not meant to be

little freedom

edie!!

edna!!

edna open your door right now!!

I could here mum's voice calling out to me but I was too tired to get up.

i don't really understand why she'd be here this early to wake me up, she knows very well I am not a morning person.

"edna if you don't open this door now I'd go downstairs and call christopher here" she said.

I guess that did the magic because I got up almost immediately and flung the door open for her to come inside my room.

I wasn't really scared of my brother infact I loved him a lot, but then I didn't want to be in his bad books now that I needed him to approve of me going abroad for my degree.

"good morning darling" mum greeted as she went about her daily task of helping me to rearrange my dressing table, it had some of my makeup scattered on it .

"good morning mum" I replied as I went back to sit on my bed.

"mum you don't have to clean my room for me, I can do it myself" I said but she just ignored me.

after she was satisfied with how everything was looking she told me to freshen up and come downstairs because she and christopher wanted to talk to me about something very important.

I got into the bathroom to brush my teeth and then freshen up, thirty minutes later I went down to meet them.

"good morning Chris" I greeted as I took my seat at the dining table.

he only nodded at me and then continued to operate his laptop while I went ahead to eat my breakfast of bacon and eggs.

after sometime we finished our breakfast and Chris decided to break the silence.

"mum and I would be traveling to alaska tonight, something came up at our company and my attention is needed there, and mum would be coming with me"

he stopped to look at me and then continued.

"we'd be gone for two weeks and I trust you can take care of yourself till we get back" he said and I rolled my eyes at him.

of course I could take care of myself, I am no longer a child but Chris would never understand that.

"and one more thing" he added

"you are not allowed to leave the house till we get back" he said and I looked at him with disbelieve.

"what ... why.. you can't keep me looked up here for two weeks" I said trying to control the tears that was threatening to spill out from my eyes.

" I can and I would, you don't expect me to let you move around town as you wish when none of us is here to look after you" he said.

I couldn't believe this!! I am twenty Three and I could take good care of myself, I have never understood why he felt the need to protect me.

I knew talking to him would be futile so I turned to mum, even though Chris was the man of the house as he liked to call himself I knew mum had the final say when it comes to decision making.

"mum you know this is unfair right I can't be locked up in this house forever, I'm human I have a life of my own to live and for some reasons you guys are not letting me live that life.

I can't go out of the house and whenever am allowed to Chris send people after me like a child, it not fair!! am an adult" I said letting the tears roll freely from my eyes.

"Chris your sister is right we can't keep her here forever, she has life to live and she won't be able to live that life if we keep shielding and protecting her from the world. it just two weeks, while we focus on the company in alaska she should also have a little bit of fun " mum said, he was about to argue with her but she raised her hands to stop him.

I have never understood why they always felt the need to protect me so I decided to ask mum today.

"mum can you tell me exactly what you've been protecting me from"

"edna we'd talk about all this when we get back from alaska" mum said.

I turned to look at Chris while wiping the tears off my eyes, but he looked so pissed and angry.

"Edna i hope you know I have been doing all this for your own good and protection right" he said.

"protecting me from what exactly!!

I screamed at him, I could no longer hold my emotions and I felt like exploding right now.

"from the f**ked up things our father had done before he finally left for his new family!!! he has offended a lot of people that would give up anything just to have our Head if they can't get his" he screamed back.

I stood shocked for sometime until i head mum's little sobs while she ran upstairs.

"father"

I could not remember the last time I said that word, maybe when I was around five or six years old that was before he left us to relocate to God knows where and now it turns out my predicament had a lot to do with him.

the man who never cared about me or my mom, this same man was the reason why my brother had to live with the need to always protect me from the people he must've wronged in the past.

"Chris what do you mean by the things he did and to who exactly I don't get it, and why am I the only one this people are after"

I asked as he brought his hands to cup my cheeks.

"they are not just after you edna, I really don't want you to live in fear but am doing all this to protect you from them, I don't want you to be out there every time or you could be an easy target to bring our family down" he said and I nodded my Head at him.

"edna you have to take good care of yourself while we are out of town, and even if you are to go out don't ever stay out late " he said and I nodded my head at him again and then he pulled me in for a hug.

after sometime chris left for the office to handle some issues before he could travel and I went upstairs to talk to mum.

a few minutes later I was standing in front of mum's door.

I knocked twice and then opened the door to go inside .

mum was standing by her window side looking at the view outside and I went to stand beside her.

"mom are you alright" I asked her and she smiled at me

" am perfectly fine baby i just had a little breakdown"she said.

"mum why do you still cry over a man who left you, who Left us without a second thought for so many years" I asked her and she smiled at me.

"I was not crying because of him, am only sad because my only daughter had to live a life with little freedom just because of what he'd done to people" she said and I nodded my Head.

" mum I now understand why you've been doing all this even though I don't know the whole story behind this, and am really grateful for having both you and my brother in my life I really don't know what I'd do without the both of you" I said and she pulled me in for a hug.

I helped mum packed her luggages for the trip and after that we spent some time together watching movies while i kept checking my phone expecting a call or text from damian which I never got.

it was already late at night and I decided to sleep very early so I could wake up to see mum and Chris off.

I slept off with a lot of disappointement in my heart.

I had called him twice and he didn't take my calls neither did he return them.

I checked my phone for the last time before turning off my bedside lamp and going to bed.