Ceaseless love

Episode 5

Lucas's Point Of View,

I just do not know what the hell I should do now and how the hell I should react and feel. I do not even know where the hell I should go now. I feel that I am losing everything, it sucks. I have everything now, like every single thing that I thought I would give her. I will make her happy, but she is not ready for anything. She does not want me now. She is now hating me and it is so hard for me to stand this. I can handle anything, but I just can not handle hate in her eyes for me. I am ready to do anything to get her back. I just need a chance which she is not giving me.

I feel like everything is falling apart for me. Whatever I earned is for nothing. I want to do this for her now when she is not with me. If she does not want this, then what should I do? I just messed up everything and I have no idea when she will forgive me for that. I know what I did was wrong and I am guilty of this too. Please just need one chance. I wish someone could help me.

Ava's Point Of View,

I just knew that he would not leave me alone, but I just did not notice that he was following me at the cafe too. I just do not know why the hell he is back all over. He has already left me once. Now, what the hell does he want from me? Is he not happy? Leaving me all alone here so that he could earn money, status, and reputation, and now he has all of it, so now why is he not happy? Why is he here? And why does he want me back in his life? There is no way that I am gonna forgive him for this ever. He left me when I needed him the most and now he is here and pretending that he did nothing wrong. He will apologize to me and I will forgive him. Is it really so easy for him? How could he do that? He does not have any shame left in him.

I promised myself that I would not cry over him again. I already believed that he would not come back soon. I thought he forgot that I exist. I thought he found someone else and fell for her, or I do not have any idea what he was doing all these years. But now he is back. After four years, he is back in my life and asking for forgiveness. Does he think that my life is some kind of joke for him? I am not gonna forgive him anytime soon. I hate him even more. He has no idea how much he hurt me. I just wiped my tears and took a deep breath. No more crying now, no more crying ever.

I know that I will never overcome him. I just f*****g love him so damn much. I know my heart is melting for him. I know I saw the pain in his eyes. I saw how guilty he was. I saw how hurt he was. I saw how badly he wants a chance, but there is no way that I am gonna fall for this so easily. If he wants my forgiveness, he has to earn it. I am a strong woman now, and I made myself so strong all these years. I can handle anything like anything now. I want to see what he can do to get me back for real. I want to see his efforts. I want to see him hurt so that he will know how much he hurt me.

"Excuse me, please get me the bill", I said to the waiter as he walked towards me with his creepy smile.

"Sorry madam, but your bill is paid", he said to me, and I was just looking at him with confused eyes.

"What, no, I did not pay the bill. So please get me the bill, I will pay for it", I said to him as he was looking at me with weird expressions.

"I am sorry madam, but as I said, your bill is paid, so you are free to go", he said to me. and I just took a deep breath. I am getting so angry now. What the hell does he think of himself? I understand that he is now a billionaire, but I do not f*****g want his money. Why does he not understand that I always need his love? I never wanted his money, I wanted him to be with me, but it seems like he will never understand that.

I got up from there and made my way out. I am trying my best to stay calm. But it is not that easy. I can not handle this. It is just too much for me. How he could sound so normal like nothing happened. I just hate him so much. All of a sudden, I felt like I needed a drink. And also it is already evening now. I just could not believe that I wasted the whole time for nothing. He wasted my time. Oh god. What the hell does he want from me now? It is just I am getting crazy, he can not control my life, and I just have to stay calm.

I just sat inside my car and made my way towards the city club. I know it was a little early for me to have a drink. I mean I am not a daily drinker. I can not do that, but I guess for today I could break the rule. So I quickly reached there and he asked me for my id and I looked at him with wide eyes.

"Excuse me, I am a regular customer here, how can you ask me for the id card", I asked him with angry eyes.

"You know, you are so annoying. Here is my card and now just move away from my way", I said, and I walked inside, pushing him away. He just made me angrier than before and now I feel like my blood is boiling in rage and I feel like I am gonna kill someone for now.

"What can I get you madam", the bartender asked me and I just did not know what to say.

"Give me something strong, like tequila or something", I said to him, and nodded his head and at the very next second, he handed me a shot of tequila.

"Thanks", I said to him and instantly gulped the shot. The bitter liquid was burning my throat but I liked it.

"One more shot", I said to him, and he was just looking at me with wide eyes. But I just glared at him hard and he just shifted his gaze. I know I have not drunk for so long, but right now I feel like I can do anything. I can drink more and more. I also know that if I get drunk, I am going to be devastated, but here I am doing it again. Maybe I will be a mess, but who cares? I want to do it. I want to forget all this pain I am feeling right now, and these drinks will help me for sure.

"Here is your drink madam", he said, and gave me one more shot and, without any second thought, I just gulped very hard. I felt something happening inside my stomach. It was burning, and my head maybe started aching. It is so different. Maybe I was getting drunk and I was liking it somehow. I saw a guy coming towards me but I just ignored him.

