My Beloved Screen Partner : Destiny

Chapter 3: The First Time Meet That Young Man Part 2

Aah, I keep thinking about the voice and the smile in his eyes. After that, it will be my college holiday and I will also have an internship, so I will be on campus very rarely. It was certain that I would also rarely see him. Hopefully, when I come to campus, I can meet him and ask for his number.

It doesn't feel like the holidays are over and the internship is almost finished. I get a day off to take care of business on campus, so I have finally come to campus after a long time. I had come to campus by myself in my car but I had already made an appointment with my friend Brian that we would meet on campus. I parked my car and got out of the car happily because I finally got a chance to go to campus and maybe I would meet Rayan.

I walked down the campus hallway while glancing left and right, maybe I would see Rayan. But until I arrived at the park near the cafeteria, I had yet to see Rayan. Though I hope that today I can meet him and ask for his number so that the two of us can be closer.

"Sion, Oi. Here!", I heard the scream from Brian, who called me. I turned and saw him sitting with my other friends. I smiled my usual friendly smile and walked toward them. I was going to sit next to Brian but Katherine, who was also there, told me to sit next to her by moving her hand signaling me to sit beside her. I didn't really want to, but Brian looked at me in the face saying, 'come on there'.

With that, I ended up sitting next to Katherine. We were all just talking about internships and today's activities that caused us all to have to go to campus. Katherine was too close to me until her shoulder was pressed against mine. I felt uncomfortable and felt that this was too close, but seeing Katherine, who was so casual, which meant she was comfortable, made me finally try to ignore her.

"Where have you been, so hard to reach you?", Katherine suddenly asked quietly, as if whispering to me.

I turned a little and saw that Katherine's face was too close to mine. I felt uncomfortable, so I shifted my body slightly away from Katherine while I smiled and answered Katherine's question, "Enough busy with my internship and some other things".

"Hm, oh yeah. Next Saturday night I will have a birthday party. Later you have to come, so take your time for me", said Katherine, who was still in a low voice as if she really only wanted me to hear it.

I admit that Katherine is a beautiful and charming girl, she is the target of many men and is often the center of attention because of her beauty, but maybe because I have known her since we were both in high school, I see Katherine looks normal. Well, she's still beautiful. To me, all women are beautiful and Katherine is probably prettier than some of the other women. And it's not that I don't know that Katherine is attracted to me, but I have never treated Katherine more than just a friend, but for now, I have absolutely no interest in being in a relationship with her, so no matter how beautiful and attractive Katherine is, I still have no interest. Maybe someday, but not now.

"I'm sorry, Katherine. But that day, I had another appointment so I couldn't come", I replied to Katherine guiltily because right that day I had another event, I was going to perform for a band as a guitarist. I had promised to fill the guitarist vacancy in my friend's band, so I couldn't possibly cancel it. Besides, the band will be performing out of town, which is quite a distance from London, and I've also been leaving since Friday morning with the band's boys for rehearsals and staying overnight near their venue.

I glanced at Katherine's expression, which immediately looked grim, and I felt even more uncomfortable, but what could I do because I had other more important appointments? Katherine looked sullen and said, "Couldn't you spare a little time for me? It's my birthday, which only happens once a year, Sion".

"I'm really sorry, next time I'll change it", I replied, not thinking much, I just felt guilty.

I haven't had a chance to hear from Katherine yet but my cell phone rings and I see that my professor has messaged me to hurry up to his room because after that he will have other needs outside of campus. I immediately answered the message from my lecturer, then got up from my seat and said to my friends, "I will go first, guys. I've been waiting for the lecturer".

I didn't wait for their answer and immediately turned away, walking quickly even as if I was running. I heard Brian seemed to be calling me but I ignored him, "Oii, Sion!!".

It doesn't feel like I have finished my internship and have returned to college, as usual. I have some free time because I don't have many classes to take and focus more on the internship report and also preparation for my thesis. Because I feel I haven't been to the campus gym for a long time, so I took the time to stop by the campus gym for a little exercise. Ah, every time I go through the campus gym I always think of Rayan. I haven't seen him for a long time. The last time I saw him was the last day of last semester's exams and now it's the new semester.

I entered the gym together with Brian, who I invited to go to the gym with me. Inside the gym, I glanced left and right, maybe there was Rayan. But I was disappointed because I didn't see Rayan's nose there. I still think maybe Rayan can come later. It turned out that my hope to meet Rayan was still the only hope because, until this semester ended, I did not see Rayan's whereabouts even when I went to the campus gym almost every day and also passed back and forth in front of the group of his class children but to no avail. Rayan really seems to have disappeared from my world. Hah, maybe we are not destined to know each other for now.

