Shattered Glass

Chapter two (Protecting)

As a teenager I have always been able to give protection to everyone , I always had a certain urge to get into fights and beat people up for no reason . Let's take her for example. After a month of us talking , I was ready to kill to keep her safe and under my name . Let's bring this one guy in , he threatened to shoot her, me and her friend group , i met him in real life and took him to a dark street near our hang out spot , i let him know that if he ever comes to the neighbourhood with a weapon i will kill him with no further hesitation and he seemed to take that information in with fear and second thoughts . Another story , a Turkish guy was in a sort of talking stage (stage before dating) with her and at some point there was weird stuff going on that I will not speak of. So I hopped in a month late and took him into a dark corner of a parking lot and pressed (pressured) him with a few of my friends until he apologised , because out of liars , kaffirs and cheaters the people i hate the most are rapists and those who scare with threats. My dad said this world had all kinds of people in it and I was taught to avoid the “bad” ones and make friends with the “good” ones . This “pick a team” s**t always pisses me off , because you may get attached to someone “good” but then all they can do is manipulate you and throw you in a pit . And hear me out , i don't do this stuff for my own entertainment , no , i do this for that one girl who came home in tears after she got harassed , and feared for her life to leave the house , i do this for the one guy who was robbed for his money , on which he was going to buy his mom a gift for her birthday . or any other reason . I live by the mindset that I would rather protect someone who deserves to be protected then protect myself . But now here is where most are confused , im not suicidal , i have loving parents , i love my family and they love me , so now you may think , “then y tf you be saving other guys instead of living a happy life?” well because there are people out there who can have a future way brighter than mine , there can be a kid who could make a cure for cancer idfk , the point is , after all i said , my statement , is i've tried so hard to make others feel safe and protected that i never really realised that , that is what i'm missing in my life , i've never been properly loved (other than parents) by anyone , i give so much love to wrong people , the people my dad said were “good”.