Unplanned, Undestined

The Meeting

It was almost ten when we were done with breakfast. In those last twenty minutes we both focused on food and didn't talk at all. At least I was busy with my food and was trying to avoid any conversation with him!

But the difficult part was things were becoming awkward minute by minute. We both were loss of words. I never in my wildest dreams thought spending one night with someone can cost me this much. Maybe I am being rude, inconsiderate and selfish, but this is who I am! According to my philosophy, it's their problem if they fall in love with not yours so chill and live your life,this is what I used to think, but now that I am possibly going through that it's the worst thing ever.

"I guess I should leave now." He said, wiping his mouth with the help of handkerchief.

"Yeah," I said and immediately berated myself for saying that. You should never voice out your true thoughts when things are already not that good.

Taking his belongings he walked towards the door and after a second I heard the voice of the closing of a door that was when I realized he was gone.

He cannot go like this! It was too formal! No goodbye, nothing...

In the spur of the moment I ran to him, ignoring my subconscious which repeatedly taunting me by using sharp words.

"Jack" I said as I approached towards him. It seemed like I had run a marathon like he wasn't just a few meters away from me, instead he was miles away from him. He looked at me inquisitively, maybe he thought I was there to tell him something can happen between us! Now you can officially call me heartless and emotionless!

"You left your wallet" I said, handing him his brown color Tommy Hilfiger wallet.

"Ooh, thanks" he said and smiled at me, which I know was forced one.

He didn't give a tad about his wallet, I could see that in his eyes. Just when I came towards him I saw the hope and sparkle in his eyes, which was wrenching my heart terribly.

"I am sorry Jack, I am not someone who you deserve," I said bowing my head.

"Hey, don't be sorry," he said, lifting my chin, making me look straight into his eyes.

"I respect your thoughts, Amy and I always will." He said with so much ease that for a moment I forget that we were standing in a lobby full of people and passerby’s were giving us weird looks but for the first time it didn't affect me.

"Thanks." I said, feeling genuinely grateful.

He finally smiled, it was for the first time in the last twelve hours that he smiled, it was his genuine smile I know and I couldn't be more happy.

With this I closed the distance between us and espoused him, inhaling his expensive cologne which was the first thing that attracted me towards him when I met him for the first time.

He was completely taken aback by my sudden reaction towards him, as his body went stiff as soon as our bodies pressed against each other. No one can believe that just fourteen hours before we were banging each other hard, not caring about our loud voices, just lost in the moment. Good time that was and here we are, behaving like two strangers who happen to cross each others path, had a little conversation and finally at a loss of words.

Until yesterday I was thinking about how amazing it is, that I went out with the same guy thrice! That's a record, I thought, patting my back, but now there is only one thing I feel, regret of bumming into each other, greeting pleasantries, talking to each other or being over friendly thinking it will be fun again to rock each other's world again! All this has fired back on me, I am just feeling so guilty right now.

"Ahem, Jack, I had the best time yesterday and on all the dates we have ever been." I said in his ears and that was when he relaxed a bit, maybe knowing that we are good.

"Amy,..."

He was about to say something, but I cut him off, this time no honey, I will not let you talk," Let's not talk for a minute."

I thanked Jesus for making him agree with my mind, but seemed like my fate wasn't working in my favor as the voice I heard next was literally capable of giving me a panic attack.

"Amy..." His voice still had that rough accent, which used to make my legs weak.

I untangled myself from Jack, but didn't leave his hands, well call me a hypocrite, but to face was taking all the strength that I had in myself and from inside my heart started to hammer against my chest.

I was even sure I was hallucinating him! But then for a second I looked at Jack, he was staring blankly at him and he was looking straight me with his raised brows, demanding an answer.

"Hey..." I said, after taking my own sweet time and in my brain I was battling the most difficult battle which even a game of thrones failed to recreate.

It was the war between my heart and mind! Heart like the coward one was ready to forget everything, in fact, it was already giving me hope and my brain was warning me, telling me to back off, trust I so wanted to run for my life, but I couldn't move an inch, I was glued to that very spot with my one hand draped across Jack's waist.

It seemed like a couple, which we were clearly not, so the first thing that crossed my mind was to remove my hand from his waist.

"I didn't know you were here! What a pleasant surprise! It has been so long since we last met..." He said and abruptly stopped looking at Jack weirdly. I knew he wanted to say more, but didn't say anything.

"Jack, this is Felix, and Felix, this is Jack," Instead of acknowledging what he said, I thought it was better for him to know I am with Jack now. So I introduced both of them, which was itself awkward.

