Ceaseless love

Episode 7

 Lucas's Point Of View,

I just do not even know how to react, I mean the last night was really crazy for me, I did not even think that it will happen anytime soon, and to be honest, she has no idea how badly I was missing her body, her kiss, her touch and now I am feeling like the happiest man of the world, I am so happy that I can not even express it by words, she made me so happy, I know that she was drunk and if she would have been sober, she would not have allowed me to touch her, but I am clear from my side, I did not take advantage of her, it was she who started it, so there is no way that she could throw it on me.

But I am still so worried about the scar, she is hiding it from me, is she having any enemy here and I do not know about it, who could do it to her, I do not think that it was an accident, it did not look like an accident, I really need to do something, I mean I just have to find out what she is trying to hide from me, I just have to, after all, she belongs to me, she did not know this but no one can have her until I am alive, I know I made a mistake coz things were out of my control but that does not mean I could let her go out from my life, she is my life and how can I give up on my life, gosh, things are really getting complicated for me, I just do not know how to make it up for her, I can not forget her no matter what, I was still lost in her thoughts when I realzied that my phone was ringing and I have to pick it, the moment I saw the caller Id, I picked the call very next second.

"Hello, good morning sir", I said as I picked it up.

"Good morning captain, how are you doing", sir asked me and I just smiled slowly, I like it when he calls me captain while I am not a captain at all.

"I am going good sir, and the project will be over soon, I will mail you the moment I will finish it, you do not need to worry about it if you called me for the project", I need to confirm it, and there are chances that this could be the only reason of his to call me at this time.

"Good to hear that captain, I really want to see your new idea and how you did make the plan, so keep that in mind that I am waiting for it", he said and I just took a deep breath, I know that already, so that is pretty fine for me.

"Yes sir, do not worry about it, thank you for asking", I was trying to be so formal.

"And how about your girlfriend Lucas, did she forgive you", he asked me and that is what I do not like about me, he always ask questions about my personal life and I do not want to tell anyone about it, they do not have any right to ask me that.

"Amm, no sir, she is still angry and she does not even want to look at my face, and not to forget all thanks to you sir", I am not a fool too, I taunted him as well, and I know he did not like it but he would not say anything I know that.

"Oh that is sad Lucas, hope she will forgive you soon, and I will catch you later, goodbye for now", he hung up without even listening to my answer, and I also took a deep breath, he just ruined my morning and I am feeling so bad all of the sudden, why my love was not enough, why I am not able to make her understand that how much I love and why did I leave, I know that was not really nice what I did, but now I am ready to get the punishment, then why she is not giving me a chance to explain it, why she is not able to see my love for her, I just took a deep breath and changed my clothes, I need to work on my project, I said I am working on it but the truth is I did not even look at that since I saw her, I just want to get her back no matter what, this project really does not matter for me, I will do it when I will get her back, before that I am not feeling like doing it, I just combed my hair and took the keys of my car and made my way out.

Ava's Point Of View,

I am feeling so bad for Luke, I mean I should not have done that, so I just went to the bakery, I have to make it up for him, I know he would be really upset and mad at me, I just bought his favorite chocolate pasteries and cookies, he really likes them so much, so I know if I want him to forgive me, these pastries is the key, I smiled when I thought about him, I took a cab and made my way to my home, soon I reached my home, my new home, no one knows my new home, or maybe some people knows now but I know how to keep a low profile here, so I am not really social with people here, anyone barely knows me here, I do not talk to any neibour but Luke and mom does not listen to me, they both have friends here, and I will not lie, I also have a friend but he is not from here, he is from my work and he is really like a true friend for me, he always helped me out no matter what, he did not complain me ever about anything, there was time when I was so angry about myself and I used to being rude to him, but he did not get upset with me, he was always there for me to help and that is why I really love him as my best friend, I just do not know what I would do if I would not have meet to him, I paid to the cab driver and pressed the bell, soon mom opened the door for me and thankfully she did not ask me where I was, or else I just do not know how I would be able to lie on her face.

"Thank god you are back, he is awake again and crying for you", mom told me and I quickly removed my shoes and washed my hands and made my way to my room before giving bags to my mom and asking her to serve them into the plate for him, I saw him on the bed, his hands were folded to his chest, his tiny hands, and he was looking down and I could hear his sobs and my heart cried in pain when I heard my baby's sob.

