Unplanned, Undestined

The proposal

"No Felix, I will be fine in the lounge, I don't want to invade your privacy" I said suddenly terrified of the idea of him and me alone in the same room.

Not that anything will happen with the two of us alone, not from his side at least! Though the idea is appealing, but things can go wrong, which I don't want to happen.

'You would love to lick his jawline seductively, would love to kiss his so kissable lips, his eyes, and there are so many dirty things that you would want to do to him right this second Amy' my inner voice trudge me, making sultry voices in my head with not so elegant images.

'Oh, you stop that Missy, right here, before things get out of control.' I scolded my inner voice. Poor Felix not knowing my inner war, was patiently waiting for me to say yes.

"Don't be stupid, you are not evading anything! You should stop assuming things Amy, this habit of yours is irritating! Now come on." His voice echoed in my head like an explosive. Damn that authoritative edge in his voice! f**k him, in fact.

'Oh you would so want to f**k him don't you?' my conscience taunted me, but this time I ignored it, I am not planning anything kind of this, so it's better if I don't allow my conscience to feed to my already weak heart.

Silence surrounded us as I followed Him like a lost puppy! His nice, round ass was my distraction at that moment. It was fun watching his taut back, the way his muscles were flexing and reflexing, so much tension was exuding from his retreating back. It was a treat for my eyes in fact.

"So, ahem, how is your wife Amanda?" I finally asked the question I was dreading! From the moment I met him today this question was perturbing like anything, it was as if my life was depended on this question and part of it was.

It's important for me to know how is he and his marriage life, more than that I wanted to know whether he is happy or not.

Five years back I heard it from our common friend that he is getting married to some girl called Amanda, I was thirty then and unknowingly it killed every hope that I had of us being together ever! Life is not fair is it? It's always so unexpected that when you think of a possibility, it gives you a bump in your head, reminding you, you should never expect anything.

For nights I cried, my heart broke that day officially when I, received his wedding card. I still remember that white card and on that, imprinted in bold letters was the name of him and Amanda. I thought now that his marriage is happening, I will get over him, it would give me a closure and I will move on from him, From the idea of him ever reciprocating my feelings but this stupid heart couldn't make it!

I couldn't go to his wedding and that day when possibly he was saying I do followed by kissing his new wife, I was eating a tub of chocolate ice cream watching porn. Yeah, whenever I am this sad I see meaningless s*x, it makes me feel like I am not the only one who is wasted and pathetic.

As he opened the door of his hotel room and led me in I realized his room is exactly like mine! White painted walls, round table in the corner surrounded by two sofa seats, which had velvet color cloth draped over it. Exact same bed except the color of the bed sheet, mine was white and his was dark color which I guess suited his demeanor.

For a minute he didn't answer my question, Just like me he was in deep thoughts too, but in his silence, I noticed the tension, I saw a deep emotion crossing his eyes but it vanished as soon as it appeared.

"She is good, we are good I hope." He said bringing me back from my reverie.

"Ooh, that is good. "

"You never showed up at the wedding!" He asked facing me. Abruptly stopping in the middle of nowhere.

"Hmm, yeah, I wanted to but I had deadlines, so I couldn't make it," I said looking everywhere except at him.

It seemed like the time stopped moving, it's been hours since we were together, we both were trying to hide our emotions, lying to each other for what we both weren't cognizant of.

"Are you single or hooked up with someone?" He asked gulping water straight from the bottle. I could hear that slurping voice.

"Still no ring on my finger, so I guess I am single till then." I said showing him off my left hand.

He was about to say something when his cell phone rang and he picked it up, then gave it to me, that was when I realized finally the hotel people figure it out.

"Ooh, okay... I will be there. Thank you. "

"It was nice meeting you Felix after such a long time. Good bye. " I said and started descending towards the door.

"Will you go out with me?" His words stopped me in my tracks, my heart started to beat wildly, at a speed which no vehicle could match, my body reacted to his words instantly and I immediately got hot all over.

"What?" I said to clear any confusion, well, surely him asking me out can only happen in my dreams not in reality.

"I said can we, you know meet again, have dinner together? It is not necessarily a date, of course If you are not comfortable," he said coming terribly close to me.

Okay, he has to stop before my heart explode out of my chest. He should stop giving me these so called stupid surprises. There is a reason I hate surprises, you never know what plan the other person is plotting in their head.

"Umm, yeah, I mean, okay?" I stuttered, but it came out as a question.

Him and me going out for dinner! It's not something normal! I don't want to assume anything which isn't true and certainly don't want to cry over him again, please if it is a part of my dream, I need to wake up now before it gets too much.

