Resignation

KABANATA XI

“Friendship is the hardest thing in the world to explain. It’s not something you learn in school. But if you haven’t learned the meaning of friendship, you really haven’t learned anything.”

— Muhammad Ali

KABANATA 11 FINALE

ROSEE

Friendship in simple words is a relationship you have with your chosen family. Friends are the sisters and brothers we never had, and are by our side through life’s ups and downs.When your friends make you genuinely smile, it’s a beautiful and heartwarming thing. Sometimes sappy sayings are just the thing to make your friend feel special and appreciated.Even though you could go on and on about how awesome your best friends are, sometimes all you need is something short and sweet. Whether it’s with inside jokes, terrible puns, or funny stories, your friends are the ones that make you laugh the hardest. If they’re on the same wavelength as you when it comes to your sense of humor, you’ll love sharing hilarious quotes with them that you can laugh at together. There are some friends that have been there for you since day one, through the best and worst times. One of your best friends in life might also be your significant other. A lot of the time people forget to tell their S/Os how much their support and friendship means to them. If you’re lucky enough to be in love with your best friend, let them know how much they mean to you The friends you currently know like the back of your hand were once complete strangers to you. Strange to think about, right? As you know, the first step to finding a best friend is to meet new people and build connections.Friendship is a powerful force that can span across any distance. Whether your friend is across the state, country, or world, you can make them feel a little closer. For beautiful eyes, look for the good in others; for beautiful lips, speak only words of kindness; and for poise, walk with the knowledge that you are never alone.

Growing apart doesn’t change the fact that for a long time we grew side by side; our roots will always be tangled. I’m glad for that. I would rather walk with them in the dark, than alone in the light.

"Take care of your self" Kendie said as she hug me tight. Nasa Airport na kaming lahat dahil ngayon na ang balik ko sa canada para mag pagamot.

"Take care too" sagot ko din sakaniya saka hinaplos ang tyan niyang hindi pa man gaanong kalakihan. 3 days ago lang naming nalaman na buntis pala siya kaya ganon nalang ang mood swing niya. "Alagaan mo ang baby mo, Ninang ako kahit anong mangyari" dagdag kopa kaya nahampas niya ako sa braso.

"Wag ka nga mag salita ng ganyan!" Singhal niya saakin na nag sisimula nanamang maiyak "walang mangyayaring masama sayo!"

"Baliw to, hindi natin hawak ang buhay ko. Kaya wala kang karapatan na pag bawalan ang diyos na kunin ako" balik ko sakaniya dahilan para maiyak na siya ng tuluyan. Agad ko siya niyakap ng mahigpit para tumigil na siya dahil bawal ang stress sa buntis.

"Shhh, wag kana umiyak, let's all hope na tumagal pako" bulong ko sakaniya na kina tango niya. Agad akong humiwalay sakaniya ay mahigpit na niyakap si Baste.

"Babalika ka ah, mag pagaling ka don" sabi niya sa gitna ng pag yakap namin.

"Hindi ko maipapangako yan pero gagawin ko ang lahat para matupad yan" balik na sabi ko sakaniya at saka humilay sakaniya at nginitian siya ng malaki.

"Inaanak ang gusto ko sayo ah" biro ko na kina ngiti niya.

"Hindi ko maipapangako yan pero gagawin ko ang lahat para matupad yan" pang gagaya niya sa sinabi ko dahilan para matawa kami pareho. Nang matapos ay agad ko nalamang binalingan si Jed at niyakap din siya ng mahigpit. Agad akong humiwalay sakaniya ay nginitian sa ng pagka laki laki.

"Sayo kona ipag kakatiwala ang pinsan ko ah. Alagaan mo yan katulad ng pag aalaga sakaniya ni Tita. Kapag nalaman kong niloko mo yan isusumpa kita habang buhay." Banta ko sakaniya.

"Sa tingin moba na papayag ako na walang tatay ang magiging anak ko?" Sabat ni Kendie sa usapan naming dalawa dahilan para matawa ako.

"Hindi man ako maka sama sa kasala niyong dalawa lagi niyong tatandaan na naka suporta lang ako lagi sainyo." Ano ko saka binalingan si Jed " galingan mo sa susunod para maka dami agad kayo" biro ko sakaniya na kina tawa niya.

"Hindi paba ako magaling niyan? Naka buo na nga" proud niyang sabi kaya napa ngisi ako.

"Sana kinuhaan niyo ng video diba para nakita ko kung magaling kaba talaga o hindi" biro ko ulit na siyang kina tawa namin maliban kay Kendie na masama ang tingin saakin kaya agad akong nanahimik.

"Ikaw kase eh, ayan ginalingan mo kaya ganyan ugali niyang damuho mong girlfriend" sabi kopa. Agad akong nag tago sa likod ni Lucas ng akmang hahampasin ulit ako ni Kendie.

"See you soon guys, I will update you all time to time" sabi ni Lucas sakanilang tatlo. Napa tango naman silang lahat.

"Ingat kayo"

"Ma mimiss namin kayo"

"Take care"

Sabi nila kaya mas lalo akong napa ngiti.

"Are you ready?" Baling na tanong saakin ni Lucas. Napa hinga ako ng malalim bago tumango.

"Aalis na kami" paalam ko, kumaway pa muna ako bago ko sila talikuran na tatlo.

Nakaka ilang hakbang palang ako ng...

