Ceaseless love

Episode 6

Lucas's Point Of View,

I just did not know that she would get drunk like that and that I would not be able to control her. She is here with me at my place and it is still like a dream for me. She has been here after so many years and I just do not know what to do. She looks so damn cute and I can not stop staring at her. Her cute actions are so adorable. I know no matter how hard she tries to be tough. She is still a kid on the inside, her heart is still as pure as a kid and I know that she still loves me so much deep down in her heart. She is just angry with me no matter what. I will do anything to get her back in my life. She is precious to me and there is no way that I can afford to lose her at any cost.

"Ava, what the hell do you think you are doing", I asked her and she was now glaring at me with her cute, puppy eyes. She does not have any idea what she is doing. She is trying to get angry, but at the same time, she is pretending to make puppy eyes. I just do not know what I should do with her. She is unbuttoning her shirt and there is no way that I will take advantage of her when she is drunk. I mean I am dying to kiss her and touch her, but I just do not want it this way. I want her to do this as she wishes. I want to convince her of this. I want to make up for this, and that is why I am trying my best to control my beast. I do not want to hurt her and make her feel that I took advantage of her while she was drunk.

"Ava, stop doing it right now", I yelled at her and held her hands because she had already unbuttoned her shirt and now she was smiling at me.

"What Lucas, no, I am feeling really hot. it is so hot here", she complained to me and I just shook my head.

"The room is cold enough, Ava, and also you can not get undressed here. I am here and you are doing it. What happened to you", I was trying to act tough and scold her so that she could sleep peacefully, but she made a sad face and puppy eyes and her eyes got teary as she sat on the bed.

"Now I get it so well. You are no longer interested in me. You do not find me attractive anymore, right? You went away from me and I am sure that you found someone else there and that is why you are pushing me away from you, right", she said, and I just looked at her with wide eyes. How the hell could she even think that way? I could never find anyone else. I love her with all my heart and my soul and my body. I do not even want to look at another girl. She is my only love and I could not even think about it.

"That is not true, Ava. I could not even think that way. You are my only love and I will love you like forever. I swear", I just cupped her cheeks but she just held my hand and put it on her chest.

"Then why do not you show me your love anymore, Lucas? You do not find me attractive anymore, right", she asked me, still making a sad, puppy face, and I just took a deep breath. My hands were still on her chest and my heart was beating so damn fast. It could come out of my chest any time soon.

"Ava, just try to understand it, okay? You are drunk and I can not take advantage of you. Please just try to understand". I was trying to make her understand but she shook her head and it looked like she would cry soon. I just have to do something because there is no way that I am gonna see her crying in front of me.

"I am okay with it, Lucas. I know I am drunk and I am really happy. It is like a dream for me that you are here with me again after all these years. And I know it will be over when I open my eyes in the morning. So let me live this dream, Lucas, please", she said, and I could see how hurt she was. My heart was really aching to see her like that. I never wanted this to happen. I just do not know how to make it up to her. It is really hard for me to see her like that.

"You will hate me when you wake up in the morning. I just do not know how you will even react after that. Maybe you will never want to see me again", I said to her, but she again shook her head.

"I am not scared about that. I do not even care about anything right now. I am just loving this moment. So just let me do that", she held my hand and put it on her thigh and I just gulped hard. She was really out of my mind and I just do not know what I should do now. I am really trying hard to resist it, but seems like it is gonna be really tough tonight.

"Kiss me, Lucas, kiss me right now", she put her hand on my thighs, and now there is no way that I can hold myself anymore.

"Ava, you will be really angry and you are gonna regret it in the morning". I tried to push her hand away but now her hand came to my zip and I just held it but she just jerked my hand and held it. She pulled me close to her and put her lips on mine. She started kissing me aggressively and it was rough. The moment her lips were on mine, I felt an electric shock run into my whole body and I just could not resist it. She was provoking me and here I am, holding her tight and kissing her back like there is no next day and this is my last day on the earth.

"Kiss me harder Lucas. What is wrong with you? Did you forget how to kiss", she said between the kisses, and I just looked at her with wide eyes.

"What do you really mean by that? How many boys have you kissed after me", I asked her. I was somehow shocked to hear that and she just laughed so hard.

"Amm, I forgot, I will tell you later", she said, and I was just glaring at her now. How dare she kiss someone else?

"How did you f*****g dare to kiss someone else when I was gone". I was really angry now, but she just put her finger on my lips and kissed me hard again.

"Shh, do not ruin this", she said and removed her shirt. And that is when I noticed that she had put on. She gained some weight and she looked a little more mature than before. Maybe she used to cry a lot while I was gone. So it happened, but I can manage with this too. I just do not love her body, I love everything about her. And that is when I noticed there was a mark or scar on her stomach. I touched it and she jerked my hand away.