"One more shot please", I asked him and he gave me one more shot and I just gulped it again. My head is somehow spinning and my vision is getting blurry, but who cares? I decided that I would enjoy today, so here I am gonna enjoy it. I felt someone's hand on my shoulder and I turned my head. My anger just built up even more than before when I saw him here again. Why the hell is he still following me? Did I not say that I want some peace in my life? I do not want to see him, not at least this time. This is my fun time and he is ruining it.

"What the hell do you want? Why can not you leave me alone Lucas, just go away, okay", I said to him and pushed him away? I am not in the mood to handle his tantrums for now.

"Ava, listen to me. What are you doing here? You are already drunk. And it is not safe for you", he said as he held my hand and I just jerked my hand away from him.

"You are no one to tell me what I should do or whatnot. Just stay away from me as you did before and let me enjoy my life, okay", I said to him and rolled my eyes at him, and walked away from him. I could see how angry he was right now. The anger and sadness I could see in his eyes, but I do not care about him anymore.

"Hello beautiful, can I dance with you please", he asked me and I just noticed that his eyes were fixed on me. He was looking at me with angry eyes. So that means this is showtime. Yes, I feel like my legs are shaking and I am not able to understand what I should do.

"Yes sure, let us dance, you know I just love dancing", I said to him and he held my hand and started dragging me to the dance floor and here we go. We started dancing and I could feel that we both were so damn close. His body was touching my body and we were both shaking our bodies with the music beat. I really liked it and enjoyed it. After so many days or maybe months, I felt this much freedom, and that is when the guy came close to me and bent to my ear.

"Did someone tell you that you are so damn pretty", he said to me into my ear and placed a small kiss on my cheek. A small blush came into my face and I smiled hard.

"No one really likes me", I said to him as I made a sad puppy face. He was coming close to me and my heart was beating so damn fast.

"They are all fools. Let me tell you how pretty you are and let me love you", he said, and started kissing my neck. I did not stop him. I somehow liked it so much, but just then I felt someone hold my hand and pull me away from there and the guy was also lying on the floor and crying in pain.

"What the f**k?

Lucas's Point Of View,

I was so upset all these days and now I was just feeling so messed up. I know that she is still so f*****g angry with me, and I just do not know what I should do to make it up to her. Why is she pushing me away that hard? I know I made a mistake and I am ready to do anything about it, but she is not letting me do that. She does not want to talk to me. She does not want to hear me. I just do not know why I am feeling like this, but this life is just the opposite I thought it would be. My money is not even helping me with this.

I just felt that I badly need a drink now. My day is going badly now and I just do not know how the hell this night will go. I f*****g hate this day. Why the hell can she not give me one single chance to make all this better? I am very sure that she will not regret this, but she is being like a b***h and stubborn as hell. I just do not know how I will ever be able to fix all this. I wish someone could help me with all this. I had just made my way to the city club. I was already so pissed off and I just did not know what else I should do now.

Soon I reached the city club, it was already evening. Usually, I do not drink in clubs, but today is a bad day and I am also a bad person according to her, so let us do something I do not usually do. I just got inside because I am kind of a VIP here. They already knew who I was. So I did not have any problem getting inside and I was already in a bad mood. If anyone tried to mess with me. They would have ended up crying. So it was good that no one was coming my way or else I also did not know what I would do to them. I just took a deep breath and sat at the table.

"Good evening sir, what I can get for you", the bartender asked me and I just took a deep breath. I do not believe that I am doing this, but anyway, I am doing this.

"Get me a vodka", I said, and he nodded his head and gave me a shot of vodka and I started chugging it. I was too lost in my sad thoughts when I noticed her. I thought I was imagining her here again but I was so f*****g wrong. She was here for real and she was drunk. What the hell does she think she is doing? She was not like that, she hated alcohol. Then what the hell happened to her? Why the hell is she getting drunk like a stupid alcohol addict?

I have no words to express how much anger I am getting. My blood is boiling to see her like that. What the hell has gotten into her? Why is she doing this? I want to stop her. She is not like this, something is really wrong with her. Why the hell is she doing this? I do not understand her sometimes. I just went to stop her. I can not let her do all this, it is not right for her. She is stupid and acts childish, but this place is not good for her. So I just went in front of her and she rolled her eyes at me. I know she was angry and annoyed to see me there, but what should I do then? I can not see her ruining herself like this. She is getting drunk in such public places. Anyone could take advantage of her and she would cry later then. I just could not let it happen to her. So I just went and stood in front of her. I was hoping that she could hear me at least.

"Ava, what the hell you think you are doing here, huh, this place is not safe for you and you are drunk too. Just come with me", I said to her, but she pushed me away from there. She was angry to see me here, no wonder she would be.

