Mending Her Broken Heart

Chapter 5

Chapter 5: Clueless

"Hey, I'm sorry if it took me too long to—"

The moment I opened the door and entered my suite, I automatically noticed that no one is inside. Not even a single dust.

I shrugged my shoulders, "Hmm, she left. Good for her." I said to myself before closing and locking the door again as I hid the key card inside my pocket. I once again walked through the hallway and went to the elevator to take me to the ground floor of the Hotel. I spent the rest of my time at the casino. But I immediately looked for a restaurant after an hour because my tummy was complaining.

How come? I just ate earlier. Unbelievable.

I took my phone out from my pocket when a thought of Kaden came into my mind. I texted Elisa about where could her boss be. I was only gone for a couple of minutes. She said she will wait but why the hell is she gone when I came back?

Hmm, women.

It only took Elisa a minute before sending me a reply. She said that Kaden is now in a business meeting with some of the other owners of Bellagio Hotel & Casino.

So, Kaden is not the only owner of this place? I thought... nah, nevermind.

It's not my problem after all.

Instead of thinking about Kaden in a business meeting, I continued looking for a restaurant since my stomach is really serious about its complains. It made me bit my lower lip when I felt a very strong stomachache. f**k. What is it this time?

"Calm down, I'm already trying to fix your problem."

I sighed and looked around. I see some restaurants but I think their foods won't satisfy my rumbling stomach. I gave myself another dying minute to look for a restaurant. My eyes are trying their best to roam and find what I want. After 2 minutes, I finally found myself a very amazing place to eat at.

I grinned. I knew it. There's no way this restaurant is not here.

Clara's.

"Yes. Finally. Satisfy me, babe."

I chuckled because of what I said. I'm losing my mind and it's very obvious. Maybe it's because of the hunger I'm enduring now. Well, worry no more tumtum. You're about to eat.

But I kinda thought earlier that maybe I just need a snack and not a whole out dish just like the ones I eat in lunch and dinner. This stomachache is just a small turbulence. So maybe I should just eat a snack?

I shook my head before immediately going inside of the restaurant. f**k it. I'm going to eat whatever I want.

When I finally had a table to eat at, I roamed my eyes around and saw that some peeps are looking at me like I'm at a wrong place. But I didn't gave them too much attention since my stomach is really desperate. I called a waiter as I looked at the menu. Even though I was thinking of having a simple snack earlier, I ended up ordering two appetizers.

Almond-Bacon Cheese Crostini and Sweet & Spicy Jalapeno Poppers.

I also ordered a glass of cold pineapple juice and of course, water.

While waiting for my orders, I spent couple of minutes exploring my phone. I checked my social media accounts and some message requests. I had fun reading them all but I never thought of replying. Minutes passed by and before I even noticed it, the waiter arrived as he placed my orders on my table.

Right then and there, after the waiter left, I did everything to satisfy myself with these foods.

I swallowed, chewed, and finished every bit of it until the stomachache was no where to be found. I wiped my lips with tissue before drinking the pineapple juice I've been meaning to absorb.

Shit. It's cold as f**k.

It contains more than five small ice cubes and it gave one of my teeth and my gums a sudden pang. I whispered a cuss to myself before attempting to take another sip. It's cold but I don't care.

I was about to drink again but I immediately stopped when I saw an angel dressed up just like a normal chef.

Clara. I smiled. What a literal angel.

Her wavy blonde hair really suits her. The freckles on her cheeks are making her look more gorgeous than ever. And now, thinking that she just came out from the kitchen, makes her more attractive to me. Nothing can impress me more than a lady who can slay the kitchen work very intelligently. And this lady right here's no joke.

Damn.

Should I talk to her now? Is it a good idea to approach her? Or not?

Nah, maybe next time.

I looked at my wrist watch, 6:30 PM.

Okay. That was fast.

When I looked at the place where Clara was standing earlier, she was not there anymore. So, I payed for what I ordered and gave tip to the waiter. I just winked at him when he realized that what I gave was too much. After he thanked me, I made my move to leave the restaurant as I explore the Hotel more.

I found myself watching the people swimming in the hotel's very spacious pool while the sun was setting. It was a very beautiful moment to witness. But later on, I realized that what I'm doing is not making any sense. I don't know why but I want to have fun. I don't want to just relax, I also want to have fun. And I want to be with someone to have fun. It's really impossible for me to have fun alone. I mean, I could just ride in a roller coaster and scream very loud to make myself think that it's such a very fun experience. But whatever I do, I know I can't fool myself.

Damn. Universe, please give me someone to have fun with. Please!

Oh, I know. Harvey!

No. That jerk will clearly say no.

Ahm, how about Lucan? Or Trudy?

I sighed. Forget it.

It's useless.

I'm alone.

No one is going to willingly have fun with me. I know it's a little bit childish, but I really really want to have fun in Vegas. I mean, I'm clearly in a city where fun is found everywhere. Would it be too much to ask for a buddy?

I guess. Darn it.

After I got sick of watching some people having fun at the pool, I decided to go back to my suite. It only took me a couple of minutes before finally reaching it. I made sure that I locked the door before taking off my white shirt. I am now half naked while roaming around my suite. For a minute, I let myself stare at the view I'm witnessing and seeing through the glass wall-like barrier that protects me from the outside.