"How did you get this scar Ava", I asked her, but she sealed my lips with another kiss and kissed me harder again, and she started removing my shirt and she just did it in a blink. She kissed my chest like crazy, like there is no tomorrow. Her lips again kissed mine and now her hands were going to my pant and I held them.

"Ava, think one more time. Do you really want this? Cause there is no way that I can undo this. You should really think about this one last time because you have no idea how hard I have been controlling myself till now". I was trying to put some sense into her mind but it seemed like she wanted that. She unbuckled my belt and pulled my pants down and that was it. That was so long that I tried to control myself, but now I can not. I just flipped her on the bed and hovered her. I removed her pants and started kissing her hard and she was moaning like she really liked it. And it is really visible that she did. Now I have just lost control and now we are both kissing like there is no tomorrow and this is our last day on earth.

"You taste so damn good. You just have no idea how badly I missed you. I missed you so damn much", she said between her moans. I really liked my name from her mouth. She is really something. There is no way that any girl could take her place in my life. I just can not even think of anyone at her place.

"Really, well, I would like to say the same here because you also taste awesome. You taste like alcohol but I love it so much. like so much, but Ava, just remember one thing. Do you not dare to drink again? You can not handle it, so you should not drink. You are not allowed to drink anymore, okay", I warned her, but she was glaring at me like she was angry.

"You are no one to tell me what to do, understand", she just flipped me and started licking my chest. she was sucking my n*****s and I just could not control and moaned hard. She is still so damn good at that. She knows so well how to make me shut up. I was moaning hard as intense pleasure was running into my whole body.

"You are having s*x with me, Ava, and you are still asking me who I am, are you kidding me", I said to her between my moans and she was now doing it faster. And the very next second she pulled down my boxers and she was riding on me and we had two more rounds after that. It was a crazy night. I never had that much fun. I mean I could say that it was the best s*x of my life. I did not know that s*x felt so damn good when she was angry. Gosh, I just did not realize that she was glaring at me. Lying next to me and we were both still naked. We had a lot of s*x but she was still not sober. She was still drunk. She put her hand on her mouth and got up and sat on the bed.

"Hey, what happened? are you okay? You do not look fine", I asked her, but she did not say anything. Instead, she got up from bed and quickly ran towards the washroom, and threw up. To be honest, I was kind of ready for it.I was even wondering why she did not puke yet. So here she was throwing it out and coughing. I quickly followed her inside and held her hair and she was done soon. I made her brush her teeth and washed her face. I took her out as I picked her up in my arms and made her sleep on the bed. She fell asleep in my arms and there was no way that I could explain how cute and innocent she looked.

She looked just like a sleeping angel. I placed a soft kiss on her head and covered her with the quilt. I felt so lucky and somehow so happy when I realized that she was still the same. And that is proof that she had not been with anyone for a long time. She did not have s*x, that is what made me feel so special. There was a proud smile on my face and it stayed with me. After that, I also lay beside her and put my hand on her waist, and I noticed that the scar on her stomach was kind of deep and old. She did not tell me how she got that scar. It was more like a cut. Did someone stab her while I was gone? It seemed like I needed to know so many things, yet soon I fell asleep and did not even realize when I fell.

Ava's Point Of View,

I woke up as sunlight was falling on my face and this bed was so damn comfortable. I slowly rubbed my eyes and opened them. I had a big smile on my face. I was kind of feeling fresh somehow and that was so damn good. After a really long time, I feel like this. I mean having a happy morning. I was about to go up and that is when I realized that I was naked. I was not wearing a single piece of cloth on my body and my eyes just got wide and my mouth was also wide open. fear ran into my whole body and I just did not know how the hell I should react. I gulped hard when I noticed my surroundings, and my eyes just got wide due to shock. Somehow, I still remember this place. I shook my head violently.

"No, no, that is not possible. That can not happen. How the hell did this happen? I am really at his place. No, gosh, how did it happen? I was so f*****g scared. I mean I did not understand what happened, and how it happened. It should not have happened. s**t, god, please just tell me that I am just having a nightmare. But well, I know very well that it is not a f*****g nightmare. I am really here at his place. Gosh, what the hell will I do now? There was no way that I could face him. He really got what he wanted. Does that mean that he won again? Tears built up in my eyes and I really felt like crying hard. How could I do this?