The time has come when I have finished my education and I will start a new life. That is no longer a student. I will focus on studying business so that, later, I will replace my parents' position, but I also focus on the world of music which I have been interested in all this time. I already have my own band and I've also been in an agency that manages my activities in the entertainment world but nowadays, I actually get to work as a model more often and I quite enjoy it too, just think of it as an experience.

I put on a toga and took a picture with my family, showing how proud they are of me. My parents knew that people wanted to congratulate me and also take a group photo, so they didn't take too long to take pictures with me and chose to wait for me in the car.

"Congratulations, Sion", a bouquet of flowers leads from beside me. I recognized the voice of the woman who gave the bouquet of flowers, which was none other than Katherine.

Katherine looked a little lethargic but the smile on her face didn't go away. She still congratulated me and smiled at me. I was quite surprised because I had no idea that Katherine would still come to my graduation and congratulate me. Why do I feel quite shocked? So I have to think back to a few months ago, to be exact, during the semester break. At that time, I still often thought about Rayan, who was no longer seen on campus, either because he and I were always at different times and places or because something happened to him. I don't know. At that time, because I was too focused on my own thoughts, I didn't realize Katherine was talking to me seriously.

My friends and I felt the need for a vacation together before graduation, so we decided during the semester break, we would go on an island vacation together. And it was really implemented. We rented a villa on the island and enjoyed a vacation there for 3 days and 2 nights. Everything went smoothly except for me, who was thinking about other things continuously. Because of that, my friend teased me that I was in love with someone but couldn't express it. I dodged continuously but they still kept on teasing me and even said that I actually had feelings for an old friend but didn't dare to reveal it and was afraid that the friendship would break. I don't understand what they mean, because I don't have any feelings for my friend at all, let alone being in love. How is it possible to think of a junior I haven't seen in a long time to fall in love with?

On the last night on the island, I was still being teased by my friends, expressing my feelings, but because of that temptation, I said that I'm not the type to express my feelings, but I'm waiting for the person I like to express his feelings to me first. And because of the constant teasing, I tried to calm myself down on the beach. I thought of Rayan until when Katherine came and sat next to me I still thought of Rayan and only heard faintly what Katherine said.

The sound of the waves covered the other sounds so that it was increasingly unclear what Katherine was saying, but I just kept quiet and occasionally answered by simply saying yes. But that night it seemed like I messed things up. I realized that I had messed up something because, suddenly, Katherine gripped my hand that was touching the beach sand and I heard Katherine say her gratitude. I was shocked and turned to Katherine, who seemed to be smiling happily. I know that I made a mess but I don't know how to fix it.

"So from now on we are a couple, right, Sion?", asked Katherine with a smile on her face.

I didn't know what expression to make, but I finally could only smile and nod a little. I feel bad for Katherine, she looks so happy. I didn't have the heart to destroy it. Maybe being in a relationship with Katherine wasn't such a bad thing for me either, so that's when I finally made peace with myself and tried to start a new relationship with Katherine.

However, in the end, my relationship with Katherine had to end exactly a week before my graduation day. I know I'm such an asshole for being in a relationship with someone without having feelings for them and as if I'm just toying with them, but I really want to start my relationship with Katherine. It's just that, after I've been through it, I know that my feelings for Katherine can't change. I still see her as a friend, nothing more. And Katherine herself also began to feel that in our relationship, she was the only one who fell in love, so after holding on for a while, Katherine finally gave up and ended our relationship.

"Thank you, Katherine," I said softly as I took the bouquet from Katherine.

"Can we take a picture together?" Katherine asked me quietly.

I immediately agreed, "Sure, come on".

Katherine smiled a little and called her friend to take a photo of the two of us. We took several pictures, not only with the two of us but also with my other friends. Brian also did not want to lose and asked me to take pictures repeatedly.

"I saw the junior who had eaten with you in the cafeteria at the time". I turned when I heard Katherine suddenly speak to me in a low voice unlike before.

"Hm?", I responded and Katherine glanced at me.

"I heard his friend say that if there were other college students who visited him, it seemed to refer to that junior. Hasn't that junior not been seen on campus for a long time?", said Katherine, who gave me a strange smile.

