chapter 4
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Quote of the day
-The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference. The opposite of art is not ugliness, it's indifference. The opposite of faith is not heresy, it's indifference. And the opposite of life is not death, it's indifference.
-Elie Wiesel
Song of the day
-my boo by Usher and Alicia Keys
Chapter 4 Unedited
Zara POV
Three months after she was kicked out of her house.
"You need to be careful ma'am you have a high risk of losing your baby if you keep stressing or crying too much" the doctor told me with a very worried expression on her face
I have been crying almost everyday after Brandon left me. I feel so numb to the world, I feel hopeless. My life is a mess and I have an unborn child coming into the world. Who will need someone to love and someone who can care for. And at this point I feel like I am not worth being a mother of a child.
I am currently living with with Avaline and her children. After I walked out of the house she immediately offered to have me stay with her until I got back on my feet. She Only had three bedrooms and I stayed in the living room, that was all she could give me and no one and I mean no one in this world is related to me or who can take me in.
I tried looking for work but to was not as easy as I thought it would be.
"Okay, I will try my best" I said and looked down at my grow belly. When I looked at my belly, I didn't realize that I was actually this big. My belly was a huge but for a 17 week pregnant woman my belly is not as big as it should be. If I didn't go to that stupid club I wouldn't be in this position were my child is basically fighting for his or her life. He or she would have had a beautiful a happy family a loving father and mother.
This wouldn't have happened if I don't go to that stupid night club.
"You are not even on the weight you are supposed to be on. You look like you are losing weight and you need to start eating for yourself and the baby or you will lose the baby" she seemed very worried for my health and it was stating to worry Me to.
When I woke up this morning I was feeling very sick and I throw up a lot and blood was on my panties.
"Anyway let's quickly do an ultrasound to see how the baby is developing and then we can take it from there" she said to me
This was actually the first actual check up I was going to be doing.
I pulled up my T-shirt and then she immediately put the icy cold gel on my belly. When I saw my baby on the screen my heart almost bursted into tears when I saw the baby.
It felt like all my problems that I was facing seemed to disappear and it was just me and my little one. I didn't even know what gender the baby was. Heshe was beautiful, that baby on the screen is all mine and she/he will want one (me) to take care, nurture, love and even look after.
I then remember how my mother and father left me to fend for myself and when I looked at my baby I realized that I don't want my any to go throw what I went threw as a child, thinking that no one in the world loves you. This child has someone to love and that person me and it is my responsibility to take care of my own child.
"Would you like to know the gender of the baby" she asked me
"Yes please" I said with a big smile and tears of joy on my face
"Okay thy baby is a girl, congratulations" she said
"A girl" I said in surprise
"Yes, and she has a lot of hair just like you" she said and wrote something down on her clipboard.
"oh Wow" she said
"what is wrong with my baby" I asked her with a furrow on my face
"she just turned her body and now we are only seeing her back....do you know what this means" she asked me with a smirk on her face
"no what does it mean"
"it means that you are going to have sassy or even a bossy little girl" she said and we laughed about what she said
I can't explain the joy in my heart right now. A girl, who is going to be brought in to this world and who deserves someone to love. I feel so honored to have her in my life and I vow from this day on I will stop at nothing do I can take care and love. She will let have the life I had, even though she doesn't have a father of even a complete family she will have me and she will be the motivation for me to wake up every day of my life. I will live for her and I pray that everything works out.
To be continued.......
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