Shattered Glass

Chapter four (Deep Talk)

Have you ever had a thought about why you make such stupid decisions? Well come on we all did , and so here i am telling you about this girl who i trusted with my heart , stupid decision right? And so I was dragged through the mud so deeply that I just couldn't care less if I got clowned for this book right . So let me continue on what fully broke this trust. So a friend of mine was having a deep talk with me about this whole thing with her , so i told him that if i lost her , i would not find happiness in people ever again , and he asked with a smirk on his face , “how much do you love this girl , that you would go as far as buy her gifts and slap your friends for her?” and so i was stuck , i didnt know how to answer , so i told him , the whole story between me and her , and he just answered like a wise mf “Egor , leave her” and just some background , this guy who im talking with is one of the wisest fuckers i know , he has pulled me out of s**t so many times you just dont know , and my world collapsed , i just heard THAT s**t come out of HIS mouth , and at that point it was picking love or respect . And im a two way guy i would pick both but in this situation there ain't no fighting back . So he offered me to let him add her and talk to her personally , and I mean there ain't no fighting back so with hesitation I gave it to him . And he messages her , saying the same s**t I just told you in this chapter and here is where I just lose hope in trust , love , respect like fully . She lied to him that I was talking about dating her on chat , like lad what????? And she says that repeatedly three times. And so as my friend is telling me this , I stop him at the part where he says “she said if she dated you she would break you” did i just hear the words break him? She breaks me? HAHAHAH funny one , look im a Russian , and so with all the russian jokes out of the way , you can't break me , or my heart , i'm a man , not a little kid . But besides the dead serious what she said was at the same time messed up and really funny . Cause i wouldn't mind asking her out like at all , she's pretty she has a solid personality , but now that i know she manipulated me into this little corner , i ain't asking no one out . And here we come back to the start. Why did I make such a stupid decision? I clearly knew there was something off , I clearly knew she could have done something , but jealousy and the craving of love blinded me . I found nothing here. I went so deep into this story expecting pure love and affection and respect , but all I got was hatred and lies .