"You are no one to tell me what to do, just go away and let me live my life the way I want", she said to me and pushed me away and walked away from there. I just felt that I was ready to even kill someone. No one has any idea how angry I am and what I am feeling right now. She is dancing with someone and can not even tell how dirty it was. She never danced with me like that, and that guy was touching her body. In fact, their bodies were touching each other like they were gonna have s*x there. How could she do that in such a public place? Does she not care about her reputation? What the hell is she doing, to show her what she was doing? I recorded a video of her, thinking she did not believe me or thought that I was lying, but now my veins were popping out of my skin when I saw what that guy was doing.

I always had a limit to enduring anything and now guess what. That limit has been crossed and there is no way that I can handle this anymore. It seemed like that guy was having a death wish. How dare he kiss her? He started kissing her on her neck and he was touching her. She was too f*****g drunk to notice that. What the hell should I do to her? Is she gonna pay for this? How did she f*****g dare to cross her line like this? I can understand that she is angry, upset, sad, and whatnot, but she really thinks that what she is doing is justifiable. I just went on the dance floor and pulled her hand and pulled her away from there and hit the guy hard on his nose, he fell on the floor and his nose started bleeding so damn hard. But I just do not care. How he f*****g dared to touch her, I just went close to him and held him by his collar.

"Do you not dare to touch her again or else I will bury you alive", I said to him and threw him away. Ava was too drunk to notice what was happening, so I just held her hand and started dragging her out.

"What the hell you are doing, leave my hand right now, leave my hand Lucas, leave, leave", she started yelling at me and I just glared at her with angry eyes.

"If you dare to say one more word, you are gonna pay for this", I said to her and she instantly put her finger on her lips. She was drunk and she was looking so damn cute and her actions were making her more adorable, but right now that is not important. I just do not know what I should do to her. I do not know where she is living right now. I tried hard to find her address but I couldn't find it. That was the reason that I was following her in the morning so that I could know where she was living, but she ended up at that cafe, so I have no clue where she lives. There is no way that I can send her to any hotel. She is drunk and anyone could take advantage of her easily like that guy was trying, so I decided to take her with me to my place.

"Let us go", I said to her, and held her hand again, but she was trying to get rid of this as she was shaking her head terribly.

"Leave me, Lucas, I will not go anywhere with you, just leave me", she said again, and I just glared at her hard. So she turned her head away from me and I made her sit in the car. I also got inside and made my way to my home. I just have no idea how she will react when she is sober. I can not just imagine that, as it would be terrible, I guess.

"Where are you taking me Lucas", she asked me nicely this time. She was trying to keep her eyes open but they were closing, again and again. I asked the bartender recently how much she drank and he told me that she had more than five shots. I just could not believe that she was the same Ava or did I have to trust her when she said she was changed now? I made my way to my home and soon as we got there, I just opened the door for her and helped her to get out, but she shook her head. Gosh, how terrible she is.

"I do not want to go with you", she said, but I just picked her in my arms and headed inside my home.

"Good evening master", Marry opened the door for me and wished me and I nodded my head and headed inside.

"Do you need anything, master", she asked me and I shook my head and took her inside my room, and made her sit on the bed.

"Ava, listen to me very carefully, you are drunk and you should sleep now, okay? Have a good rest, and never forget that I love you", I said to him and placed a soft kiss on her head. I know that you love me too, but it is just I made you upset and turned you down. But do not worry. I will convince you soon, and then you will accept that you love me too. I turned my head to leave but she held my hand and she was looking at me with her cute, puppy face.

"You are lying to me, you do not love me anymore, Lucas. You only love your money, that is why you left me alone. Right, you always do that for me. Why did you do that to me, Lucas? Why do you not love me anymore? Why is money so important to you", she said to me, as she was sounding so upset and I felt really bad to see her like that. I just cupped her face. I can not see her like that. This is not what I wanted for her. I wanted to give her comfort and love but I just messed up everything.

"I love you, Ava, just trust me, I love you so damn much. I know I made a mistake. I know that I hurt you. I know that I left you alone and I have disappeared as I will never come back, but trust me, all that I did was for you. I wanted to give you the life that you always wanted. I wanted to give you love and comfort, but see what I did. I just made our connection fragile. I am so sorry, Ava, but trust me. I can do anything to fix this. I still love you so much", I said to her, but she just pulled herself back.

"How many times I told you, Lucas, that I do not need that money and comfort, all I needed was your love, but you did not listen to me, you left me, and now I just hate you so much", she said and I could see how her eyes were getting close.

"Okay fine, fine, you hate me, right, it is okay, for now, sleep", I said. But she pushed me away and got up and sat on the bed. She was looking at me with narrow eyes like she would eat me alive. I just gulped hard as I did not know what I should do now. She is looking more dangerous than ever at this time, and I can not do anything.

"Do you want some water Ava", I asked her as I went close to her and tried to make her drink some water, but she shook her head and started shaking it so fast.

"I am feeling so hot all of the sudden", she said, and I just looked at her with wide eyes.

"The ac is full Ava", I said to her, but I saw what she was doing. My eyes went wide at her like that. Something was terribly wrong with her. She was unbuttoning her shirt. Oh god.