Blood to love

DYNAMIC

Jess

Today is going to be a hard day Victor is taking Selena out on a date. I know they're getting married and everything so why did this bother me so much. "We're off Jess, see you when we get back" Selene said as they were leaving. I waved bye sassily without looking up from the book I was reading.

After about a hour rereading the same page I finally got bored with my book and started to walk around the house looking around. As I walk past Victor's office I get an uneasy feeling almost a twist in my stomach. Walking back to the door I gently push it open. "Holy crap" I said as I walked inside gently closing the door behind me.

There is a blue couch sitting by a fireplace with two small brown tables on either side. His mahogany desk was facing across from the small lounge area.

My stomach twisted again and my mind was pulled to it like a magnet, before I knew what I was doing I was slowly walking over to it and going through the papers on top of it carefully.

As I flick through the paperwork scattered over the desk I see something with my name on it. It was mine and Selene’s contract. My mind began to spin….Why did he have this? Did she give it to him? What does any of this have to do with him?

He had made some notes and changes to it, as I briefly scan over his scribbled writing.

"What are you planning you moron" I whispered to myself irritation lacing my words like a venom. I hear a car pulling up and quickly put everything back where I found it, scurrying out of the room and running to my room picking up the book that I was reading flipping to a random page acting as natural as possible.

She knew how I felt about this so called date and she knew how I felt about him.

“Okay tell me what’s wrong Jess” there it was that tone, the tone that tells me she’s serious and isn’t playing around, the tone that brings me to my knees but this time I couldn’t bring myself to care.

“There’s nothing to tell” I say nonchalantly as I push my emotions aside, “you went on a date with your husband what else am I meant to say?” I say in almost mocking tone.

I knew I was lying to myself and to her but the truth was I didn’t even know what was wrong. I was annoyed she agreed to go on this date in the first place, I was confused by what I found in his study and I was hurt at the thought of her knowing about his plans, all of the emotions played together like a orchestra in my chest. Tight. Constricting. Yet a subtle reminder of the fact I’m still only human.

I hear her let out a scoff at my words as if what I said was almost a joke, but it wasn’t. It was the heartbreaking, gut wrenching truth. “Just leave it alone Selene, I don’t want to talk about this with you right now” I say my voice almost cracking with the emotions I’m holding back as I close my book and stand up from the bed. She catches my arm and looks down at me, her gaze unyielding and her touch almost unforgiving against my skin.

“We need to talk about this Jess, don’t just brush it aside.” She says in a cool and calm tone. I simply roll my eyes as I brush past her forcing my arm from her grip.

I continue walking ignoring her as she calls out after me and I go into the large library, scanning the large shelves of books before walking over to the historical section. I hear the door close but I don’t turn around I stay focused and enthralled in all the books lined up around me.

"We’re back" Selene said as she walked into our room.

“That’s nice” I say nonchalantly not looking up from my book. I could feel her eyes burning into my skull from the doorway.

“That’s nice?” She said in a questioning tone “is that it? No how was it? Nothing?” I simply shrugged in response.

She knew how I felt about this so called date and she knew how I felt about him.

“Okay tell me what’s wrong Jess” there it was that tone, the tone that tells me she’s serious and isn’t playing around, the tone that brings me to my knees but this time I couldn’t bring myself to care.

“There’s nothing to tell” I say nonchalantly as I push my emotions aside, “you went on a date with your husband what else am I meant to say?” I say in almost mocking tone.

I knew I was lying to myself and to her but the truth was I didn’t even know what was wrong. I was annoyed she agreed to go on this date in the first place, I was confused by what I found in his study and I was hurt at the thought of her knowing about his plans, all of the emotions played together like a orchestra in my chest. Tight. Constricting. Yet a subtle reminder of the fact I’m still only human.

I hear her let out a scoff at my words as if what I said was almost a joke, but it wasn’t. It was the heartbreaking, gut wrenching truth. “Just leave it alone Selene, I don’t want to talk about this with you right now” I say my voice almost cracking with the emotions I’m holding back as I close my book and stand up from the bed. She catches my arm and looks down at me, her gaze unyielding and her touch almost unforgiving against my skin.

“We need to talk about this Jess, don’t just brush it aside.” She says in a cool and calm tone. I simply roll my eyes as I brush past her forcing my arm from her grip.

I continue walking ignoring her as she calls out after me and I go into the large library, scanning the large shelves of books before walking over to the historical section. I hear the door close but I don’t turn around I stay focused and enthralled in all the books lined up around me.

