Chapter 58
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LILY's POV
I keep looking for him everywhere but I can't find him.
This is weird because this is when we should be together and find our mates.
People keep moving to each other and I can tell they can hear the chants of 'mate' in their heads telling them they should move to their mates. Not like me. I am still here. There's nothing in my head. I approach the fountain where I met him and his mother before and just as I enter the entrance of the grove I hear it clear as day in my head .
''mate' I hear loud and clear. This is strange.
There are a couple of people out there that are looking at me but it not them. I feel the pull and I hear his voice in my head too. He knows where I am. He should be heading my way right now.
My head is clouded, my wolf is there. I can feel her. What was the Oracle Saying?? That I didn't have a wolf? I have one. I can feel her inside me. She's calling for her mate too. She needs him. She needs him now.
I am practically panting with the need to touch him.
When I get to the fountain I see my mate there. Jeremy is my mate. Why am I not surprised?
There is no way he wasn't going to be my mate. We have been friends for years and no matter what people say I always knew deep down. I think he knew too. We both knew. Our bond was different and deeper. All those lingering touches and stares. It was like our wolves were trying to touch each other to connect or something.
He looks at me with his colored orange eyes, he knows.
"Mate" he whispers .
He takes a step in my direction but I am already running to him . This is it. Everything is right in my world again. I always knew deep down that he was the one. My one.
But suddenly I stop. This is not right.
My world halts.
Jenny? Jenny?? What is she doing??
I see her grab my mate and pull him back...
"Let go of him right now before I come and make you do it myself." I tell her gruffly. My voice doesn't sound like me anymore. My wolf is the speaking right now and I feel my body getting tight. It's like she's trying to break out and reach for Jenny.
The anger and rage pulsing through me rigtNko's is dangerous for her and anyone that wants to stand in between i and my mate.
I can feel people gathering to watch the event that's unraveling before them.
"What is going here?" I hear his mother say behind me. I ignore her.
"I won't tell you again Jenny. Get your filthy hands off my mate right now or I will make you get them off the floor with the rest of your body." I growl.
"Jeremy you can walk away from her to me you know...." I tell him.
He just stands there looking at me with anger, longing and defeat in his eyes .
"What is going on?" I ask for the last Time when he doesn't move to come get me. He is stronger than her so he can easily dislodge her hands why is he standing there letting her grope him.
"I want you to keep calm Lily." He says.
"What do you mean keep calm?? She has her hands on you and this is her last warning. I don't care that she's my sister I am going to hurt her if she doesn't let you go right now." I tell him looking into her pretty brown eyes. It's like now everything about him comes into focus. Like i am really seeing him for the first time. The way his hair frames his face and the smooth curve of his jaw; the wyd his eyes sparkle as they land on me and at the same time they are sad. I find myself wanting to grab him and take the sadness out of his eyes, to make him feel better for him to tell me why he is sad. I am here for him.
"I don't want you as my mate." He says gruffly. Like the words are being dragged out of his throat.
Everything quiets. My heart stops beating and I freeze.
Did he just ........ did he just..... did he just tell me that? No. Did Jeremy... did he just tell me that he doesn't want to be my mate? Maybe I heard wrong because there's no way he just told me he doesn't want me to be his mate.
This is me and this is Jeremy...
"What did you say?" I say softly and slowly.
My heart is not beating. I can't breathe.
This can't be happening to me. I look around. I turn on my feet. Everyone is looking at me. I can feel their eyes on me but I can't even see them. My gaze is blurry right now.
I smile a little. This must be a sick little joke.
"This is a joke right? A prank? One last prank to sate your thirsts right?"' I ask.
"No. Look at me Lily. This is not easy but I have to do it. It is what is best for the pack." He says firmly. But i can still see his wolf trying to fight for dominance. Some part of me wishes he will just stop this joke, this sick joke and come to me right now before I lose it.
"What are saying?? I don't understand? What are you saying to me right now? Is this a stupid game? Did your friends talk you into this? You need to stop this right now. It is not funny." I say trying to see though the haze of pain and anger.
"This is not a game and I wish you would listen to me so we can get over with this." He says through gritted teeth.
"You are not fit to be my mate. We need a strong Luna and you are not a strong Luna. You are a cursed white haired runt who will probably bring her curse upon her children. I don't want cursed children. We need strength but you don't even have a wolf." He says.
Every word is like a stab to the chest. The air comes out of me a big whoosh as I fall to my knees in pain.
This is a nightmare. Someone wake me up please.
I think he is going to stop there but he keeps going and it is like he is twisting the knife and digging it in. This is hurting me. Can't he see the pain he is causing me. My wolf whimpers. She's panicking. This is not how it is supposed to go.
"Why??" I whisper.
"Why what lily? You can't really think you can rule a pack by my side. You are not...... you are not just cut out for it." He says plainly.
My eyes find my sisters and she's staring at me with pity and indignation.
"You knew all this time... you knew. You were so nice to me today i knew that was just too good to be true. You knew that you were going to snatch my mate out of my hands." I tell her softly. I don't need to shout, it is so quiet here like everyone is trying not to lose a single word.
"What do you want me to say lily?" She asks sounding exasperated.
"What do I want you to say? What can you say to make this okay?? You have take me everything from me all my life but you were not happy right? You just wanted every last bit." I tell her.
"You have nothing that I want, what could you possibly have that I would fight or struggle for and Jeremy is an adult he can chose who he wants for his mate and he can reject you if you don't just cut it." She says shrugging.
"Ahhhh." I say.
"So... that's how it's going to be?!" I ask him .
He is avoiding my eyes. He can't look into my eyes. He is still fighting with his wolf and part of me is wishing he loses the fight and his wolf takes control. His wolf is going to come for me and take what he believes is his.
"Look at me." I call out to him.
He struggles.
His eyes meets mine, there is pain, resignation and disgust.... not at me. I know him so well, disgust at himself. He doesn't want to do this but he is doing it anyways.
"You don't have to do this you know right. We are meant to be together." I tell him one last time in an attempt to get him to come to me.
"I, Jeremy Adams, reject you Lily green as my mate..."
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