"ROSEE!" napa tigil ako sa pag lalakad ng marinig ko ang boses na iyon. Agad akong lumingon para makilala kung tama ba ang nasa isip ko at hindi nga ako nag kamali. Mabilis siyang lumapit saakin at niyakap ako ng mahigpit dahilan para mabitawan ko ang maleta na hawak ko.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry" sunod sunod niyang pag hingi ng tawad sa gitna ng pag hikbi niya. Agad akong humiwalay sa pag kakayakap niya at hinarap siya saakin.

"Kristine" pag tawag ko sa pangalan niya. Agad naman siyang nag angat ng tingin saakin kaya nag tama ang mga mata namin.

"Kahit kaylan ay hindi ako nag tanim ng sama ng loob sayo. Nagalit ako nung una pero hanggang doon nalang yon. Napatawad na kita" naka ngiti kong sabi sakaniya. Siguro ito na din ang tama na mag patawad ako dahil hindi ko alam kung may araw paba akong aabutan kinabukasan o sa ma susunod pang mga araw. Tama na din ang mag patawad at kalimutan ang lahat para sa pag alis ko ay wala na akong sama ng loob na dadalin sa pag alis ko.

"S-Salamat" aniya kaya napa ngiti ulit ako.

"Mag iingat ka palagi, wag mong papabayaan ang sarili mo. Kung may kailangan ka ay pwedeng pwede mo naman akong tawagan kahit ano ay gagawa ko ng paraan para maka tulong" sabi ko sakaniya na kina tango niya.

"Oh pano bayan, mauuna na ako, baka ma late pa kami sa flight namin" sabi ko sabay pulot ng maleta ko. Hindi pa man ako nakaka talikod at agad na hinawakan ni Kristine ang kamay ko kaya naman ay taka akong napa tingin sakaniya.

Mamalaki ang ngiti niya saakin na mas lalong kina taka ko.

"Alam kong madami na akong kasalanan sayo at ang kapal na ng muka ko kung hihiling pako sayo pero sana ay pag bigyan moko sa isang to" aniya. Kunot noo ko siyang tiningnan dahil diko gets ang mga sinasabi niya.

"Anong bang pinag sasabi mo?" Taka kong tanong sakaniya.

"Na sana ay buksan mo ulit ang puso mo at muli siyang papasukin at tanggapin na magiging kasama mo habang buhay" sabi niya na kina tigil ko. Nag uunahang tumulo ang mg luha ko ng makita ko si Alfred sa likod niya.

"Ibabalik kona ang taong tunay na pag mamay ari mo kinuha ko lang sayo para sa panandalian kong kasiyahan. Napag tanto kona wala ng mas makakapag bigyan ng kasiyahan kay Alfred kundi ikaw lang. Alam kong mahal mo siya at mahal ka din niya" dagdag pa ni Kristine. Tiningnan ko siya, naka ngiti man ay umiiyak din siyang katulad ko.

"You're the first love and last love. Live a happily life with your heart because I, Kristine Nofies letting Alfred Jhon Padilla go because his real happiness is you Rosean Gonzalvo. I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle, but now I'm here in front of you saying that. I lose this time and This is my RESIGNATION message."

Napa tulala ako sa kawalan dahil sa mga narinig ko. Hindi ako maka paniwala na mang yayari pato sa buhay ko na luluha ako hindi dahil sa sakit kundi dahil sa tuwa at saya na nararamdaman ko.

Nakita ko si Alfred na nag lalakad papunta saakin na may dalang bulaklak na mukang binili niya pa habang papunta siya dito.

"Alfred" naiiyak na sabi ko.

"Please forgive me for what I did, and accept my love again. I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I do not know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when I fall asleep your eyes close." Aniya saka lumuhod sa harapan ko at labas ng singsing na tinago niya sa bulsa niya. Agad akong napa takip sa bunganga ko dahil sa halo halong emosyon na nararamdaman ko.

"I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you. I will wait for your comeback. And when you comeback be mine and marry me" sabi niya. Napa tingin ako sa paligid ko. Halo halong emosyon din ang nakikita ko sa mga nanonood saamin. May mga kinikilig at ang mga kaibigan ko naman ay naiyak na syempre si Kendie na ang nangunguna na sinabayan pa ni Kristine.

Napa tingin ako kay Lucas na naka ngiti na din saakin maging sila Jed at Baste din. Ganon din ang mga kaibigan nila na nandito na din pala na mukang kasabay nilang pumunta dito.

"Ang dami ko ng pinag daanan na mga lubak na daan pero hindi ko akalain na may hangganan pala ang daan na iyon at kasiyahan ang sasalubong saakin. I will accept you love again and please don't break my heart again...Yes I will marry you" sagot ko sakaniya na siyang kina ngiti niya kasabay ng palakpakan ng mga taong nanonood saamin. Sinoot niya saakin ang singsing saka ako niyakap ng mahigpit.

"Susundan kita kahit san ka mag punta. I love you and I still do"

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around.

You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more.

You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement.

They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself.

Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful.

There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are.

The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever.

Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant.

Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all.

A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face.

In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you.

You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon.

You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.

It takes courage to love, but pain through love is the purifying fire which those who love generously know. We all know people who are so much afraid of pain that they shut themselves up like clams in a shell and, giving out nothing, receive nothing and therefore shrink until life is a mere living death and being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage.

THE END.