My inner aura wants release

Did that just happen?

Annayees

It’s dark in this closet, and cold. I’ll just grab one of my sweaters off the hanger, my mom hides me in the closet when dad is home yelling at her. I hear my dad call her different nasty names, he always accused my mom of cheating. I don’t know why? I hear my bedroom door open.

“Where is she?” I hear my dad yelling.

“ Leave her alone, she has nothing to do with it” I hear my mom yelling at him.

“I don’t care, I asked where the f$&k is she?” My dad getting louder.

All of a sudden my closet doors swing open and I wasn’t quick enough to hide my feet before he could see me, he dragged me out of the closet with force. He grab me behind my neck and squeeze down hard..

“Now look at your daughter and tell me your not f$&king around and don’t lie!” My dad smelled like beer.

“Will you please stop grabbing her like that, she’s only six. She doesn’t understand what’s going on” I hear my mother pleading.

“ than maybe you should of thought of that before messing around!” My dad still yelling

“How many times I have to tell you, I Do Not Mess Around!” My mom is starting to get angry, she try reaching for me and my dad saw her trying to move me out of the way. He threw me on the floor and swing an open hand towards my mom....

I wake up terrified, I’m shaking with fear. That was the very first time I saw my dad lay hands on my mother. A few months after that horrible day my father was deployed, I couldn’t of been any happier when he left. My mom and I lived in peace until he returned home and started with the same nonsense. He always assumed my mother was cheating on him, my mother was never that kind of person. I sit up on my bed and looked to my right where my moms picture is on my nightstand. I looked how beautiful she was, I look just like her, well that’s what everyone says. She was this average height Latin woman, she had long black thick hair. She was very fit, she loved to work out. I remember going on a run every weekend mornings with my mother, she always told me it was very important to keep my body and mind healthy. She was a nature person, she loved being outside she had this beautiful garden back at our old house. The one my father sold after my mother passed away. It’s only been twelve years since she passed but I miss her dearly.

It’s only four in the morning and I seem to not be able to go back to sleep, I guess I’ll get up and shower get ready for the one class I have today and it’s my day off also. I actually have time for myself and I have no idea what to do, maybe I’ll hit the boxing gym later. Well I guess I have time to stop at the shop to get some breakfast before class, I have time to study for my finals next week. As soon I was out of the shower brushed my teeth and put my hair into a messy bun and actually put some makeup on. I only wear makeup when I go clubbing with friends. After makeup I walked to my closet right next to my bathroom, and decided to wear something more woman like. I usually wear jeans and a t-shirt, this time I decided to wear white high waist jeans length above my ankles, I put on a maroon crop top and a black laced cardigan. As I stare at myself in the mirror I see my tattoo above my shoulder. “Oh s**t how did I forget I have tattoos hidden under my t-shirts.” As soon as I was old enough to get tattoos I was getting them once a month for six months, then I realized I was spending the money I was saving to leave my dads house.

So I had to stop, it’s been almost four years since I gotten one. Maybe one won’t hurt, a small one... Maybe.. I quickly shake my head, I’m going to have to think about it later. I need to leave the house before my dad wakes up, I’ve been seeing that Stephanie chick around more lately. She’s a drunk too but she’s a quite one, I kinda feel bad for her. She looks sad when I see her, she’s trying to cope with something by drinking. My dad always been a drunk, I can never find his motive to be drunk every day. After I put my shoes on and grabbed my bag and grabbed my phone off the night stand, I checked the time it is fifteen till six. And class starts at eight, I’ll have plenty of time to study for a bit. I close my bedroom door behind me quietly I do not want to wake up my dad, I slowly pass his bedroom and head down the hall to the front room. O.K. he’s still asleep. I walk out the door and closed the door behind me, finally letting out my breath that I was holding. I don’t want to deal with his s**t today, I want an actual good day. It took me fifteen minutes to get to the shop, yeah I could buy myself a car. I do have the money for one, but my dad will realize I have a job and I do not want to deal with that argument. I just have one more semester and I am done with college, done living with my father.

I walk into the shop and Eddy greets me with a smile and I can see him looking me up and down, it gave me a weird feeling down my back like I was not O.K. with Eddy looking at me like that.

“Hey beautiful I didn’t think I’ll be seeing you today” Eddy still staring at me, I have to be nice he’s my friend and my coworker. Eddy is handsome, he’s tall with black hair, he has the most gorgeous blue eyes, every girl drool over him. But not me, I have never considered him more than a friend.

“Hey Eddy, I came for some food. I am starving!” while I was walking towards him to the counter.

“You look amazing today, don’t get me wrong I like your every day look. But you look more confident with yourself.” he is leaning over the counter to look at me up and down again. Not cool man!

“Hey do you mind! You’re creeping me out by looking at me like that and I said I was starving. Can I order please?” I was trying to be firm but playful in the end. He is a really good friend, he’s like a big brother to me. I have known him for three years now. He recently graduated college, he working here until he finds a high paying job.

“I’m sorry princess, please except my apologies. Would you like your usual?”he said with a flirty look.

“Yes” while I rolled my eyes. I paid for my breakfast and went to sit down, as soon as I found my table and put my bag on the table. My food was ready, went to fetch my food and sat down and pulled my books out of my bag ready to study. Oh my usual, large cup of dark roast coffee with French vanilla swirl and a shot of caramel flavored cream no sugar, and I also get a plain bagel with cream cheese spread and strawberries on the side. I opened my accounting book and started studying, I can feel Eddy staring at me. I hope he doesn’t come over here I am not in the mood to hear his flirtatious jokes. He’s been very flirty towards me for the past few months, and I don’t understand why?

