FEELING OF BETRAYAL

CHAPTER-11 Feelings Or Hurt?

Fiona’s POV:

“Tessa are you kidding me? Do you want to trust that bullshit of a reason? A person who uses other people would hurt himself in the name of love? Hilarious. I don’t want to trust this.” I yelled at Tessa in disbelief.

“Fio I’m not asking you to accept him at least talk to him and find out why he did it! I’m sure he was talking the truth. I couldn’t find any lies in his eyes. I’m not forcing you to talk to him or accept him. That is upto you and that is what I told him too.” Tessa told me and Sam.

“Tessa I believe Fio and I go with her statement.” Sam replied.

“Thanks Sam! I at least have one person who thinks right not buying his sympathetic stories.” I replied to Sam giving him a thumbs up.

“Fio, do you think I trusted Henry when he told me that? I confirmed it with Alaster. He was the one who put some sense into his head I believe.” Tessa rolled her eyes at the thought of Alaster.

“Firstly who is this Alaster? I have heard about him but have never seen him! Why is he the talk between us in the first place? And Sam do you remember? You told me that Henry would do anything to make the girl fall for him? I guess this is one of his stupid techniques! I wonder if he did the same thing for all of them.” I laughed[ and Tessa glared at me.

“Fio even if you don’t trust him you don’t need to laugh at his pain. This is not right.” She yelled at me.

“Tessa are you talking about not laughing at others pain? I’m sorry for bringing this here but how many times have you laughed when I was in pain? I didn’t have only physical pain but you still chose to laugh at me. Why does your care and concern come only for you friends? Even for people who hurt me?” I screamed at Tessa.

“I know what I have done Fio. It’s okay. But just try to understand his point though.” She whispered.

“I will think about it. But I don’t think I would talk to him.” I told Tessa.

“Bye Fio.” She waved out before going back home.

‘How I wish I could stay in my own house without anyone! I would have been independent would have had lots of fun and wouldn’t have allowed anyone to ruin my peace. Maybe it is just a dream of me staying in my own apartment.’ I thought.

“Earth to Fio.” Sam yelled into my ear.

“Ouch! It hurts Sam. What happened?” I questioned Sam.

“I asked you a question but you still didn’t answer it. To which zone where you travelling to?” He asked with a smirk on his face.

‘How I want to rub the smirk away! Uff Sam!’ I thought.

“What’s with your smirk dude? And yes I was just thinking how it would be to stay and be independent!” I replied honestly.

“Hmm. Not a bad thought though! I asked you if you were going to talk to Henry!” Sam questioned me.

“Of course not. I don’t want to buy his stupid stories. It isn’t easy to go through the pain dude! He is good at faking them. I don’t trust him one bit. He is the bloody reason of me not being with Watson. Isn’t he? Didn’t he get other girls at all? He wanted to ruin my happiness and peace out of all of them? I don’t trust that son of a b***h. Just because Alaster or whoever his best friend is told he cut his hand for me does it make it any better for me? No! Does it erase my recent happenings? No! I would rather stay like this and not bother about him! “ I replied to Sam.

“Woah Woah! That’s a good explanation, but I do see some concern in your eyes Fio.” Sam looked directly into my eyes boring holes to my soul.

‘How the hell? I don’t trust that son of a b***h at all but why do I care for him?’ I thought!

‘Its because you always cared for people around you Fio.’ My conscience replied.

‘But the care doesn’t mean anything more. Maybe because he made me feel guilty by using my name as a reason ?’ I thought.

‘Yes definitely.’ My conscience replied.

‘Oh god why am I talking to my inner self so much these days .’ I groaned.

“Penny for your thoughts ?” Sam questioned.

“Ugh, it’s just that he’s made me feel guilty now. Like why on earth would he use my name to even cut his hand? I guess the care is only because he’s made me feel guilty and I still stand by my word and I won’t call him or ask him why he put me through this guiltiness.” I replied to Sam.

‘I need to really move on from these stupid feelings of feeling everyone. It doesn’t do anything to me and just makes me feel incorrigible and weak. I need to make myself strong that no one would ever think about hurting me or anyone for that matter.’ I thought.

Henry’s POV:

‘Why can’t people even trust me? Does Fio know about what I did? Does she hate me? I didn’t do it for her to hate me or accept me. I just punished myself for hurting her. Even Tessa couldn’t believe me. I know what I did in the past was something unforgivable. No one knows the real side of my parents or their story. It makes me hunt for love but unfortunately everyone were only behind my money and not for the love I would shower. When I noticed Fio I wanted to change myself but this beast of mine couldn’t be tamed however I can’t blame it because I should’ve controlled myself.

I just cannot feel the thought of not talking to Fio but it’s happening and it hurts me! Isn’t this what I deserve though? Maybe I deserve to be alone for my lifetime. If not for Alaster I don’t think I would ever have repented or felt guilty about what I did. I should’ve just spoken to him before barging into her house or her life. I forced myself on her now that I’m through this punishment and it feels terrible.’ I thought.

“Henry don’t think about Fio and just rest for some time.” Alaster told me.

“How can I not think about her? It isn’t easy Alas. I now I barged into her life forcefully but it doesn’t mean I cannot give her the love she expects. Why wasn’t she accepting me or talking to me like she does with her friends? I didn’t harm her until then. Only when I was scared that she would never accept me did I force my ways else I treated her well Alas.” I replied with a heavy heart with her thoughts killing me.

“You need to let her go Hen. You cannot keep forcing her to accept you. It would only make her hate you.” Alas told me.

“No don’t tell me she hates me it pricks me more. I want her to love me Alas.” I cried.

“Henry you need to rest now and don’t overthink now.” Alaster said pricking me with something on my left arm.

“Henry I have injected your sleeping dose for you. Please sleep.” He said.

‘I will always love you Fio.’ I thought smiling and was the last words I thought before falling into deep slumber.