FEELING OF BETRAYAL

CHAPTER-7 Apologizing For Stupidity

Fiona’s POV:

“Wake up Fio” Mom screeched.at 8:00PM in the evening.

“Mom please don’t wake me up allow me to sleep. I am very tired please.” I whined.

“Fio you need to wake up now and eat your dinner else I will send Tessa to wake you up.” Mom replied.

“Ugh I will come mom please let me sleep for 5 more minutes.” I told her.

“We have a guest at home Fio. Freshen up and be out in 5 minutes. Your time starts now.” She yelled followed by my room door banging clearly letting me know she is annoyed.

‘Owch! I feel so sore after what that bastard did to me. How can I even forget it. He forced me and took my virginity without even feeling one percent guilty about it. Maybe this is what Sam was saying all along. But why should it be? The splitting pain I still feel due to his force, I never think I can forget the pain in my entire life. What has he done to me? I feel so ashamed of myself. Tessa you wanted me to get into a relationship with him? How can I even accept you as my sister now? Do you know the pain I’m facing due to your actions? Who will I vent it to now? God I don’t feel like living.’ I winced in pain thinking through the deep thoughts which were forced onto me 4 hours ago.

I washed my face and did my business to only see myself bleeding and still suffering the pain which gives me a panic attack. I cried till I heard a knock on my washroom door indicating me to come out to greet the guest. I wonder who the guest is that my mom wakes me up to go see that guest of hers.

I walked out of the room to be shocked all over again only to see my nightmare coming true. ‘He is still sitting here in the dining table to eat dinner with all of us without having an ounce of guilty feeling to what he did. I winced thinking about the painful attack and went back to shut my door loud for them to know I don’t want to eat dinner. However I was again forced to come out of my room by Tessa blackmailing me. If only she knew my pain of meeting the son of the b***h sitting right across me smiling at me & eating dinner.

“Why are you not eating Fio?” My dad questioned me giving me a worried look.

‘I cussed under my breath only to find Tessa glaring at me.’

“Nothing dad. Just don’t feel hungry.” I lied through my teeth not able to tell my parents who were happily having a conversation with the bastard.

I played with my fork till everyone finished eating and went to the living room so that I can eat in peace not experiencing another glare or a look from that bastard which still hurts me.

‘I never realized my Virginity, love could be taken so easily and that too by raping me. He expects me to think of him after he r***d me. God will never let you in peace and I so know what I would do Henry. Goodbye to you and your torture.’ I thought and finished my dinner to get back into my room.

‘I was shocked to be seeing Henry siting on my bed again would be an understatement but I didn’t know how he landed inside my room without my notice.I heard mom and dad saying bye to him. How the hell did he come back inside. I can’t handle him again. I turned to open the door to get out of my room but he bloody pulled my wrist and turned me to face him. How I hate how he is so strong. What does he want now?’ I thought.

“Bloody hell leave me henry and don’t you dare touch me or talk to me. I just don’t want to hear your fake words which are just lies now. Get out of my room you son of a bitch.”I yelled only to be slapped again on my right cheek by him.

“Why the hell did you have to slap me now after the torture you did to me Henry?” I cried letting the tears fall on my cheek which is stinging in pain.

“Fio, I’m here to apologize for what I did but you take me for granted. First to start with I made Tessa open the backdoor for me to get into the house again because I wanted to talk to you and apologize for my mistake.” He told me.

‘Henry and his lies . Apologizing? Will that give me my Virginity back?’ I thought letting him complete his oh so fake speech.

“Secondly I know what I did to you is wrong Fio but you never wanted to give me a chance in your life. I truly love you Fio. That is why I was patient with you this whole month thinking you would change your mind and open up to me but you didn’t. I do not know the reason for it but it hurts me truly to know that you don’t want to give me a chance in your life Fio. This is why I waited for you to come back into your room. I’m sorry Fio.” He told me giving me a sincere look which any girl would fall for. But after what he did I hate to even hear his voice.

