Tempting Kisses (ENGLISH)

TEMPTING KISSES I'm always curious about the meaning of the word LOVE. I adore what I imagined would be my haven from everything. But every time I thought I was getting close to grasping the meaning of that f*****g word, reality slapped me in the face. Slap me so hard that I don't want to know. What's going on behind those walls in front of me? I look in the mirror one last time, and I'm wearing a bedlah right now. It included a fitted red bra, a sequins belt, and red harem pants. I'm not sure where I find my self-assurance for wearing this dress right now. Even if I'm too frightened to do it, I still have to put this on tonight.   “Are you ready, Yesia?” I exhaled once more and replied, "Yes," to Vika. Even if the truth is that all I want to do right now is run away from here and never return. But I don't have anywhere else to go but this place, which accepts me for who I am. Yesia, you're going to dance and nothing else. You've got this.   As I walked onto the stage, I kept repeating that phrase to myself. I double-checked my face veil because I was worried it would fall off once I began dancing. But, as Vika stated, she has already checked it and ensured that my face veil is tightly knotted. I exhaled once more before continuing my ascent of the stage. I was in the middle of the set, which was still quite close due to the curtain that covered the entire stage. Yesia, this is it, and you're now dancing for your life, so make the most of it. My hands began to move in time with my hips as the song began to play. My nerves are dissipated as I hear the entire crowd applauding for me. And my entire body can be at ease, as though everything I do is natural. I'm now enjoying this song and swaying with every part of my body like I usually do when I do this dance. I can hear the noise that's engulfing the bar right now. It is beginning to draw more people than the first time I stepped onto the stage. And before I know it, the song has ended, the lights have gone out, and the entire stage has been draped in red. “You did great, Yesia, and I’m so proud of you,” Vika blurted out and cover me with a robe. She guided me to the room where I got the dress a while ago. I changed back to my dress a time ago and rested for a minute, like what Vika told me. She also gave me a bottle of wine as one guest gave it to me as a gift as per Vika. I was not even sure if that was true, but I can taste what imported wine tastes like. “Hey, I told you to drink it, not to get drunk with it,” Vika, who is peeking from the door, and left again.  I giggled. “Sorry, I can’t help it,” I laughed again. Oh, God! I’m busted. I was already drunk. When I looked at the bottle of wine in front of me, it was only half full. I enjoyed my drink so much that I forgot my limit. Now I can feel around me starting to spin at the same time as my vision. I tried to stand up and look for Vika. But before I could take another step, my knees suddenly softened, and my vision darkened. I can hear someone talking, but I don’t know if he’s talking to me or someone else. All I know is his scent was drowning me in someplace I didn’t know. This kind of scent wanders around in every part of my body. I don’t know what comes into my mind, but I raised my hand and touched his face, making him stop walking. And before I knew it, I was already kissing this man that I’ve never seen before. I was kissing him as if my breathing defends on him. I even forgot where we were. All I do is respond to every movement of his lips and tongue inside my mouth. All I know is that every kiss he gives me is a unique taste. Oh, I forgot I haven’t experienced a real kiss was. I have already forgotten that I was an NBSB. That’s why I didn’t know the difference between a simple kiss and torrid kissing. But this was good. So, good that I felt like I was floating in the air right now. “Please don’t stop. Make me feel more,” I whispered, which sounds like a moan. “You want more?” I nod quickly at his question. “What do you want then?” he asks again in a husky voice. Unbeknownst to me, he already leaned me against the wall, and I almost wrapped my two legs around his waist because of the tickling feeling on my abdomen. It was so good that I was already squirming my body.  “I-I want you.” It was not a statement. It is more like a plead for him to do whatever he needs to do for my suffering that I feel to stop. Before I knew it, I was already clinging to his arms while responding to his kisses. I let myself drown in every kiss and caress he had on my body. I moaned several times when I felt his hands touching my skin. With each touch of his hand on my skin, I felt like I was getting burned so that I couldn’t help but winced. “f**k, baby! You drive me crazy. Baby moaned for me. I want to hear how you cry and shout how good what I was doing to you,” he mumbled in a slightly hoarse voice. “Ah…” I moan when I felt his hand touching the middle part of my thigh. I just bit my lower lip when his kiss fell from my neck to my chest. I didn’t realize that my legs wrapped around his waist were now flat on the floor. And the dress I was wearing earlier was now lying on the floor. And I was already standing in front of him naked. The only part of me left covering some part of the delicate part of the body is my underwear. My lips parted when I feel his fingers brush on the lips of my honey pot. “Oh, God!” I gasped in shock when he inserted one of his fingers inside my pot. I haven’t had a relationship since I grow up and learn about life. And this is the first time to experience it all. I didn’t think it would be so dizzying, and I’ll be losing myself in pleasure. And I do it all with a man I don’t even know. I don’t know what will happen to me after tonight. Even if the brain wants to stop him, I can’t do it because my own body is betraying me. It was asking more that was beyond my knowledge. All I know is this was so good that I don’t want this man to stop. “f**k! You are so wet, baby.” “Ah…” I can’t say any more words to him aside from moaning. I was writhing in so much pleasure, and I thought what he was doing was already too much. But when he stoops down himself and level his face in my honey pot, I feel like all my blood runs fast up to my face.   I felt ashamed and thrilled at the same time.   Before I could ask what he was doing down there, he already lifted my leg and put it on his shoulder, and started licking my honey pot. I was writhing in so much pleasure. All I could do I look for something to cling to and moan over and over again.   Every flick of his tongue inside my core is like heaven. It gave me chill all over my body that makes me want to pee. He was totally lapping my honey pot like it was the best food offered to him this night. I was so overwhelmed that I don’t know how to make him stop and that I didn’t even realize I already c*m inside his mouth.   All the alcohol I drank before seems to have disappeared from my system. I was in a room I had never entered here inside the Paladizzo. And in front of me now is a man I have never seen before. I wanted him to stop and run away, but I can’t stop but admire him while looking at him. All I know is that I won't be able to stop him anymore.   I was so busy that I didn't realize he was standing in front of me. I screamed when he suddenly pulled me to the side of the bed. "I will take you now. Moan for me, baby." Before I could move, he inserted his shaft so hard that I complained of extreme pain. It was as if my skin was being torn apart by the extreme pain.   “Oh, God!”   But all the pain slowly disappears as he moves over me. I hardly knew where to turn my head and where I would cling to. But as he moves faster in and out on my honey pot, there’s also some tension slowly forming on my belly.   I let myself drown in the pleasure his lips and hands give me. Happiness that I feel once but gave me a lifetime of suffering. I once gave myself to someone I didn’t know just because of the temporary pleasure it can give me.