his love for me

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Rachel was my bestie since last 4 years.I like her for many things,she is care free,open,social, extrovert and confident.In short,she is the exact opposite of me.i learnt mamy things from her and biggest aming those things was " how to say no".I was that type of girl that couldn't say no.I was used to say "ok" or "yes".Anora come here,ok.Anora give me water,ok.Anora can you help me,ok.Anora can you please jump from that cliff,yes ok.But one thing which i couldn't learn from her was "how to be selfish."

There was a time when Rachel faced a big mess and i did everything to help her.I helped her this much that i got involved in that mess.She was heart broken and i knew how it felt so I helped her.I thought that when she will feel better then she would help me in my healing process after Nigel but as i mentioned earlier,I don't have friends,i have....Rachel healed and when my depression hit me ,she was gone.I texted her because she was the only friend i could share my mess with,i cried,i shouted,i harmed myself but neither Nigel nor Rachel cared.I don't know why this happens with those people whom try their best to make other people's lives easier.But with time i learnt that everyone is selfish and you can't abandon everyone for being selfish because in this way you will be the one who will get isolated and no one wants to become a hermit now.So,I retained my friendship but that friendship lost its warmth.We used to talk for hours and now when I am in her house for 2 hours ,we have hardly talked for fifteen minutes.I had to fome here because i had no other place to hide.It was 6 p.m. and two hours were left.I tried to reason with myself that  however  good stalker he is,he can't find me here because he doesn't know Rachel.She isn't even my f*******: or Snapchat.Well,it was a punishment because she forgot my birthday but bingoo she doesn't even know that i have unfriended her,see she used to say her that i was like her sister,wanted to laugh like a psycho.

We watched movie to kill the time and then ordered pizza.It was finally 8.05 and i was hyperventilating.Rachel asked me the reason but i made excused that i am tired and needed sleep and as true friend she was, she trusted.I came inside the room, checked windows and sat there to read a book because i knew i couldn't sleep.

                                                                   ~~~Jayce point of view~~~.                                    

I came here at 7.30 p.m.I had a very important meeting but how can a meeting be more important than that look in her eyes.I had always thought that i was unable to love a girl but her one act of kindness changed it all.It was the place where we first met.I was given an ultimatum to bring "my lady" within ten days and i had no clue where to find her.I was frustrated and little i knew that my drink was adulterated with "pina leaves",a tree which is not found on visible parts of Earth.It made me dizzy and then i received a call that i had to report to king Edward in 3 hours.I thought he called me to ask whether i had found my lady or not.Later on,i found out that call was fake but due to pina leaves i couldn't focus on such details at that time.I got on my bike and was thinking about all this mess when suddenly i felt an excruciating pain and everything was going dark.I lost my control and fell.I couldn't see her clearly but those eyes....Eyes are the way to your soul,I could see that she was worried for me.Which girl in a right mind comes to help a stranger on a road where no one else is present at that time and get worried for him.I couldn't remember that how she took me to hospital.I wasn't in my senses then.I didn't know how much time was passed but i could feel that pain in my whole body and my mind was going numb.These earthly medicines couldn't cure me.I was loosing hope but then suddenly every nerve of my body was relaxed.I don't know how to explain it but suppose that it is freezing cold, temperature is below 0°C ,you are shivering and your fingers feel numb but then you get into a hot water spring with a cup of hot chocolate with marshmallows in your hand and when you come outside there is a trained person for your full body massage.I got that type of serenity and then i slept like a child.

And now i was standing here in this chilly air, waiting for her to come but a part of my brain knew that she wouldn't come but my heart brought me here.I looked at my watch for nth time and it was still 7.59 p.m.I rubbed my hands to warm those,looked at yellow falling leaves and then looked at my watch again.yes,it is 8 p.m. now and she didn't come.Time to follow plan B now.