“Since you finished your speech Henry, let me tell you, you apologizing will not give my virginity back firstly. Second you can’t force love and make a person to love you because you forcefully had s*x with her. Third you didn’t have s*x with me, you bloody r***d me you r****t. I hate the sight of you and please get out of my life this instant so that I wouldn’t do anything to myself.” I yelled and locked myself into the washroom so that he would leave me in peace.

I heard the door closing which made me understand that he left my room.

‘Sam I want to meet you. Why couldn’t I just have a brother who would protect me?’ I cried stepping out of the washroom to jump on my bed for the sleep to overtake me however it didn’t come very soon.

Henry’s POV:

‘She hates me now. I can see it through her eyes.  I feel the pain piecing through her eyes but she didn’t even take what I said to her heart. I’m not a demon for her to be scared off. I love her. Can’t she just realise that? I know nothing can make her accept me now. I’ve lost myself in her but I wouldn’t leave her suffer in the pain I gave her I will stand by her making her understand my love for her is pure. ‘ I convinced myself to meet her again tomorrow and plead her till she accepts my love for her.

‘Good night Angel.’ I messaged her before my sleep overtook me.

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Next morning I woke up with the sunrays hitting my eyes through the window making me realise it’s a beautiful sunny day where I’m going to meet my Fio my angel to apologize for the mistake I made.

I swiped my phone just to notice I didn’t get a reply back from my angel who is still angry with me. I smiled to myself for my stupidity to even expect a message from her after giving her the pain. I got up from my bed, finished my daily business and walked to the dining hall to eat my breakfast after which I would be leaving for a tiring day in university. When will I meet FIo? Ugh this is forever. I thought realizing the day would be as long as it can be.

I reached the university in 2 hours and gave a message to my Fio to have a wonderful day and to tell her that I reached my university. Knowing she wouldn’t care about what I’m doing I still wanted to hug her tight and let her know she is important but only if she heard me out. I sulked through the train of thoughts and went to my class to attend a boring lecture about mechanics!

Not long before lunch I wanted to give a call to Fio as I felt something wrong was going to happen. But as usual she has been avoiding my messages. I called Tessa to ask her where my Fio was but she said she didn’t see her from morning and her mom had told her she had gone for a sleepover at her friends place to prepare for the exam..

Though the thought of her being with someone killed me I still wanted her to have her space for me to approach her and talk.

Two days passed by and I had given her 150 messages, 300 calls but none was responded. I called Tessa to find out if she was home and Tessa told me saying she was back home but didn’t talk to anyone and preferred staying inside the room. It shattered me for what I did. She is bearing the pain alone of what I forced her into and I didn’t like it.

I went to her house to meet my angel to share the pain but she didn’t open the door. I rang the bell 4 times but I guess I was unlucky because she didn’t even bother to peep through to see who had come. What did I put her into I cried my thoughts and finally decided to take Tessa’s help in opening the door.

“Hello Tessa. I’m outside your house but Fio isn’t opening the door. Would you please ask her to open the door?” I pleaded Tessa to help me.

“Hmm. I’m afraid she will not open the door for you Henry. I tried talking to her this morning about you and to consider you but she locked herself in the washroom till I left and made sure everyone took our house keys when we left so that we don’t disturb her. However mom felt it weird that she acted like this all of a sudden.” She replied giving me a shock.

“Please help me talk to her Tessa please. I spoilt it all. I forced her. Please Tessa just come back home please.” I cried to Tessa not bothering what she would think about me.

“So I guess you will have to wait till I come home Hen. Don’t worry I will be there in 10 minutes. Don’t ring the bell because she would get suspicious. Let her think you have left.” She told me.

“Hmm. Okay come soon.” I replied and disconnected the call

‘What have I done god. Please let Fio be safe and not be furious or afraid to see me.’ I thought waiting for Tessa to come.