Howl For My Heart

Chapter 5-My breaking point

{Griffin Mansion}

The party had bearly ended and all our guests had dispersed, I was now alone with my immediate family. As I tucked Zayn into bed I couldn't shake off the bitter truth that stared me in the face.Damian could love,he could be gentle and kind to others but just not to me.My heart beat increased when I remembered the words Damian spoke to me earlier.What could have made him hate me this much? I planned the pack's annual get together party and everything was perfect just as he wanted but the moment I stepped into our bedroom I knew the storm between us was far from over.

Damian sat on the edge of the bed gazing into the open space in-between the closet and the dressing table.His jaws tightened and the expression on his face was somewhat unreadable.

I stood on the spot trying to decipher the reason behind the expression on his face when his words hit me calmly

"Do you think I am a fool?" I was oblivious of what he meant but I swallowed the tension that had overwhelmed me initially.

"What are you talking about?"

"You think I don't know what you did, you left even when I told you not to." My eyes welled up from all the pent up emotions.I was terribly tired of trying to gain Damian's affection and now I was not careful in replying him.

"I told you to stay home and organize the party but you ran off to work like a rebellious little girl."

"I had a responsibility..." My voice came in still and calm but Damian cut me short as he growled standing up from the bed abruptly.

"I am your responsibility Ember!,your duty is to me and the pack but you wanted to show the world how different you are right?"

"Damian,you are making a mountain out of a mole hill.I did as you asked and everything was perfect but what more could you possibly want from me." I fired back at him as the tears flowed freely down my cheeks.

"Damian, I am exhausted from our constant bickering."

"So this is my fault right?" I stepped back at his sudden movement but he was faster,he was in front of me grabbing me by the wrist, his grip tightened and I winced in pain.

"I am hurting Damian." My words had no effect on him,they fell on deaf ears.He pulled my hair back murmuring into my ear.

"You don't listen, that's your problem and I am getting tired of you.I hate repeating myself."

"You don't own me Damian,I am not your property." My mouth spoke freely but his tightened grip became worse.

"Aren't you my property?" My heart pounded as he dragged me forward with one hand while the other traced down my waist.His touch felt possessive.

"Stop! you are hurting me." My stomach turned in disgust as I struggled with him.

"You are my Luna but you keep feeling like you have a choice."

He pushed me against the dresser as he unbuttoned his white long sleeve shirt.

"Take off your dress or I'll rip it off." He thundered, in a loud growl.My hands shook lacking precision from the tension that accompanied his loud voice.

"You are too slow Ember!" He muttered impatiently as his face turned red in anger.He grabbed me swiftly ripping off my dress aggressively.I landed on the floor hitting my head hard as I struggled to free myself from his grip but his breath had become hotter and faster like a predator about to pounce on its prey.His weight fell over me and his cold fingers caressed my bare body sending cold shivers down my spine. I gave up the struggle just laying there numb with my thighs spread apart for him to have his way with me.I had the out of body experience right there as the pain from my hurting head overwhelmed me but I realized he was done with me when he let out a soft whisper.

"Clean yourself up,you look so miserable." I laid motionless on the floor as I watched him walk out through the door, closing it behind himself.My whole life flashed before my eyes as I questioned myself on where I had gone wrong with Damian.I never imagined this predicament would be my lot for life.I felt exhausted,useless and abused in my own home.Damian had treated me like a woman without value,like I was always beneath him.I did my best but it still wasn't enough for him.We were supposed to enjoy making love to each other but this was far from love,it was an assault on my person.I let the tears from my eyes flow freely while still laying on the cold floor.After a while of deep thoughts, I finally found the strength to pick myself up and go for a shower.

Damian didn't show up for the rest of the night into the day and I didn't care to find out where he went.

I had bearly slept when suddenly it was dawn again,I had to be at work but I was resolved to return back on time to get adequate rest for my aching head.I prepared Zayn for school hoping that Damian would arrive in one piece but there was still no sign of him,his car was neatly parked in the car garage showing that he didn't take it along when he left the day before.I knew I had every reason not to be perturbed about his whereabouts but something in me still longed to know he was fine wherever he was.I stole a glance at Zayn as he waved me goodbye after I dropped him off at school.

{Ember's Office}

I arrived at work but I couldn't put pen to paper,I knew I needed to rest from all the pain and exhaustion I felt.I didn't have to say a word to Elena, she knew I was not myself.

"Ember,you look exhausted." Elena said as she took a long stare at me.I nodded in affirmation.I would always smile at work,always bubbly and lively but now the difference was so clear, I was indeed distracted.

"You need to rest and get yourself back." She concluded.I though about heading to Darcy's but I changed my mind.

I sat still on my office desk for a while meditating on all the recent happening in my marriage before I finally left for home.

{Griffin Mansion}

I arrived home and the house was eerily quite,I concluded Damian wasn't back yet.I dropped my coat and car keys on the table in the living room as I climbed up the stairs with my head still slightly hurting.

Then I heard it,a soft moan.I froze immediately.

I heard it again and loudly this time, I wasn't imagining it.The sound was real and it was coming from the room I shared with Damian.My fingers clenched the rails of the stairs but a cold dread forced me upwards.My steps became slow and delibrate, slowly I cracked the door open and the faint scent of strawberry and lavender fragrance filled the air-Those were my favorite candles,the same ones I had gotten for our anniversary dinner.

This time another voice came through the small cracked opening of the door as I stood beside it,it was a deep husky chuckle which sounded like Damian's.

"You are definitely sweeter and better than her." My stomach twisted in anger and I felt suffocated, my heart skipped a beat.Who was Damian talking to? My fingers trembled as I pushed the door wide enough to see what was going on inside the room.Then, my world shattered completely.