Ceaseless love

Episode 4

Ava's Point Of View,

I was standing there, still so shocked and just did not know how the hell I should react right now. And this girl was looking at me with wide and shocking and confusing eyes and I just knew that she was gonna ask me a lot of questions now and I had no idea how to answer her and what I should say now.

"Ms Ava, do you know him personally? I mean he is so handsome and ridiculously hot, how do you know him", she asked me, and I just took a deep breath.

"No, I do not know him and also do you really think that this is the place for you to kiss a guy? You are here to study and I do not think that you are doing anything related to it", I asked her and she just dropped her smile.

"I did not expect you to be so rude and narrow-minded. What happened to you ms, Ava, you were not like that. I thought you were cooler than others and open-minded, but you just pissed me off and I am so sorry that I made you disappointed", she said to me coldly and walked away from there. I was still standing there and looking at her and turned my head. What the hell is happening to me? Why the hell is he here? I mean, I thought he would not come back and now he came here all of the sudden and was walking around me.

All those moments started running into my mind all over again. I was trying hard to overcome all this, but I know that all these will never leave me alone. It will stay with me forever and I just do not know what I should do. I just took a deep breath and sat back in my seat. There is no way that I can do my work now, or I can read anything now. My mind is not working now and I feel that I am gonna die now because of this irritation. There is no way that I can be normal around him. It is so strange and I do not know how to behave now. It was just then my phone started ringing again and I just took a deep breath and picked up the call.

"Ava, you just have to come home now", I heard Nany's panicked voice and a tension line appeared on my head.

"Just stay there okay. I am on my way. I just grabbed my things and ran out of there. I saw Lucas was sitting just out on the bench and he was looking so angry and tensed and much more, but I am not having much time for that now. I have to go. He saw me leaving and he got worried. Maybe the tension line was visible on my head and he noticed it like he always does.

"Ava, what happened, is everything alright, where are you going and why do you look so worried? Tell me", he asked me as he came close to me and I just rolled my eyes. He is making me angry. I know that I asked him a question in class, but that does not mean that I forgave him. I am not gonna forgive him for what he did, not any time soon.

"Do not pretend if you care about me. It is none of your business. So cut the crap okay, just do what you are doing", I said to him, and I saw how a wave of sadness ran into his eyes, but I did not care. He deserves this. He chose this for him, and now I just do not care if he is sad.

"Please do not say that, Ava, you know that it is not the truth", he said, but I just took a deep breath and made my way out. I dialled a number and the call was answered shortly.

"Please inform them that there is some kind of emergency so I have to leave", I said on the call, and opened the door of the car and made my way towards home. At this time, nothing is important for me to go home. God knows how he is. He would be there and what the hell happened? He would be sad and crying. Oh god, why did you let that happen? I just do not know what I should do. My mind is not working properly now. I just dialled the number of Nany so I can get an idea about him.

"Hello, how is he? Is he fine", I asked her and I heard him crying.

"I am so sorry madam, but he is still crying and asking for you. I tried so hard to coo him and make him feel good, but he did not stop crying," He needs you, madam, you should come back now", she said. and I just took a deep breath.

"Yes, I know Nany, and I am on my way. Do not worry, I will be there soon", I said, and hung up the call. I noticed Lucas was still there and standing and maybe waiting for me to say something or ask him for help, but he knows so well that I will never go back to him and ask for his help, no matter what happens.

I just ignored him and made my way to him. I felt so worried about how he would be feeling without me. I know it is a kind of risk leaving him alone when he misses me so much. I was a little deep in my thoughts when my phone started ringing again.

"What happen Nany, I am on my way", I said to her.

"Madam, I called you to tell you that he is fine now. Your mom came and now he is happy and playing with her, so it would be fine if you did not come", she said, and I just took a deep breath.

"Is he fine", I asked her again.

"Yes, she is fine now", she said, and I just hung up. I took a deep breath but I had already got out of college and I did not feel like going there again, so I just decided to go somewhere else. I was feeling a little hungry so I just thought that I should eat something good. It had been a long time that I had not eaten anything yummy, so I just turned my way and headed towards my favourite cafe.

"Can I join you", I heard a familiar voice and turned my head to see only him with that creepy forced smile on his face and I just closed my eyes for a seconds so that I could calm myself down.