"Hey my baby, see, mom is back, why my baby boy is crying like girls, huh", I asked him and I was trying my best to encourage him, but I really do not know how he will react coz in all these four years, I never left him alone for the night, it was the very first time when I left alone at the night, he was so angry that he did not even look up, I slowly made my way to him and picked him in my arms, he is now four years old and I picked him in my arms thousand of times, but still I feel magic every time I pick him, this motherhood made me so different, I glow different when he touches me.

"Luke baby, look at me, I have something for you, a surprise, remember how much you like surprises", I said and this time he slowly looked up and I saw tears in her cute, small eyes and I really felt so bad, he does not cry often, but when he gets hurt, he can not control his tears, he is just like me, seems like my genes are working with him already.

"I do not want anything from you Mumma, you know that I do not sleep without you, but still you left me alone, you know I was so scared and I called you so many times, but you did not pick up your call, I will not talk to you now", he said in his baby voice and honestly, I feel so blessed when he calls me Mumma, I feel like thank you so much, god, for giving me cute and little diamond, and no matter what will happen, I am willing to protect him to death, he is my baby after all.

"I am so sorry baby, Mumma was stuck somewhere, Mumma is really sorry, can you please forgive Mumma this time", I tried to act like him, I know that he is so sensitive and his heart is so soft like me, he will not stand it for long, he will be happy soon.

"But why you did not pick up my call Mumma, if you would have told me that you are stuck then I would not have cried for you", he was talking like an adult, he is sensitive by heart but he is actually smart, his teachers told me that he is smarter than other kids of his age and he asks questions sometimes teachers are not able to answer him, I am so glad that he is like this, I know how to make it for him.

"Baby, Mumma is really sorry, Mumma could not get time for calls, but now Mumma is promising to Luke that she will not do it again, now please baby, forgive Mumma, or else Mumma will also cry like you", I tried to act like I am gonna cry now and now he was looking at me with his cute, teary eyes and I wiped his face.

"Mumma, you have to do a pinky swear", he asked me and offered me his tiny finger, I really want to laugh at his cuteness but my baby does not like it when someone laughs at him, so I controlled my laugh and offered my finger too.

"Done baby, it is a pinky swear, I will not do it again, and if Mumma will have any work then Mumma will call Luke and tell him that Mumma is busy, then Luke will stay with grandma, okay, you also have to promise with Mumma that you will not cry and play with grandma while mum would be on work", I just tried to do this coz now he is growing up and I have to make him learn to stay without me sometimes if I am busy at work, that does not mean that I will ever leave him alone, he is my heartbeat and there is no way that I could leave him alone ever, he did not get the love of his dad, but there is no way that he is gonna lose his mom, I will give him a lot of love that he will never ask about his dad, he will never know about it.

"Surprise, surprise", mom walked into the room with a tray in her hands and I smiled at her but she was already smiling at my little baby.

"Wow, chocolate pastries and cookies", Luke said with excitement when he saw the mom with the tray and he got up from his seat and started jumping on the bed with his clapping hands.

"Luke slow down baby, you will feel like that, slow down", I said but he shook his head and clapped again.

"Your Mumma bring it for you", mom told him and he looked at me with his cute smile.

"Mumma, you bring it for me", he asked me and I nodded my head and he just jumped on me and hugged me so tight with his tiny hands.

"Thank you so much, Mumma, you know how much I love them, they are my favourite", he said as he licked his lips and then he licked my cheeks and I just pulled him close to my face and kissed him his cheeks.

"I know baby, I know you love them, that is why Mumma brought it for you, do you want me to feed you", I asked him and he quickly nodded his head with excitement and I just took the tray from mom's hands, my mom was about to leave when I called her.

"Mom, I am so sorry for the last night, I really did not mean to make trouble for you, I know that it is not your responsibility and I was careless too, so I am really sorry for this", I said and she just came close to me and cupped my face like she always does.

"Ava, you know how much I love you and Luke, you do not have to say sorry to me, you are my family and I am so happy with him so you do not have to feel guilty about it, and it was the very first time when you did this, so I can not really blame you for this, I am sure you could have stuck with some work", mom said and I was just looking at her with wide eyes, why she is always nice to me, she never complains about anything I do, she is always understanding, I am blessed with everything in my life except love, that is the only pain I have.

"I love you mom, I just love you so much, you are the best mom in the world", I said to her as she caressed my hair with love in her eyes.

"No Mumma, you are the best mum in the world", Luke said in his baby voice while I fed him the pastry, mom and I both laughed at his cuteness but stopped instantly while he was glaring at us.