How the hell could I be so f*****g desperate to have him? Shame on me. Thank god he was not there. He had woken up already or else there was no way that I could even look at his face. I quickly got up from bed and started wearing my clothes and that is when I heard the sound from the bathroom. He was in the bathroom. My heart started beating so damn fast. There is no way that he could see me like this here. I just wore my clothes and started grabbing my things. My heart stopped when I heard the sound of the door as it went open and I felt that I was gonna lose my mind. My head is aching so badly already as it will explode any time soon and now he is here. I do not know how I should react. My legs are trembling. Maybe I am still sour down there because it was after a really long time, and at the very next second, I was feeling his presence behind me. I felt that my body was also shivering. I gulped hard again.

"Are you planning to leave just like that? Hide from me, huh", I heard his deep voice and there are no words that I could explain this feeling. My breath is getting so heavy. He is still having that great effect on me. He is still able to control my heart and my body, and I am still so weak in front of him, but there is no way that I will let him win this time. No matter how I am feeling at this time. I will not let him know that. I just tried my best to hide my emotions and a cold expression came on my face as I closed my eyes and took a deep breath and turned my head to face him. I just had to do that. I have to be strong.

"Why the hell would I hide? I am just leaving coz I am getting late", I said and tried to leave, but he knows so well how to distract me and make me weak. He held my hand and pulled me close to him.

"Then how will you hide this hickey? It is a sign of my love. How will you hide it, Ava? You can not deny that you still love me. Your heart still beats for me, right", he asked me as his face was so close to me and I could even feel his hot, minty breath on my face. And maybe I forgot to mention that he was half-naked. He was just wearing a towel around his waist and water was dripping from his hair to his chest, and he was looking so damn f*****g hot and I just do not know why the hell I am getting affected that much. I could not stop myself but glared at his hot body and I just closed my eyes to control this as I took a deep breath, and I tried to get rid of his grip, but his grip got tightened than before as he held it even tighter.

"Let go of me Lucas, I have to go now", I said, as I got angry. He can not do that to me. He is no one to control my life. He is not allowed to do that. That is really unfair. I was gulping hard, again and again. My throat was really burning as it was getting dry and I was really thirsty.

"I can not let you go, Ava. I still love you and you also love me. And last night was proof of this. You were so passionate last night. You were not ready to leave me. You were holding me like you were scared of losing me. And now you are acting strangely. That is not fair Ava", he was trying to make me understand, but there was no way that I could hear him and trust him. I am still not ready to forgive him yet.

"I do not f*****g love you, Lucas. And the last night was nothing for me but lust. Maybe that was pure lust. Maybe I missed your f**k. So that is why I could not control it. And maybe I have not f****d anyone since last week, so I was somehow craving it. So it was you this week. Thank you for satisfying me. I will pay for this for sure. I had fun. It seems like you did a great job, so I should pay you extra, right", she said, and she just pulled some cash from her bag and placed it on the table.

"You could ask more if you want about your excellent performance", I smirked at him and I had an idea what he was feeling right now. Anger built up in his body as I felt that his veins were popping out and his eyes were also getting red. I always used to get scared of this look, but this time I just had to act strongly, at least in front of him.

Lucas's Point Of View,

"How could you f*****g dare to say that, Ava. How could you say that? How the hell could you even think that way", I asked her as I pulled her hand and pushed her against the wall. She had no idea that she had awakened the beast inside me. She should not have said such creepy words to me. I know she is mad at me, but that does not mean she can talk rubbish about me or herself. I know her so well. She is not like that. She could never be like what she said.

"What do you think you are doing? Just let me go right now", she tried to protest while she knew that she was nothing in front of me. I am a hundred times stronger than her, but she still tries to get rid of my grip.

"How do you f*****g dare to say that", I held his jaw and I knew I should not do that, but it was not my fault. She made me angry and now I can not control it.

"What happened, Lucas, why are you acting like a raging bull, huh, I only said the truth but it seems like you did not like it, huh", she said. I held her jaw even tighter and she cried in pain.

"Leave Lucas. You are hurting me like this. Just let me go right now", she cried in pain again, but I just do not know what the hell I should do at this time. Her words are ringing in my head, again and again. She is just doing it. It makes me feel regretful and I just do. I regret every single second after I came back. I did not want to go. She had no idea about what had happened and she was not even ready to listen to me. She does not even want me to explain it and I just feel like, why the hell can I not control it? I really wish I could change it anyhow. I saw that she was really hurt and I really should not do that, so I just let her hand go and she rubbed her hand slowly. She has been hurt because of me again.

"Do you not dare to touch me again, Lucas. You will regret it", she was really trying to warn me. How dare she do that. She knows so well that I hate it when someone tries to warn me. It feels like someone trying to challenge me and, after that, I have to do that thing.

"You know I hate this when someone tells me what to do", I asked her and she just took a step back.