"Why the hell are you following me", I kind of yelled at him and he did not say anything to me. He just pulled a chair and sat in front of me.

"I thought something had happened and the way you left I thought it was some kind of emergency. I was scared of you, but it turned into something else, so I ended up here", he said to me, and I just glared at him with angry eyes.

"If something bad happens nothing relates to you.. So please just stop worrying about me. Okay, I am fine and I can manage on my own. You do not need to come all of a sudden back into my life and pretend that you care about me and you were scared of me. I can not take your concern all of a sudden. Why do not you leave me alone, Lucas, Go and find someone else for your distraction", I said to him, but he was still smiling at me, but I could see he was sad. His eyes were showing it to me and I know no matter how much he tries to take his emotions off, but I always know how he is feeling.

"What would you like to have madam", the waiter came and asked me. I really do not want to spoil my day, after so many days I came here, so there is no favourite that I will go from here without eating and I know he will not leave me alone. So I just have to ignore him if I want some peace.

"I will have a pizza with onion and capsicum and one ice cream, thank you", I said to him and he nodded and smiled at me.

"And what about you sir", he then asked him.

"One burger and the same ice cream", he said to him, and the water left from there and he was just looking at me and smiling.

"Why are you doing this to me? What the hell do you want, Lucas? Look, I do not have anything to give you now", I said to him and he just looked at me and smiled again.

"You are still the same Ava, the same stubborn, arrogant girl. You did not change a bit", he said to me, and I forced a smile on him.

"Oh really, all thanks to you Lucas.. Whatever I am today, it is all because of you. And for your kind information let me tell you, everything about me has changed. I am not the same anymore and it would be better if you did not expect anything from me", I said to him, and his eye's colour changed. It got darker and it always happens. Whenever something affects him the most, his eyes' colours change and I know very well that he is hurt now, but this is nothing in comparison to the pain he gave me. He knows nothing about me. He has no idea how much he hurts me and now he is here, roaming around me as if nothing happened. I can never forget what he did, never, ever.

"Just one chance, Ava. Can you give me one more chance? You know I love you so much, I want you the same I did before, please just trust me", he said to me, and a sarcastic laugh escaped from my mouth.

"I can never trust you again, Lucas, and one more thing, I do not love you anymore", I said to him and I saw how his smile dropped.

Lucas's Point Of View,

I saw her. She was looking so tense since she received a call from someone and she was even telling someone there was some kind of emergency, so she was leaving and I could not see her in any kind of trouble, so I followed her. But she ended up at her favourite cafe and she was ordering pizza and ice cream. I did not understand what the hell happened to her all of a sudden. I know she was worried. Then something happened and now she is here, just like always. I followed her there too and she was not happy to see me. I know that but I just need one more chance from her and, no matter what, I will take it from her.

"One more thing, Lucas, I do not love you anymore and I am not the same person anymore", she said, and my smile just vanished into thin air. She knows so well how to make me piss off and make me upset. She did not think once before saying it.

"Ava, listen to me, I know I made you angry and I know I made you upset and now I am back and I am ready to do anything. I am ready to make up to you. I can do anything for you. Just give me one more chance, please", I said to her and she glared at me with angry eyes.

"So you can do anything for me, right", she asked me and I instantly nodded my head.

"Then do me a favour, Lucas, leave me alone. I want to be alone. Could you do that for me, please", she said to me, and I just took a deep breath. I do not understand what I should do so that she can come back to me. I am tired and I want her back no matter what.

"Sorry Ava, I am afraid that I can not do that to you. I left you once but I can not leave you again", I said to her and she faked a smile at me.

"Then stop talking, Lucas, I need some peace here, so let me enjoy please", she said to me, and at the same time, the waiter came with food. He gave me the burger and ice cream and pizza for her and she smiled at the waiter.

"Thank you so much", she said to him, and he left. She started eating and she was moaning like she always does. I felt like I was getting affected by that. I was staring at her so badly and she just glared at me.

"Can you please stop staring at me like a loafer Lucas", she said, and I just looked down. I did not mean to make her feel uncomfortable, but it seemed like I did. But she was eating alone like I do not exist and it hurts so much., so I just took a slice from her plate and she glared at me hard.

