"Hidden Rain Diaries"

The morning is sunny students were playing volleyball, while I was staying in the classroom sitting at my chair watching life inspection videos. I was so lonely my best friend was in the other classroom , as for me , here in the section where there are so many guys who bullies me. Yesterday they said I was watching porn even it's no sometimes I think they really need a mental therapy or glass. In truth I was just watching a short drama barely doesn't have porn in it. What does they know anyway, they don't know nothing, nothing at all !!!!!! They don't know how much stress and sufferings I have in my life . If only, if only I'm strong enough,if only there's no rules I would have kill all of them!!! I want to kill them!!!!! I want to kill them !!!! I always feel lonely just like I want my room to be always dark , intentionally chopping my self with a blade or A knife , my mother even thought that I was being clumsy . One time I attempted to cut my own pulse but my mother suddenly came so I didn't successfully did it. In truth I have a reason to kill myself , I'm no use ,silent , always pretending to be smart, acting strong,and always easy to cry.Well I can say I'm really a emotional person. That's when I realized in my days in highschool, ever since my life turned into misery. Oh right my life is already miserable a long time ago . I don't even deserve to be happy besides no one cares about me....