One more thing I have to be grateful for is that during the mating prep, almost everyone is busy doing something. Girls are going shopping and spending so much time as they can with their families because once they find their mates they are going to have to leave their families and start a new family with their mates and start having pups and all of that. So this is a really emotional time for all of us. Thats why they all have better things to do than focus on me and bully me. Although I catch the eyes of Jeremys friends on me. We lock eyes and before they can say anything to me I slip away into my history class. The whole day passes away uneventful till closing hour and thats when everything goes to hell. How could I think that they would forget about me and focus on each other when abusing me is the only personality trait they have.
But I guess I spoke too soon because they are both waiting for me along my way home.
I see them from afar and it is too late to turn around and take another route because they will just give chase and hunt me down anyways like it is a damn sick game. I square my shoulders and straighten my back to show that I am not intimidated. Even though I am shaking inside. I dont know what they want from me but it has never been good.
When I get closer to them I stand and look at them from a safe distance. They have this arrogant and sick smile on their face.
what do you want this time? I ask them.
They grin at each other and look at me.
you walk through the hallways with your shoulder up like you are a queen or something you are nothing. Nobody. We could kill you now and nobody would even bat an eyelash. You are nothing. joel says again and again.
It stings. There is never a time that it doesnt sting but I keep my face expressionless. They must not sense weakness or like lions they will pounce on their prey and I refuse to give them to satisfaction of seeing me squirm. Today wont be that day.
i dont have time for all of this right now so get whatever it is you want to say off your chest and go away. Go chase a ball or something. I tell them both with a straight face hoping that someone comes by and at least distract them long enough for me to make my escape. I dont know what they want from me are they bored or something?
shut up runt.. I dont know why Jerry hangs around you.. are yo putting out?? youre letting him f**k you thats why he hangs around you so much right? he asks stepping closer to me. I take a step back and look around again warily praying to the heavens that someone, anyone shows up and stop this whole situation from escalating quickly.