My inner aura wants release

Can I Trust Him?

Annayees

It took him a while to return with our food, I wonder what Sam and Lizandro were talking about. Right now I am starving, my favorite salmon salad. It has almonds, baby oranges, feta cheese on a bed of spinach with a side of orange-cranberry dressing. I look up from my plate to look at Lizandro he looks lost in thought.

“You’re not allergic to tree nuts are you?” That seem to get him out of there. He looks at me and smiles.

“No, I am not. This looks good, so this is your favorite salad?”

“Yeah, it’s healthy and delicious. Plus the salmon is fresh, Sam fishes for his own salmon.” A good way to safe money in my opinion.

“It’s pretty good, I love this dressing” Lizandro says with a mouth full of salad. All I could do is laugh at him.

“Sam makes his own dressing, if you want the recipe you have to ask him” Sam won’t just give anyone his recipe. After we were done with our salad, Lizandro decided to walk one of the trails.

“Which one is the shortest trail?” He ask me.

“The one on the right” I tell him pointing to the right of us.

“Come on let’s go for a short walk” he grabs my hand and we started walking. For some reason I love it when he holds my hand, he makes my body go crazy for his touch. I still can’t get that smell of wet dog out of my nose, for some reason I can only smell it when I am around Lizandro. Does he have a dog? Is that why I smell it on him?

“So do you remember much about your mom?” I look at him, does he really want to know about my mother?

“I am sorry if I am stepping out of line, I just want to know more about your mom. Obviously you miss her dearly” he does want to know about her, but why?

“No, you’re fine. For some strange reason I feel comfortable with you and actually want to tell you about her.” I tell him confused myself, I do feel really comfortable with him. Even if he makes my body go crazy for him, even when he makes my heart bump hard for him.

“I remember a lot about my mom and our life together before her accident” I tell him with a tear running down my right cheek. I think Lizandro seen me tear up.

“We don’t have to talk about her right now if you don’t feel up to it.” with a concern look on his face.

“What would you like to know?” I asked him, yeah it’s gonna be hard talking about my mom. But not a lot of people have shown any interest of my mother story. I love talking about my mom, it brings me joy. It makes me feel like I am keeping her memory a live by talking about her.

“What was she like?” Was she an out door person or did she lock herself in the house?” Lizandro looks very interested in knowing her.

“Yeah she loved being outside, she had the biggest garden I have ever seen in my life. She also had different type of plants growing in the house” she did love putting her hands into the soil.

“She loved working with herbs” I look up to Lizandro and noticed he was conflicted, he looked confused.

“My mother was a very sweet woman, was very independent. She has showed me a lot, how to control your body and mind and she should me a lot about herbs and plants.” My mother was the best, we would never be in the house. Every day with her was an adventure.

“Did it ever seem like she was always looking behind her back or very nervous around new people?” I look at Lizandro confused when he asked that question.

“ she did seem odd when we were in new area, but she quickly went back to her normal self. But she was always nice to new people, she always had a smile on her face. She loved meeting new people” I bet she would have loved Lizandro.

“She could sniff out the danger, is what you’re trying to say?” He asked me, as we reached our half point. I looked at Lizandro he returned the look.

“ She basically could read people before even knowing the person, she was going to teach me how to do that on my tenth birthday. But that’s the day she was in the accident, that’s the day some careless person drove my mother off the road.” I was starting to freak out, I was about to have a panic attack. All of a sudden I felt Lizandro grabbed me and hold me tight, he’s was caressing my hair and telling me everything will be O.K. I felt some type of relief when he hugged me tight, I became a lot more calmer since he grabbed me. Did he just stop my panic attack? No one can stop those, I can’t even stop those. My body is starting to burn up, my body finally realized he is touching me. I wanted his touch so bad, he drives my body crazy.

“Thank you for that” I tell him, he still has his arms around me. I feel safe in his arms, I look up to him as he’s staring back at me. I felt my face get red, how does he do that?

“Are you sure you’re O.K.?” Lizandro looks very concerned. I am not use to a man actually caring about me.

“Yes I am O.K. now, I really do appreciate you holding me like this. Not use to someone stopping my panic attack that quick” I tell him the truth, I normally don’t tell people about my issues. Something about this man makes me feel like I can trust him.

“I knew you needed me to hug you tight, panic attack ain’t no joke. My brother use to get them a lot especially when our grandfather passed away, my brother was very close to our grandfather.” I didn’t know he has siblings, then again I barely know the guy. He finally let go of me, which I wish he didn’t I feel cold now. He looked at me for a second and looked down, it’s like he has other question to ask me but doesn’t want me to have a panic attack.

“I am fine now, you can ask me more questions. Plus you’re here to stop my panic if my body did decide to have another one.” He looks up to me with a smile, yes Lizandro I want you to control my attacks.

“What was the last thing you remember on the day she passed away?” He looks at me like he was scared to ask me that question.

“I seen her that morning on my birthday, my tenth birthday fell on a Saturday that year. I remembered her coming into my room and wish me a happy birthday, she would always make my favorite breakfast on my day. That day she didn’t, she apologized to me about not having breakfast done. She told me she is running behind, but she would make it up to me with a big surprise later that day. My mother plan a big party for me, but she actually looked worried that day. Now that I am remembering that day, she wasn’t herself. I was so young I didn’t recognized it, how her mind was somewhere else.” I paused for a second, took a big breath in.

“After telling me about having a big surprise for me later, she kissed my forehead and told me she had to run errands to get the party ready. I just assumed she had to pick up the cake and rest of the stuff for the party. I walked her to the front door and told her I loved her and that I would see her later. As soon as my mother turned around she received I phone call, before she got into her car I heard her say “WHAT! he’s here, how?” I wanted to ask her if everything was O.K. but I figured I would just ask her as soon as she got back home.” I paused again, this time I couldn’t say anymore. Tears started pouring down my cheeks, but this time I didn’t freak out. I stood there just letting my tears flow down, Lizandro took my hands and kissed them both.