I looked at Katherine confusedly but I understood that what Katherine meant was Rayan, but I didn't understand the meaning of Katherine's strange look and smile. I answered Katherine's words, "Oh, you mean Rayan has moved campuses? It's no wonder he's never seen here again".

"You don't want to see him? Maybe you should chase him now before that junior leaves", said Katherine, who patted my arm.

"Ehm, why do I have to chase him?", I asked, confused by Katherine's words.

"No need to pretend, I know that you have a crush on that junior," answered Katherine, who walked over to my other friends who were looking at our photos earlier.

"Hey, what do you mean?" I called out to Katherine, slightly surprised by her words.

Katherine just turned and shrugged as if to say, 'I don't know'.

I lowered my head and, as if I finally realized why I was behaving like this all this time, I was thinking and thinking about Rayan. Is it true that I really have a crush on Rayan? I left my bouquet of flowers for Brian and said "I'm going to the bathroom for a minute".

I don't care what I feel now about Rayan, the most important thing is I have to find him first and confirm my feelings and calm my heart and my mind, which are always thinking about him. I don't know where Rayan is but I keep looking for him. I took out my cell phone and called Katherine, "Hello, where did you see her earlier?".

"By the fountain," Katherine answered over the phone.

"Okay, thank you," I answered immediately, hanging up the call.

I walked among the crowds of people who were busy taking pictures and chatting with their friends and family to congratulate him on his graduation. While I was busy looking for one person among these many people,

I stood in the fountain that Katherine said but I didn't hear Rayan's voice, let alone see him. Rayan may not be my destiny, so he is always lost and out of my sight. I sighed in exhaustion and sat down beside the fountain. I turned to the fountain and muttered, "If I have the chance to meet him again and face him again, then I won't let him go, no matter how I felt about him at that time or how he felt for me at that time, but I will make sure he will be by my side".

It doesn't feel like weeks have turned into months and months have turned into years. A year, two years passed, and I went about my day as usual. Nothing different, absolutely as usual. I will work to take care of my growing business, take care of my favorite guitars, practice bands, and also go for other jobs. Ah, and don't forget to meet my girlfriend. I met my girlfriend last year at an opening party for one of my business partners. She's a nice woman and I can tell I love her, love her very much. Her name is Sua. A woman who is two years older than me is already close to my family. I thought that if one day I was to get married it would most likely be with Sua. She is a mature woman who understands me very well and definitely makes me feel comfortable. With Sua, I don't feel constrained at all by having a relationship with someone, because I can still do whatever I want and I can also explore things I haven't done. Sua gave me the freedom I still want to have. So our relationship doesn't feel like it's been a year and I'm sure my relationship with him can last a very long time.

Today, I was going to a fashion exhibition at a mall in London and I purposely asked Sua to go with me. I know that some people recognize me, but I don't mind if people find out about my relationship with Sua. I'm also not a famous artist, so I don't think I have a lot of fans. No one forbids me from dating and I don't care if anyone forbids me as long as it's not my mother.

Sua and I did not come alone but also with my staff. Sua and I sat on the bench in the second row. Sua loves fashion and often attends fashion events like this, so I can tell that Sua is happy to be there, as can be seen from her smile. As the show started, I started to notice the models who started to come out and show off the clothes they were wearing. Of all the many models, one model stunned me. Yes, I was stunned because I didn't expect to see my junior in college on that stage again. He is still as handsome as ever, Rayan, who is still handsome and awesome.

I was stunned and silent watching my junior walk on the catwalk. I didn't hear what Sua said until Sua shook my arm slowly. I turned to Sua and asked, "What's wrong?".

Sua was silent because maybe she was surprised by the way I spoke, which seemed angry or cold. I pretended to cough and went back to talking to Sua in my usual voice and smiled, "Sorry, what's wrong? Did something catch your attention?".

Sua smiled and said quietly, "No, it's nothing. I'm just going to the bathroom for a bit. You just keep looking at it, you seem to be very interested in something".

I saw Sua's face, which looked pale even though Sua had used makeup, but her pale face couldn't be covered. I was worried but Sua was still smiling and stood up from her seat and went to the bathroom. I glanced at him but a few moments later I returned to focus on looking ahead again. Rayan has finished the catwalk. I want to go to him to just ask how he is and ask for his number. Even so, I had to wait until the event was over before I could go backstage.

I waited for the show to finish and I also waited for Sua to come back from the bathroom, but after a while, Sua didn't come back. I was getting more and more worried, so I decided to follow her to the bathroom.

And that day, I missed another chance to meet Rayan until I didn't know when I would be able to meet him again.