His hand slowly made its way to my cheeks, I got crimson red when his fingers stroked my cheek lovingly. I instantly closed my eyes, relishing his touch. I don't remember the time when we were this close, I always imagined these scenarios in my head but never knew it would feel this blissful to be this close to him.

"You are beautiful Amy, I am going to pick you up at 7, so be ready by then. "He said in my ears slowly, as if he was trying to seduce me, maybe he was indeed doing it.

I was still in that ecstatic moment and when I opened my eyes he was standing away from me, not as close as he was standing a minute ago. Urgh, if without even doing anything he can make me weak, then God knows what will happen if... No don't go there, it's lethal.

Turning towards the door, this time I ran to my room and when I entered my room, I sat on the bed, holding my breath, keeping my hand on the heart, I listened how wildly it was beating.

When was the last time I felt like this? When was the last time when I behaved like a typical girl? I asked to myself.

From within it answered me back, it was exactly fourteen years ago when I noticed him for the first time. For the first time when our eyes met for a brief second, I gave my heart to him, not caring for a second what his feelings are. I silently started falling for him and when we used talk to discuss notes, things started to deteriorate every day. With each passing day I was drawn to him more than I should. I knew from the beginning what was I getting myself into, From the beginning I knew it was going to leave me all heartbroken and crumpled but that didn't stop me from loving him. It took me another six months to realize what I feel for him is much more than love, it's something completely else which I haven't felt for anyone.

It was at that time I decided I will never get into serious relationship ever, because then I would not be able to give that bond the commitment it deserve, that was when this journey of meaningless, casual dating and s*x started. There were moments when I used to feel lonely, I used to think about Him, but then the next I would erase his every memory which often haunted me in my sleepless nights. I felt so tired suddenly and without thinking anything, let sleep consume me.

It was almost five when I woke up again. My stomach grumbled, making me realize how hungry I was. The last thing I had was breakfast. This all, that is happening is taking a toll on my appetite, I ordered some fries and cheese jalapeno nuggets and that was when I remembered his words!

Fuck, f**k I have to get ready. I have to take a shower! I have to decide what to wear, my hairstyle! There is so much that I have to do and I don't have much time! Jesus Christ! Why I slept for five hours straight!

My order arrived as soon as I was rummaging my suitcase for the perfect outfit. From the past fifteen minutes I was trying to find something which either not too short or too long. From next time onwards I will pack my suitcase by myself, Beth is a crazy woman!

Huffing, I opened the door and taking my order from the waiter’s hand I closed the door. Within ten minutes all the food was gone. Damn, I was hungry! After eating food temporarily I forgot about everything, this is what food can do to you.

Now I was in full action again. Stripping my clothes I went to take a hot shower to ease all my tense muscles. It was a bliss, standing under the shower, but I stepped out of the shower when the water was changing its temperature. Wrapping my petite body in the bathrobe, I was back in the room. My suitcase and bed was in pathetic condition now. Every clothing that I bought was out on the bed making it a huge mess. Suddenly my eyes caught a black Sequim dress which was shimmery but still was elegant enough. It was neither too long nor too short and reached till my knees which was fair. The straps were thin, I thought about taking a shrug, then when I got ready that shrug didn't look good at all! I tied long black curls into a messy bun that some strands were falling on my face giving me an edge. I gave my eyes smoky look and when I judged myself in the mirror, my eyes looked hot. The dress had a sweet neckline which allowed me to wear my silver chain. My lips, I painted them with a nude color, now only one thing was left was my footwear.

For them I choose my four inch heels which made me look tall! I was finally ready for this fateful night, somewhere I wanted it to get over with it and somewhere I wanted time to thwart for some time. For only this day I wanted my fairy tale to come true, but it's real life we are talking about it ain't easy to always find your way.

Just when I was about Look at the watch I heard a soft knock. My breath hitched automatically and I became so conscious that till I reached the door, I was about to fall on my head three times, luckily I opened the door in one piece.

The view in front of me was mesmerizing, breathtaking and I was left thunderstruck by the man who was looking at me with mouth slightly open. Surely he wasn't expecting this, me neither. Never in my wildest of dreams I pictured him in a formal black color suit. He was looking so edible that just one thought was ringing in my head, I so wanted to rip his clothes and see the body beneath.

"You are looking sexy!" His words did the rest magic. His husky voice was enough to turn every part of me on. I was so consumed by his the sight in front of me that I didn't know when taking me by waist we started walking together....