“Since she left how long after did you receive the news?” He’s still holding my hands, I usually don’t show any emotion to anyone. But him...

“Two hours after, my dad came home early from work. As soon as I seen him home early I knew something happened. My father never leaves work early.” Lizandro wipe my tears away and hold up my chin so I can look into his eyes.

“We can stop talking about this, I hate seeing you cry. I want to see you happy especially when you’re with me.” He gently kissed my lips, that made my body burn with want for him. I look into his eyes and noticed his eyes get dark with want also. I don’t want to pull away, I lean in for another kiss and that’s when he smashed his lips against mine. His lips are so soft and tasty, as I moun against his lips. That gave him the opportunity to sneak his tongue in, swirling around and attacking mine. As we get deep into a make out session, he started to slowly bring his hand down to my butt and grabbed my right cheek tight. Oh my that made me go crazy, I put my hands under his shirt and felt up his abs. Wow does he have some abs, I hear him moun against my touch... Wait what am I doing, we can’t do this. Not here anyways, as I slowly take my hands away from his abs.

“Why are you stopping?” he broke the kiss to ask me that.

“We can’t do this here, especially if this is my first day actually meeting you” I managed to tell him still breathing heavy from our make out session. He smiled with a handful of cheek, he still has his hand on my butt.

“I guess you’re right, I would have you here if it was up to me” he said with a flirtatious look, he’s so hot.

“Come on let’s finish this walk and talk about something else” Lizandro let’s go of me and grabs my hand and start walking down the trail.

“So how many brothers and sisters do you have?” I ask him.

“Two brothers and two sisters” he smiled.

“ you’ll meet them soon” he tells me, I give him a worried look

“Don’t worry gorgeous, they will love you” He tells me as he pulls my hand to his lips to kiss. I blush..

“How about you? Any half siblings or pets?” He ask me.

“No, no half siblings or pets. My dad never let me have any pets, and for some reason my dad never remarried. But who would want a drunk for a husband anyways? I tell him realizing I told him about my drunk dad. S**T that’s a third date thing, now I am going to scare him off because who wants my drama?

“So your dad is a drunk huh, does he abuse you? Does he put his hands on you?” He looks angry, what is he thinking about?

“He hasn’t laid hands on me for a few years now, since I decided to take boxing lessons. He’s verbally abusive, but I easily learned how to block that out. His words don’t mean anything to me or his actions.” I tell him the truth, I figured if I tell him now maybe it won’t hurt as much when he runs the other way.

“I will kill him if he lays a finger on you! No father should be abusing his child like that!” Still angry, he started to shake with range. I quickly let go of his hand and wrapped my arms around him, like he did to me earlier.

“I know I am safe now ever since I first saw you. I feel safe around you, I know you will protect me” I tell him, having no idea where that came from. He smiled and wrapped his arms around me, now we are holding each other.

“You’re my light at the end of the tunnel, you have nothing to worry about. You’re mine to protect” as he puts his forehead against mine, he kissed my nose and started kissing down my cheek to my neck. Oh my why is he starting this again, my body is starting to heat up.

“Come on we’re almost to the end of the trail” he pulls away and leads me down the trail. I simply smile and followed him.

“It’s seems we are made for each other” Lizandro tells me looking at me with the biggest smile. I look at him confused, what does he mean by that?

“I can control your panic attacks and you can calm me down from an angry range.” he seems to love that idea.

“I guess you’re right” I tell him still confused, I have no idea where all these feelings come from. We make it to the end of the trail and it leads to the parking lot. We get into the car and we drove off.

“I wish I can take you out for dinner tonight but I have work to do, but are you free tomorrow night for dinner?” He ask me looking at me and back to the road.

“Yeah I’ll be free for dinner tomorrow” I tell him with the biggest smile. I get to see him again..

“Good, do you want me to drop you off at home?” He’s ask me.

“No you can drop me off at the boxing gym, I need to get back to my routine” he looks at me with proud in his eyes.

“Boxing gym huh, show me the way” he tells me with a smirk on his face. I wish I knew what he was thinking about. As soon as we pulled in front of the gym, he puts his car in park and told me not to get out yet. I look at him confused, he gets out of the car and I see him walking around the car to the passenger door and opens it. He reached out his hand.

“My lady” I look at him and started laughing and took his hand and got out of the car. He closed the door behind me.

“What are you doing?” I ask him, he wraps his arms around me and gives me the biggest sexiest kiss. Making my body go crazy for him, he finally breaks the kiss.

“What’s that all about” I tell him a little bit shocked. Everyone is staring at us, the boxing gym has a garage door that the owner likes to leave open.

“Now everyone knows you’re taken, I don’t like the way these men stare at you. Now they know you are mine” did he basically pee all over me and marked his territory.

“Oh so now I am yours, when did this happen?” I ask him a little piss off, no one owns me. But for some reason I will be happy to be his, all his.

“The first day you seen me, was the day you decided to be mine” he still has his hands around me.

“Can we discuss this later, I would like to go punch something now” I tell him still a little piss.

“Sorry gorgeous I didn’t want to piss you off, but you can’t deny that you belong to me now. I know you feel the same bond I feel towards you” He isn’t lying.

“O.K. yes it’s true but I am still confuse about all this, just give me time to wrap my head around these feelings. I have never felt this before” I tell him not holding back anything. He kissed my lips softly and let go of me.

“I know you do, and like I said. I’ll give you all the time you need as long as you stay with me.” I give him a smile and nod. Can I really trust him? I say my good byes and turned around to walk into the gym. I need to work these hot feelings out.