From here, I can clearly see the city being so alive at night. All the neon lights were blinding every sight. And the casinos and bars that weren't open earlier, are now lively than ever. If ever you're planning to see Vegas at its best, it's better to do it at night.

The fountain show has now started and I can see it from up here. It's just located before the hotel, that's why. Many tourists are enjoying it and some are taking photos from their cameras and phones.

Instead of spending a lot of time watching the fountain, I went to my room and took off every piece of clothe I was wearing. I suddenly felt like it was hot. So, I immediately decided to take a shower and freshen up since I'm also feeling all sticky and was a little sweaty.

I went inside the shower room and just went with the water.

I let it eat my whole body. I let it take over every inch of my skin. The water was not so cold nor hot. It was just right to freshen me up.

Yeah, it was just right. But something came into my mind and bothered me in the middle of this kind situation.

Kaden.

Until now, I can't think of any possible reason why she wants to explain about what happened 3 years ago. I know that I do deserve an explanation. But did it ever crossed her mind that it's too late? I waited for that explanation. But f**k it, it's too late now. I don't want to hear it anymore. I don't want her to give me another problem to think about every night. I thought she was just going to talk to me casually earlier. But I was wrong. Her intention was clearly to explain her side. And I don't want that explanation because it can be an enough 'go signal' for me to make this small amount of hope grow.

I don't want her to sweeten up the originally bitter past she gave me. And I don't want her to act like the victim where in fact, she's the villain and her vicious husband, Sebastian Tanner.

I don't want to be ridiculous or anything, but I'm just trying to avoid every unusual ideas that I might do if ever I let Kaden say even just a single word coming from her very late explanation.

I might be clueless about what truly happened 3 years ago, but I will never let it ruin me again. She can explain herself but only before. I already waited for a very long time. She can't do me dirty all the time. I won't let her.

If being clueless means I won't hear her very late explanation, then, I'm going to be clueless until the small amount of hope within me is gone. But what if she's just really trying to explain? What if there's an enough reason why her explanation is late? Should I give her a chance instead? Or just discard every what if because it's very known that what ifs ruin everything.

Oh, God. I don't really know.

Maybe the truth is I am not yet really ready to throw this hope away. And I am damn afraid that I might go back to square one and need her just like how I need her before in every second of the day.

How did she made me like this?

How did she made our almost fairytale love to be ruined so easily?

It's just so unfair for me, you know. I was already more than willing to spend the rest of my life with her yet this is what I get? This is what I get for loving her the way she deserves to be loved? How come? All I did was to love her and I gave her the purest form of love I could give. It was so easy for me to do it. So easy because I was so damn into her.

How did she married that man in front of me?

Fuck it.

Thousands of questions and not even a single one is answered.

Forget it.

I don't want an answer.

I don't wan an explanation.

I'll get pass through this.

You'll see, Kaden. You'll see.

I let out a heavy sigh as I continued taking a shower. I was only standing under the water. Letting it take over my body as it washes away every thought of Kaden in my mind. Both of my hands are on the tiled wall of the shower room as I look down and closed my eyes.

Kaden's face immediately appeared in my mind.

I let my mind to familiarize every detail of her face. Nothing really changed. Nothing much. She still looks like my Kaden before. She's still wide eyed. Along with her sultry lips and long nose. Her exquisite beauty is still exquisite after 3 years. Maybe Sebastian had taken care of her very well. She looks radiant and contented. I'm more than sure that she's finally on top of the pyramid of happiness that she used to tell me. She badly want to reach the top with me. But that was before. A change of mind was applied and then I was replaced.

Tragic.

After thinking of everything that's bothering my mind, I decided to finish showering seriously this time.

When I was contented about how my body was cleaned and freshen up, I took a towel to cover up my lower body as I went out of the shower room. I was heading to my room but then I heard someone knocking on the main door of my suite. It was loud enough to tell me that someone is outside clearly looking for me. I wanted to put on some clothes first before opening up the door for whoever it might be waiting outside. But when I heard another set of knocking, I shrugged it off and headed to the main door to open it up.

"Coming!" I shouted from the living room.

With only a towel to cover my lower body, I opened up the door and saw that it was Elisa.

She was holding a sky blue small sized envelope and was looking at me from my face down to my feet.

She unknowingly blushed. "S-Sir."

Both of her cheeks looked like they had a bloodshot. It made her look like she just finished standing in an open field where the sun enjoys to display its burning rays.

"Ahm, I just need to give you t-this."

Her eyes are focused on the floor as her right hand handed me the small sized envelope. Without a second thought, I accepted the small sized envelope and thanked her for it. I didn't got a response from her since she decided to leave immediately with her head down and low.

"Hmm, that was weird. Why is she blushing like her cheeks are about to turn into red tomatoes?"

For a second there, I thought Elisa was just being all weird. But when I realized I was half naked and only has a towel to cover my lower body, that's when I got an answer why she was blushing.

"Oh. I should've put on some clothes. Poor Elisa, she witnessed me like this."

I tsked as I closed and locked the door again.

I left the small sized envelope on the center table and decided to finally put on some comfortable clothes to sleep well. After that, I went into the living room and blasted some music. My eyes landed on the center table and I immediately saw the envelope I left there. I stood up to take it and recklessly opened it.

It was an invitation. A notice, perhaps.

The envelope was made with scented paper. Right then, and there, I knew it was something special.

"You are invited to attend a celebration tomorrow at 7 PM. Exactly at Bellagio Resort. Your presence is highly expected."