We Met Once Again

Episode Five: Farewell

°Marcus POV°

The alpha announced my departure. Everyone applauded and cheered except for one person. Margaux was shaking her head. Telling herself that what she's hearing isn't true. She can't believe or rather she doesn't want to believe the news that her father said. She rose from her seat and ran.

I know I probably shouldn't follow her but the desire of me comforting her won. I wanted to hug her and just forget about everything.

I excused myself and ran towards where she ran off. I followed her scent. She ran to the woods. I know where she's going, to the lake. I ran and slowed down when I saw her near the lake.

She's crying and it breaks my heart knowing I'm the reason she's crying and hurting. She howled, full of despair. I watched her crying her heart out. I clenched my fist at the sight of her crying and howling in sadness.

When I saw her curled into a ball and lay down on the cold snow. I approached her, slowly. I reached my hands to her and pull her into my chest. Every sob that she released pinched my heart.

"Shh... Don't cry." I said to her.

"I... Can't... Help myself. I'm just so... Sad." She said. In between sobs.

My heart is hurting. I put my chin on top of her head. "I'm sorry. I couldn't be able to stay." It's all I can say.

She looked at me through her teary eyes. Saying nothing. She's just looking at me as if she wants to say something but she just cried and I soothed her. I rubbed her hair. I love the way her hair feels on my hand.

"Why?" She asked me.

"Why I have to leave?" I asked her and she nodded. "The thing is---" I paused. I want to tell her that I wouldn't leave so she'll stop crying but I can't. "I have some personal matter to attend to." That's partially true.

"Will it take that long? Long enough for my father to formally say goodbye?" She asked me. I looked at her in the eyes with sadness and longing. I'm pouring my heart out. Begging her to see through my heart.

"I'm sorry, little one." I kissed her forehead. "I would really love to stay." My lycan's whinning telling me to just stay by her side.

She cried in my arms. Her face on my chest. We stayed like that until there's no more tears left to shed. I held her tight.

"Why am I hurting like this? My wolf is devastated by the news of you leaving. You said yoy aren't my---" I stopped her from talking. I wanted to tell her that my lycan and I was also hurting but I stopped myself.

"You aren't my mate. Your mate is still out there. Waiting for you. He'll love you." I don't like what I'm saying. I'm hurting because of my own words. "The fact that you're devastated is probably because you thought of me as one of your family." I said convincing her or more like convincing myself.

I held her tight. I stood up and carried her out of the woods. Willing myself to sent her to her bedroom and not take her away and licked her up on my home, our home. She put her arms around my neck and I enjoyed the way her arms felt. I wanted her so much. I pushed back the desire to mark her and take her right now. I can't do that.

"I love you." I whispered and kissed her forehead, a little too long. "Remember that, little one." I said as she drifted off to sleep.

"I'll come back for you." I said knowing that she can't hear me.

I put her down on her bed and stroked her hair away from her face. I kissed her lips. My lycan's purring. My kissed lingered longer and I want more but I need to stop. I pulled away from her lips.

I said my goodbye to the alpha and luna. I headed out and turn into my lycan form. I ran and ran howling. The sadness is devouring my soul.

I hate myself for leaving her but I know I have to. She's not for me. Someone else is made for her and it's not me.

The thought of someone else having her is devastating. I ran and ran. The sun is rising and I don't know where I am. I'm lost and I hope I can find my way back home. Back to her. Back to the arms of Margaux.