I am half way finished with my coffee and already finished my bagel, I looked at my phone next to me it’s it’s fifteen minutes after seven. I have class at eight takes about five minutes to get there from the shop so I got thirty minutes. As soon as I put my phone down, my heart begins to race. I feel electric shock running through my body... It’s happening again, that must mean he’s here. I hear the door open, someone walked into the shop. My inner person is telling me to look up, no not this time I refuse. What if he’s not into me? What if he rejects me when he finds out I am an emotional wreck? I did not look up, I kept my nose in my book.

“Hi, welcome to Hazels. What can I get you today?” I hear Eddy talking to the customer

“Hi , Can I get a large cup of dark roast coffee with cream and a shot of caramel” I hear the customer order. It’s not that busy here around this time, not yet any ways. And it seems they’re not playing any music right now, so I can hear them at the counter.

“Would you like caramel cream or the sugar free caramel flavor and would you like anything else?” Eddy ask the customer.

“I’ll take the sugar free, and I’ll also take three cake pops to go.” Customer said.

“O.K. may I have your name?” Eddy asked.

This is it, this is the moment I was waiting for. I want to know the name of the man who makes my heart race like this, that makes me shiver in lust.

“Lizandro” Customer said.

“Thank you, give me five minutes” Eddy said.

I couldn’t resist anymore, I have to look up. I slowly lift my head from my book to look at him, and little did I know he was already staring at me. We made eye contact, my whole body lit up. Craving his touch, I want to kiss those gorgeous lips of his. He must of sensed my arousal towards him, because he has a smile like he knew what he was doing to me.

“Lizandro your order is ready” I heard Eddy shouted, that’s what broke our eye contact. I quickly put my head down looking at my book in front of me, I had to catch my breath. He takes my breath away, and I don’t even know him. I picked up my phone and saw the time it was fifteen minutes till eight. I need to start getting ready to leave for class, as I put my book down so I can put it in my bag. I hear a deep but soft voice.

“Are you majoring in business?” I look to see who it was it’s Lizandro, my heart started to race even faster. I felt my cheeks turn red, I have never blush for a man before. What the f$&k is he doing to me!

“Um yeah, I figured it will be the safest option” I found the courage to answer him. Still feeling an electric pull to him. I slowly get up from my seat, I don’t know why, it’s like my body has its own mind.

“What do you mean safest option, business is not your preferred major?” Lizandro asking me while he is looking me up and down and all of the sudden he looked straight into my eyes. I really want to get close to him, I want to pull him in for a kiss... Control your self Annayees, he’s a stranger. I told myself.

“I am sorry, hi my name is Lizandro and may I ask your name?” I think he realized he asked a personal question, he finally introduced himself.

“Um hi my name is Annayees” I see him stretching out his hand, so I stretch mine out. As soon as I touched his hand fireworks every where, my heart racing even faster! All of the sudden I felt something inside of me break free, my senses have some how gotten stronger. As I stare into Lizandros eyes those gorgeous green eyes, my body burn for him. For some strange reason I smelled wet dog, like some customer brought their dog here. I quickly ignored the smell.

“That’s a pretty name, perfect for a gorgeous woman like yourself” Lizandro seemed to be getting closer slowly towards me, I some how broke the spell he has on me. That’s the only conclusion I came up with, I have never felt like this for a guy.

“Well Lizandro, it was nice to meet you but I have to get to class. Maybe we’ll meet again.” I have to get out of here before I do something stupid, like jumping on him and try to own his body.

“Maybe we’ll have lunch later today?” I was stunned did he just asked me out for lunch? What should I do? I want to, oh my I want to, but that will be dangerous.

“Yeah lunch sounds good” what the f$&k just happen, did I really say yes? It’s like my body had its own mine.

“Great, give me your phone so I can put my number in it” with no hesitation I unlocked my phone and hand it to him. I watched him put his phone number and called his phone, he hand me my phone back.

“Now I have your number, I will text you in thirty minutes to set up something.” Lizandro touched my chin gently, and it drove my body crazy. I wanted more, I want him to touch my entire body. No I need to snap out of it, why did I agree to lunch later. I looked at him and saw his hunger in his eyes, does he want me too? No can’t be, not a gorgeous man like him. He looks like he is important in the business industry, he can’t want some boring college girl.

“Don’t you have to be in class gorgeous?” He broke my daze. “S**t!” I said that a little to loud.

“I better go” that’s all I said to him before running out the shop down the street, I had five minutes before class started. As long as I don’t stop running I’ll make it in time, my professor is strict. Right when class starts he locks the door, so if you’re late you’ll be locked out of class. And he doesn’t give you the make up work for that day you were late. He only gives you make up work if you have a doctor note or a real good reason for missing class. I made it in time with one minute to spare, good so I can catch my breath. My friend Vanessa and I have the same class it’s customer service class, why? Because apparently you deal with a lot of A-holes in the business industry, who knew?

“Damn cutting it short today?” Vanessa looking at me with worry. She always worries about me, I understand why though. She is this sweet girl that got her life together and I am this mess that parties a lot and does not care about feelings. Until I met Lizandro, my mind wonders.

“Did you hear me? Are you O.K.?” Vanessa asking again.

“Yeah I am fine, just lost track of time while I was studying” I don’t need her knowing more than she already knows about me, she knows why I am such a mess and she still excepts me. Vanessa is a really good friend, she is a cute little red head. She has the full package of a red head, freckles, curly red hair, and beautiful greenish eyes.

“O.K. well I’m happy to hear you’re worried about your finals” she’s giving me a warm smile. She’s probably like the sister I wish I had, she’s always sweet and polite. I try my best not to bring her around my other friends, they are some trouble makers. She’s to innocent for that kinda party, but it would be interesting to see her drunk.

“Thanks Vanessa” that’s the only thing I had the chance to tell her, that’s when grumpy professor entered.