FEELING OF BETRAYAL

CHAPTER-13 Realizing His Love

Fiona’s POV:

‘I woke up to my alarm ringing and the sunrays hurting my eyes in the morning. I hoped for a  good day and a new start.

“Good morning baby.” Sam greeted me with coffee and a smile.

‘I feel positive today hoping my days further on will be as positive as today.’ I thought.

“Good morning Sam!” I greeted Sam back.

‘I finished my morning business and came back out to see Sam sitting on the bed with my coffee and breakfast. How sweet!’ I thought.

“Sam I could’ve come down to eat my breakfast and drink my coffee with you. Why did you have to bring it up to my room. Thank you so much!” I expressed my views to him.

“No worries Fio. We usually eat at the table so for a change I thought we will eat in the room. Do you mind?” Sam asked.

“Of course not Sam . This is your house. Whatever you want and wherever you want you can eat. I have no problems with it.” I pointed out to Sam who pouted at me.

‘We had small talk with our breakfast and coffee. It made me feel home. Though I couldn’t have people to talk at home I enjoyed Sam’s company at present. Wonder if Watson thought of me or just hated me.’ I sighed at the thought of Watson hating me.

“Sam, I want to tell you something.” I told Sam.

“Yes Fio. Anything important ?” Sam asked me.

“Nothing important, but Alaster messaged me last night and said he wanted to meet me and talk to me today.” I told Sam who looked at me in shock.

“Fio? Are you planning to forgive Henry or something?” He questioned me.

“Uhm nope Sam. Just that Alaster told me he wanted to help me with my present pain I’m facing.” I air quoted the words.

“Hmm. I do know about Alaster though. If Henry is sane enough in a few things it is only because of Alaster. He is a genuine guy but what bothers me right now is he would rather take a stand for his friend in front of others than to help you out in your problems.” He told me.

“Yes you are right. But like you said Alaster must be sane enough to be practical too. We will see what he has in his mind today. If it would help me well and good . Else it’s a bye-bye to him too! “ I replied back.

“Okay! Do you want me to come with you? Sam asked me.

“I guess I can manage. I will anyway give you a call when the necessity pops in.” I told Sam to which he nodded.

‘How I hope my life was just as happy as children’s life were! I’m happy to be here still the pain is incorrigible in my heart.’ I thought.

At 4:00 PM in the evening at the Times Park

“Hey Fio!” Alaster greeted me.

“Hello Alaster right?” I asked.

“Yes. I firstly want to apologise to you for what happened. I don’t want to pity you because I’m sure you being the victim would hate it.” He said,

‘Thank god atleast he is being open enough to admit his friend’s mistake.’ I thought.

“That’s okay and I’m thankful enough that you don’t behave like your friend who doesn’t admit his mistakes.” I replied.

“That’s okay. So coming to the point Fio, Henry is really in love with you. I wanted to tell you what he feels. He doesn’t know I’m here to meet you. He cut his hand because you cut your hand. He wanted to share the pain of yours but he knew he caused the pain so there were no chances of sharing it at the moment so he wanted to go through the physical pain of what you did to yourself by cutting his hand. I never knew he would do something as stupid as this. I did tell him to realize what his mistakes were but didn’t think he would do this.” He replied maintaining eye contact.

“I do know about him cutting his hand which is stupid. I know what I did is equally stupid but I had a reason to do it and he was the reason for me to do it. If he hadn’t caused the pain I would have been well off in life and wouldn’t be in this position as I’m today. I really can’t forgive him for what he has done. I could have filed a case on him but more than the r****t I guess the victim is affected and I do not want to even let this out because I want to be in peace and not get to be pitied by people around the world. Hope you understand.” I replied.

“Yes I get your point and I support your point but you can think about it in a way which can make you happy. I’m not here to force you but think about what I’m saying because you may feel it is right at one point.” He said.

“Sure I will give it a thought. Please continue.” I replied back wanting to know his thoughts.

“I know you were a virgin Fio, I know what he did to you was wrong. He told me that you weren’t ready to accept him at all and he was insecured to lose his love. So he reasoned out for his wrong doing which I couldn’t accept but could feel his insecurity the way he said it. He told me that unless you both get physical you wouldn’t think about him in your life or let alone accept him. I know I might sound weird but if you accept him and try to love him I feel you wouldn’t feel r***d after a point.” He said shocking me.

“Apparently I guess r**e is always called a r**e. Whether you love that person or not if it is forced without your consent then surely it is r**e. So why would you think I might not feel it a r**e later on? And loving him I don’t think is an option at all. He might just constantly abuse me, use me even r**e me! I wouldn’t want to go through all of it again. Once done is already creating a huge impact in my life so I wouldn’t give him a second chance at all.” I replied.

Alaster’s POV:

“Apparently I guess r**e is always called a r**e. Whether you love that person or not if it is forced without your consent then surely it is r**e. So why would you think I might not feel it a r**e later on? And loving him I don’t think is an option at all. He might just constantly abuse me, use me even r**e me! I wouldn’t want to go through all of it again. Once done is already creating a huge impact in my life so I wouldn’t give him a second chance at all.” She replied.

‘Even though I understand her logic she doesn’t understand his love. Why did you have to spoil it Henry?’ I thought.

“I do understand your logic Fio. I am making a phone call now to Henry and we would see what he is saying about you and the incident then you can decide.” I said dialing his number.

“Hey Henry. I just called to talk to you about Fio.” I replied.

“Hey! What about her? Is she fine?” He panicked.

“Calm down Henry. Nothing is wrong with her. I was just doubting if you really love her. Because Tessa was also asking you if it was any plan to get back to her and hurting her . I feel the same. So I just wanted clarity bro!”  I said putting the phone on speaker.

“Alas I would have played with girls in the past but they were behind my money and s*x. But Fio is different. She is not behind money or s*x. She is so innocent which made me like her and of course Tessa wanted me to be her brother in law who can take care of her sister well. But when I saw Fio’s photo I had fallen for her. She had physical beauty. I always thought she would be behind money. But no she didn’t bother about it. When we went on dates she was silent only answering what I asked and didn’t try to make any conversation let alone seduce me. I was afraid if my past would make her say no to me. With the way she was reacting she didn’t accept me at all. I needed her the most. I wanted to share my life with her, I wanted to be around her without a reason. I did make a mistake of forcing myself on her knowing she is a virgin and turned out to be a r**e but I still miss her. I wouldn’t touch her again but all I want is her Alas. She is making me crazy. She is no were around me now due to what I did to her.  How I wish I could undo the past and make her accept me. I couldn’t even support her when I gave her the pain. I didn’t realize she would attempt suicide, it shattered me inside. That is what made me cut my hand too. I wanted to feel the physical pin atleast and this is the punishment I deserve to have been rude to her. I love her bro. I want her.” He weeped.

“You sound like a love sick puppy bro. I understand you now. Hope she gets back to you. Bye dude take care.” I replied and disconnected the call only to see Fio crying.

“Why did he have to do it if he loved me Alaster? Does it make sense? He could’ve proved me in so many ways. I feel used every bit. I really can’t take this. I’m sorry. I need to leave now. Thank you. Goodbye.” She replied before she left.

‘I hope she realizes his love and talks to him. Thank god he didn’t say anything which would make her upset. Fingers crossed.’ I thought leaving home.