27th February 2013
It’s been six months Aly. Six months without you. And I regret what I did every passing second. How did I manage to stay alive this long? I don’t deserve to be alive. I never should have made you go to the party when you didn’t want to. I never should have made you take the car keys from mom and dad’s room. I shouldn’t have forced you to follow me, I shouldn’t have gone to the party. I shouldn’t have driven that car. I shouldn’t have survived, you should have. I should have listened to you, I should have listened to your protest against it. You knew it was a bad idea and you were right about it like every f*****g time. But I’m an i***t, I’m a good-for-nothing fool that was too f*****g stubborn to listen to you, too blinded by being with the popular kids. I attended that