"I know you very well, Lucas. Do you not dare to do that with me? I no longer belong to you. So you can not touch me without my permission", she again warned me and that was it. I could not control it. This was too much for me. I held her hand and pulled her hard on me. She was again pinned to the wall and her hands were about her head and my lips were on hers. She was trying her best to struggle but it was no use. She knew that she could not get rid of my grip until I wanted it.

So here I was shirtless and kissing her like a hungry animal. I was really blinded by rage as I did not realize that I was hurting her again. I was sucking her lips and she cried in pain. And then somehow I felt the taste of metal and that is when my eyes got open and I realized that she was crying and that is when I came back to my senses and looked at her face. Tears were rolling down her cheeks and she was crying. She was not even looking up. I cursed under my breath as I pulled my hair in anger and frustration. How the hell could I do that? How the f**k could I hurt her again? Why am I so stupid? Please someone just kill me right now for hurting her.

"I am sorry. I really did not mean to hurt you, Ava. You know that I really love you. Please just try to understand. I did not want to do that. It just happened. You provoked me", I said to her. I know I should not blame her for this. Because what I did is really bad and I am feeling guilty already. I was never like this before, but the words and the tone she is using are hurting me so badly. Her words are piercing my heart for real and I just do not know how the hell I should deal with it.

"Are you satisfied now, Lucas? Are you really happy now", she asked me as she wiped her tears and looked at me as I looked down for some seconds? I just do not know what I should do right now.

"Just do not let me see you again Lucas", she said as she made her way out, but I just held her hand.

"Ava, why is there a scar on your belly? What scar is that? How did you get it? Who hurt you? Tell me now", I asked her, as I just could not stop thinking about this since I woke up and I just had to know this no matter what. But as I expected, she jerked my hand and looked at me with angry eyes.

"That is not your f*****g business, Lucas. Just stay f*****g away from me and forget what happened last night. That is not gonna happen again". I could see the rage in her eyes. She was looking so serious. No matter how much she loves me, I can see that anger is bigger than that love and there is no way that she will forgive me easily.

"At least have breakfast. I made a hangover drink for you and you also, do you don't dare to drink again. You can not handle this, so you are not allowed to drink anymore". I tried to warn her but she was glaring at me with her angry eyes as if she would eat me alive. She came close to me and snapped her fingers in front of my eyes.

"You are f*****g no one to tell me what to do. I spent a night with you, but still, you are no one to me, understand", she was loud this time and seemed like she remembered my words from last time. So she used them for me.

"And also, you need that hangover to drink more than me. So help yourself, goodbye", she made her way out and, without even looking at me, she just left the house.

Ava's Point Of View,

It was really f*****g hard for me to leave that place. All those old memories have been running into my mind since I woke up in his bed. I know that I should not have done that. I should not have drunk and should not get drunk and should not have ended up at his place. I know I made a mistake, but I don't feel guilty and I do not regret it. There is a place in my heart, that small part that I am hiding from myself. That small part who still loves him so much. That small part is really happy about what happened.

No wonder I was hell drunk, but I still remember everything he said to me.I still remember every single word he said, no matter how much I am angry with him, but I can not ignore the fact that he is still so loyal and still so lovely and a gentleman. Who knows how to respect a woman? I remember that he was trying to push me away. He tried to resist, but I did not let him. I wanted this to happen and I am happy, but that does not mean that I will forgive him so easily. I had a wonderful night and I am happy, but he is not allowed to know that. He needs to earn my trust again. He needs to show me that he will not leave me again as he did before. Then I could think about us again. Until then, I am gonna give him a hard time. I was so lost in my thoughts when I realized that my phone was ringing and I quickly pulled it from my bag and I saw my mom's number and I picked it up the very next second.

"Hey mom, good morning", I said happily, but I heard something horrible.

"Are you even in your senses, Ava? You are wishing me good morning. Where the hell were you the whole night? You know very well that Luke does not sleep without you, then where the hell you were? Tell me right now, he was crying for you the whole night". I heard her worried voice and I just cursed under my breath, how the hell could I be so stupid and careless?

"I am so sorry mom, how is he now? I am on my way. Please just take care of him some more time and soon I will be there", I said, as I am feeling extremely guilty now. I feel so bad for him. How could I forget about him? That was really a selfish move.

"No need to hurry now. He is fine and now sleeping, so take your time now. I am not scolding you baby, but it is just you know how sensitive Luke is. He does not sleep until you do not show up, so it was really tough for me to make it up for him", mom said, as her voice was gentle this time and a small smile came on my face.

"I know mom, I am so sorry that you had to handle this alone, I am just coming soon and I know very well how to do it".