13th July 2013
It's our fourteenth birthday Aly, my first birthday without you. Words cannot describe how I'm feeling, this day was supposed to be a happy day for me, for us but instead I spent the whole day crying at your grave. I brought you a cake and it hurt so much that you can't even touch or eat it. I didn't wait for Colton to bring me here today, I know Bella would never allow me to visit you before midnight and that's why I had to sneak out of the house and turn my phone off. I wanted to count down to midnight, to our special day with you as you've always wanted. I wished I hadn't ignored you all those years you wanted to countdown to midnight, I wish I had given you everything you had ever wanted from me. All I have now are memories of you and regrets. If only you would just tak
