldn't take it anymore.

"You were the worst s*x ever and not to mention boring af, too f*****g serious and in touch with your feelings all the damn time" She spat venom in my face. Was that supposed to move me? I knew she was lying, I knew for a fact that no one had ever f****d her the way I did because she told me so herself but hearing her words still bore a hole in my heart.

"Oh is little Harry hurt? Now get out of my face! I planned on having a fun day today" She brushed pass me and I just stood there utterly shocked. No girl has ever spoken to me in that manner. My heart sunk , heart break was the worst feeling ever. I imagined the number of girls I had put through this and everything came rushing back to me. I stood dead in my tracks unable to move. I couldn't breathe, I needed air and the last thing I needed was to be in the same room with the girl that just caused me soo much pain in one day than my entire life.

I couldn't stop myself as my fist met the wall repeatedly ..

"Oh my God Harry" I heard Mariana's voice beam through.

"Harry stop it" She held onto me firmly to stop me. I was so weak and vulnerable, I wanted to hate her for all the things she said to me but I couldn't. I just wished things could be different and I could hold her in my arms.

I embraced Mariana tightly and she hugged me back. She drew circles on my back to calm me down.

"God you are bleeding" She tried not to freak out but her facial expression gave her away. I just rolled my eyes at how she became soo caring all of a sudden, the old Mariana would just tell me how weird I was being and to get a hold on myself.

"No I'm fine" I stated flatly and turned on my heels for the door. As I neared the sitting room everyone was quiet. They looked so concerned probably because they heard the conversation we had. Kelly was no where in sight. I made my way straight for the door. I heard May mention my name but I didn't dare turn back. I was making my way to my car when I heard the front door open again.

"Harry wait" May shouted. I didn't turn back still and I heard double footsteps as though she was running.

She stood before me in a blink of an eye.

"I want to be alone" I told her. She huffed with her hands on her tiny waist.

"So where to?" She asked as though I hadn't just told her I wanted to be alone. Her messy bun almost falling out of place.

"I don't know, anywhere" I told her as I walked around her towards my car. Thinking she'd get the signal but nope, she still followed me across the street to my house.

"I have the perfect idea" She chirped and I turned to look at her with creased eyebrows. She sounded happy but definitely didn't look happy. I could tell she just wanted to cheer me up and I really appreciated that considering the fact that we've barely been actual friends for a day. It was nice of her but I really wasn't in the mood. I just ignored her as I opened my car door and sat in closing it after myself. She stood at the driver's door.

"Harry you have to let me in. You can't be alone at this time" She said but for some reason that made me more angry but the thought alone that she was willing to leave Zayn and be with me was flattering. I didn't want her around for a short period. The last thing I needed was to become close to her and leave her behind. My other friends would be around but not her, she is going all the way to England.

"I've known you for 10 years May and I never once needed you. I won't start now" I spoke rather harshly and her face dropped. Her eyes bore holes into mine and I could see how hurt she was. She was just trying to help and I latched out on her like that. She nodded her head and started to walk away. I wanted to go after her so badly but I couldn't. For some reason I couldn't bring myself to go after her. I've never gone after any girl except Kelly and I think she's the only girl I'd ever go after. I drove off with the intention of just driving around town to clear my head.

I needed to think of ways to get Kelly back.