"Of course Ava, Luke baby is right, you are the best mom in the world". mom also acted up for him as he smiled at us and we both also smiled at him, after feeding him, mom left with the tray and I just do not know why but I was feeling so tired, I feel like I need some good rest, so I think I should not go to the college today, so I thought that I should call at the college and ask for a leave, I pulled my phone out from my bag and I was about to dial a number but my phone started ringing with the same number, it was the call from the director and I just picked it right away.

"Hello, good morning sir, I was about to call you", I said and got cut in the middle.

"Good to hear that ms Ava, but I would really like to ask you why you are not at college, the college needs you right now, the staff is vacant today, so you need to show up here right now", he yelled somehow and I just took a deep breath.

"Yes sir, sorry for the late, I will be there soon", I said and he hang up, I just laid on the bed and Luke just jumped on my stomach, but very gently, he knows that sometimes I feel pain.

"What happen, Mumma, are you tired", he asked me, and I just do not know what to say about this but I just love his baby voice, he is so damn cute that sometimes I feel that what I will do if something happens to him.

"Yes baby, Mumma is really tired but have to go to work, college is calling me", I said dramatically and he just laughed a little.

"Then tell them that you are tired, how you will work when you are tired", he asked me as he cupped my face and then kissed my cheeks, his small lips covers my whole cheeks and that feels so cute.

"Aww my baby, you know they pay me for work, if I will not go, they will not pay me, and money is a really important baby, I want to give you the best future, so Mumma needs to work hard", I said and that is when I realized that what the f**k I am saying, how could I say such things to him.

"Mumma, that means you get tired coz of me", he asked me and I instantly got up and picked him in my arms and shook my head.

"No, no, no baby, that is not true and right now mumma was talking nonsense, so ignore what mumma said just now, okay, mumma get tired coz mumma is lazy and does not want to work, but you know we should do work hard daily so that we would be fit and healthy when you will grow up, you will also need to work hard to get your goals, you understand that baby, you are the love of my life", I said to him as I placed a lot of kisses on his cheeks and his head until he was laughing so hard and soon he falls asleep in my arms, and I was just looking at his cute and angelic face, I am so blessed to have a baby like him, I was so messed up when I got to know that I am pregnant, that was the toughest time of my life, I was alone, having him in my belly, I did not have any idea what I am gonna do now, but god already planned everything for me and I am really happy that I did not give up on him.

"Ava, what happen, honey, you look tensed, is there anything bothering you, you know you can tell me", mom asked me, I just covered Luke with a quilt and got up from the bed and shook my head.

"Do not worry about me mom, I am fine", I said and she was just looking at me.

"You does not look, fine honey, tell me what happened", I just know it is pretty hard to hide anything from her, I know she could catch me anytime, so I just have to act like real.

"Mom, I am just tired and I need sleep but just got a call from the college and they said that they need me, so I just have to go now there", I lied to her and she caressed my hair.

"Aww, you chose to work there Ava, did not I say that you are free to do anything and even I said that until Luke grows up, you can stay home but you said that you do not want to be a burden on me so you want to work, but here I am your mom and I am saying you again that you can take a good rest at home, just apply for leaves for some weeks and spend a good time with Luke and me, what says", she was looking at me with hope in her eyes but there is no way that they will give me leaves for weeks, and also I do not want to feel the pain, if I will be free at home, then I will think about him and my heart will cry for him again, so for this time, I need to work so that I could forget him for a temporary time at least.

"Mom, you know that I started working there just a few time ago, do you want me lose this job too, and also after college I stay with Luke and you, so there is no need to take leave, you know that I need distraction, so let it be mom, I just love you so much and I love Luke, and I am happy with it", I said and I saw that wave of sadness in my mom's eyes but I did not say anything to her, I know she would be feeling sad coz I did not do what she said but I really want this, I am doing fine with what is going on, so what mom said is really not nessaccary, I saw mom sat beside the sleeping Luke and slolwy started caressing his hair, I just took my clothes and made my way to the bathroom, I took a hot shower, I looked myself in the mirror, once agian my whole body was covered with the marks he gave me the last night, I really did not expect that I will get them anytime soon, I touched a mark and I moaned in pain, I felt like he was still touching me and kissing me, it is like I could still feel his touch, it is crasy right, I had s*x with him after four f*****g years, I did not let any man close to me, and now I let him f**k me when he is the reason of my pain, I know I messed up big time, after what happened last night, I am very sure that he will not leave any single chance to come close to me, and I just really do not know how I will manage it.