once more

flash back (15 years ago) I am sorry mrs Herrera,we did our best but we couldn't save him. Noo..I heard my mom scream.my ears went numb,I couldn't focus on anything anymore. no no no.. I dont belive this.how can dad just leave us like that he loves us right. hoping it to be a nightmare I closed my eyes pinched my arm really hard,it hurts but not as much as my heart ache when realisation hits me .the realisation that I won't be able to see him anymore. please dad don't do this to us, to me,we need you present I blinked my tears away remembering that day still like yesterday playing in my mind. everything changed now our happy little family shattered into pieces. nothing went right in my life since that day, I was only ten back then bur nobody was there for me .my mother engaged herself in different jobs but how can I complaint she was a total mess too. I guess she remembers me when its time for my tution pays and other bill and thats it. never had she initiated a conversation with me.I wonder what did I do wrong and like that 15 years have passed I grew up all alone and lonely but even after my life being a mess I did well in school years and with scholarship too , now I own a boutique shop and also does some photography as my hobby. I earn pretty well to live more than a normal life. after talking anything and everything to my dad I bid my goodbye and walked out of cemetery today was his death anniversary by the way. it was getting dark I walked feeling the cool breeze and my phone buzzes it lit up to show a text from my ex boyfriend taylor oh god! he is really a pain in the a*s.