Okay, why the hell am I going through all of this?

I asked to myself while they shared a manly handshake and passed formal smiles to each other with a death glare complimentary!

"I guess, I am gonna take off now," Jack said, pulling me closer to him. The way his hands slid across my waist, it was so sudden and so smooth that before I knew it I was in his arms.

"Miss me," he said and afterwards what he did was enough to give me a lifetime shock!

He pressed his lips to mine, but before that kiss got deeper I stopped him, by keeping my hands on his chest and smiled at him cheekily. This kiss was somewhere different than the one we shared the other night, it was more like him, claiming his property which I am baffled about. I clearly told him what I wanted and this kiss was a sign that he wants something more, maybe he is still stuck on us having a future! Holy Fuck...

"So is he your boyfriend?" Felix asked, the moment he left and I was watching his retreating back which suddenly made me realized what the hell is wrong with me!

"Jack? Oh no, no, he is just someone I went on a date with yesterday, nothing else." I said and then berated myself for answering so quickly, honestly, should have thought about it!

"So how come you are here?" I asked meeting his eyes. That was for the first time since we met, I noticed his magical eyes, which held such deep emotions that hardly anyone could decipher what is going on behind the eyes.

The Eyes are the most expressive part of our body, it connects us to the world, yet when it comes to Felix's eyes, they held intensity, and you cannot tell whether he is being playful or serious, they always look exactly the same. The most sexiest part of his body is his eyes! Then come his lips, his full lips looked so sensually appealing, that I just wanted to kiss him right there.

I realized I can never get enough of this man ever! No matter how many men I met in the past nobody was an inch closer to him, But this man makes me weak, he possesses that power on me which nobody had, he can tame me, dominate me easily, evoke feelings in me which I didn't know are even there or not.

"Well, I am here because of my work, this work honestly sucks, but the only reason which is keeping me going. You tell me why are you here?"

I missed this voice, the heaviness in his voice was taking over my senses and even after being completely sober, I was feeling high.

"Being a fashion designer ain't easy mister. But right now I am on vacation. A full one month break." I said happily thinking about my bucket list.

"I think we should move from here, otherwise the time is not far when people will call security." He said noticing the problems people were having.

We were standing exactly at the middle of the counter and line, he was right indeed, because of his presence I was hardly able to notice anything except the man standing in front of me. Sturdily built, tall, 6 feet 2 inches, black short hair which I so want to run my fingers, fair complexion, clad entirely in black, everything about him was turning me on, making me hate myself for a moment.

"Hmm, Felix it was nice meeting you after so long, but I am afraid I have to go now. I came here to bid Jack goodbye, without even locking my room, I followed him,.."

"I will walk you to your room then." He completed before I could finish my sentence. I was tongue tied, is this man serious?

'He didn't know your feelings, Amy, for him you are just his college friend, nothing else. Stop behaving like a lunatic. Act smart, you have to get through this by hook or crook.' My subconscious nudged in giving me a lecture which no doubt was logical but was useless too.

We started walking together, quietly, our hands were brushing from time to time was jolting me, making my every nerve tense. There was nothing to talk about anyway, but still I was craving to hear his voice once more...

How pathetic, I can be? Damn him!

It was hardly a five minute walk, although it seemed like from the past so many years we were walking, slowly, it appeared like everyone stopped, they froze at that moment, it was just the two us, without even saying anything, we were exchanging so many emotions.

Before I knew, we were standing in front of our, correction my room. I started to unlock it, but it didn't budge that was when the realization hit me, I forgot to bring my card! f**k, I am locked out of my room!

My mobile, card, wallet, keys everything was in there!

"What happened?" His voice echoed in my ears and when I turned towards him I noticed we were too close to each other. I immediately took a step back.

"I forgot to bring my key card with me!" I said, looking at the door, cursing myself for being so irresponsible.

"Can I use your phone?" I asked and he handed me his iPhone to me. I called the reception number, fortunately they picked up on the second ring.

"Hey, This is Amy Scott, from room no 37-A. I accidentally locked myself out of my room, so can you guys bring me another key card?"

"Sure Ma'am, but the thing is all the staff is so busy because of the rush, I am afraid it will take some time, If you want you can wait in the lounge area. We will try as soon as it is possible for us. We regret for the inconvenience Ma'am."

"Okay, then I will wait in the lounge. Thanks."

"How much time will it take?" He asked as soon as I handed him his phone back.

"I don't know, but it will take longer than necessary." I said.

"Come to my room till then?" He said, taking me completely by surprise...