Suddenly I feel two hands on my hips spin me around and pin me to the shelf behind me I look up meeting Selenes deadly gaze. “Who the hell do you think you are walking away from me like that?” She practically growls out, but I don’t flinch and I don’t move.

“Your assistant.” My words pierce my own heart more than I anticipated and I see the hurt behind Selenes eyes. “That’s not what I-“

“Don’t bother Jess, because that was too far and you know it” she cuts me off, pain evident in her tone.

“Selene…..I didn’t mean it, im sorry I let my emotions get the better of me I shouldn’t have. I just….” I trail off.

“You just what Jess?” Selene asks her hands releasing my hips as she takes a step back. “You wanted to hurt me was that it?”

“What no! Of course not! I just……it’s been a long day. I hate that he took you on a date it made me feel powerless it made me feel insignificant because I never get to do things like that with you and here he is all father approved and taking you out and then his office stuff and ugh it’s just been a lot and I missed you and I just……I’m sorry, it’s not a excuse I shouldn’t have said it and I know that I’m sorry.” I look down not even being able to look in her eyes anymore I didn’t mean to hurt her…..or did I? Did I want her to feel a small part of the pain I felt all day? Or did I just get carried away.

I feel her hand gently tilt my chin so I’m forced to meet her eyes.

“So why didn’t you talk to me about it? Why did you decide to give me attitude instead?” She asks calmly her tone softer and understanding.

“Because I felt stupid and I thought if I gave you attitude instead you’d let it go and just punish me instead and that way I could just move on…..” I say honestly.

“Jess you can’t keep hiding your emotions in a bratty attitude and expect the punishment to make it better. I need you to talk to me, this dynamic…this power swap it only works with communication and right now you aren’t showing me that your ready to submit fully because your hiding all this pain and hurt. Let me be there for you let me comfort you I don’t care how stupid it may seem I’ll never mock you for needing reassurance.” Her fingers softly sweep over my cheek bone her touch tender and light and I can see the sincerity in her eyes.

“But how can I trust you to carry my burdens as well as your own?” My voice comes out soft yet uncertain.

“Because we are here to support each other I have you and you have me but I need you to trust me enough to let me in, can you do that for me princess?” Her words cut through every bratty facade I had left and I nod softly into her hand. “Good girl.”

I relax into her touch as she holds me firmly against her chest, her soft rhythmic heartbeat soothing every shred of worry and uncertainty from my very soul. We stay like this in the middle of the library for a few blissful minutes before I feel her hot breath against my ear, “come on darling it’s time for me to remind you exactly who you belong to….mind, body and soul.”

Her words send shivers down my spine as I let her guide my body out of the library and back towards our bedroom. My own breathing starts to slow as I feel the familiar fog settle into my brain in preparation of the night ahead of me. She gently pushes me towards the bed before locking the door, “we are going to try something different tonight love, are you okay with that?” Selene asks in a condescendingly sweet tone to which I nod obediently causing her to grin. “Kneel at the edge of the bed facing away from me princess.” Her command is soft yet heavy as I instantly move to carry out her order, through the corner of my eye I see her pick up some slick black rope from the nightstand. “Take your dress off darling you won’t be needing that.”

I slowly move to do as she asks my eyes glossed over in complete submission as I remove my dress and kneel back onto the bed feeling her standing behind me.

“Now darling hold still I’m going to make you look all pretty with some rope.” As the words leave her mouth I feel the rope come into contact with my skin, soft yet heavy. Gentle yet grounding. She wraps it around my chest in a meticulous pattern, each loop and knot sending my mind deeper into submission. After about 20 minutes she takes a step back admiring her work and I look down at my chest seeing a carefully crafted diamond shaped rope harness. As if hearing my thoughts she brushes her hand up my spine tauntingly. “This princess is what is called a Diamond chest harness with the flower weave, and I must say it look perfect against your skin.”

She taunts once again gently pushing my shoulders down to the bed, I relax under her control knowing this is something we both need after today.

“Tonight will be different as I said, it won’t be as fast or as rough as usual. Tonight I want to take my time with you. Worship every inch of your body slowly and gently.” Her voice is smooth like silk as she talk and it makes my knees tremble slightly “and you are going to be my good girl through it all aren’t you?”

I nod furiously before quickly stuttering out “y-yes Mistress”