"You ordered a burger, so eat that. You can not take my pizza okay", she said, and pulled her plate near her. She was always like this, she never liked to share her food. I just smiled at her hard. I know she was trying to steal glances from me and I just can not help but smile. I also started eating my burger, which was yummy because I did not eat my breakfast and I was hungry too.

"So tell me, what did you do all these years when I was gone", I asked her, and I noticed how she changed her expression and she got uneasy.

"It is none of your business, Lucas. Just eat quietly and do not bother me, please", she said to me, and ignored me and started eating again. I just took a deep breath and started eating again, I know no matter how many times she will say, but I just can not leave her alone.

"Ava, tell me what I should do so that I can reduce your anger. You know very well I already regretted it, and now I am guilty. I can not stay like this, please, just give me one chance", I asked her with pleading eyes. I am honestly so tired, I want to be with her and hold her in my arms. I miss her touch, her kiss, her presence in my life so much.

"If you remember, I called you thousands of times. I beg you to come back. That time I was broke. I needed you back so badly, but you did not answer my call. You ignored me, you ignored my calls, you ignored that I loved you.. You ignored that I exist and now when you are done with your studies.. You got everything you wanted. After being a successful businessman, you came back into my life and asked for forgiveness. I am not a fool, Lucas. I can see what you are trying to do, and trust me, I do not need you back in my life ever again", she said to me. I was just looking at her with wide eyes, how can she say all this? I mean how the hell she knows about me. I thought no one was aware of my position and about my work. I kept it hidden. I knew I had chosen a wrong path but I was ready to get her back anyhow, no matter how many lies I had to say.

"What are you saying Ava", I said slowly. I have no idea how to disguise it, and when she knows the truth, there is no use in lying to her. She knows what I am, she knows about my work and everything but I have no idea how.

"Oh, so you are surprised I know your secret. Oh Lucas, seems like you still do not know me well. I used to love you, Lucas. You really think that I would not know about you and your work. How bad it is, huh", she said, and I am just so shocked to even react, she knows everything about me and now it would be harder for me to pursue her, she will never agree to be with me now and I just have no idea what I should do now.

"Ava, I know that I made you upset, but trust me, I did this for us. I love you more than anything, Ava, and you know that I wanted to give you a life we always dreamed about, and for that. I just had to go, it was my last chance. Please try to understand. I wanted to make you happy. I wanted to make you feel like a princess", I said to her and she just laughed so hard after hearing my words, like I joked or something.

"You have no idea what real happiness is. A real princess needs love and care, Lucas, not money and luxury. I could have worked with you harder. We both could have worked hard.. We could get rich together, but no, you chose to run away from me. You chose to leave me, so Lucas, you were right. It was your last chance and congratulations, you lost it. Now you may get lost from my life, okay", she said to me, and I just felt that tears build up into my eyes and I was like crying, my eyes were already wet and it was so hard to even look at her. She was right, she has changed a lot.

"Seems like my words hurt you. I should apologize for saying such harsh words. I can understand how badly it hurts, but you have no idea how badly you have hurt me. When I cry myself to sleep, I can never forget the time you left me alone. You have no idea how it feels when your groom leaves you like that, you have no idea how badly it hurts, so if you think that I am harsh, I am, if you think I am rude, I am, and if you think that I will forgive you, then you are mistaken. I will never forgive you", she said, and I saw that her eyes also got teary but she was trying her best to cover them and look strong in front of me. I know that what I did was unforgivable, but why does she not get it that what I did was for us? I wanted to make her the happiest girl in the world. I could not stand the hate in her eyes, so I just got up from there and made my way out. I paid the bill for us and got out of there.

It was not easy to handle all this. I can handle anything, like anything, but hate in her eyes for me. It hurts so much. I wish I could undo everything I did. If I got this chance, I would never leave her again. But if she is right, I lost the chance and she will never forgive me. I am trying to do everything to get her back, but she is making it tougher for me each passing moment. But I do not understand how she will be happy and how she will forgive me. I even tried to be a student in her class, but there was no use of it. I got admission to this college so that I could be near her and I could see her daily and I could try to get her back daily, but I did not know that she could be that much changed and she even got stubborn before too.

Oh god, please just help me.