Breed by Alpha Jaxton

Chapter 68

Jaxton felt the earth shift beneath his feet. Never had he felt this need before, but seeing Lily, hearing her want to leave, it was making it impossible for him to fight. All this time he has been feeling like she is his and that’s why there was such a strong connection between them when he rescued her from her pack.

He came to a sudden stop, paws digging into the earth as he thought about Lily. A picture of her playing over his mind.

Since she arrived at his space he had avoided her. he’d stayed away, watched her, craved the few times he got to see her. The way she smiled, which lit up her whole face. Even when she frowned, she looked so f*****g cute. When she concentrated, from time to time, her tongue would stick out at the side, and she’d be so deep in thought, nothing would stop her. The pack loved her, and the truth was, so did he.

He did love her or at least he thinks he does. She is a radiant sunshine in the midst of the darkness that plagues him. He has too much darkness in him .

The moment he realized she was his mate, he knew he was lucky, but the moment he’d seen her, he’d also known he couldn’t have her.

Being the person to find his dad’s dead body had stuck with him. Under the pressures of being alpha, he’d promised himself he would never put that kind of life on his mate.

What Alpha Jaxton hadn’t expected was his feelings for Lily to be so strong especially after finding out hers her dad helped to take out his father and all that peace threaty bullshit was a cover for them to take out their competitors. He fought them on a daily basis. They never went away and only got stronger with each passing second. Some days he’d get close to her just to inhale her vanilla fragrance.

At full moons, he would follow her at a reasonable distance, just to keep an eye on her and to also make sure his wolf wouldn’t do anything crazy. So long as he followed his wolf and gave him what he wanted, there was never any backlash.

This was why his father’s line of men worked as the alpha. They didn’t fight their turning. They embraced every single part of their turning and their wolf. They weren’t two separate beings, but one united together.

He came to the edge of the clearing and collapsed back into that of a human. Taking a seat, he stared up at the sky. The full moon had already passed, but the sky was still beautiful.

“I thought I would find you out here.”

Decker didn’t need to turn to see Zane approaching. “What brings you here?” he asked.

They were best friends and he is his beta after all. He’d asked Zane to keep an eye Lily and he never complains because in as much as he pretends that she is a nuisance he can’t wait to get rid of he low key likes her and adores her anyways. If there was ever anything his mate needed, all lily needed to do was ask and Zane will provide.

“I wanted to talk to you.” Zane took a seat beside him and glanced up at the sky. “It really is so calm and cool, isn’t it? The full sky, the night breeze and the atmosphere making us all long for a time where we can bask in it in our true nature and be content.” He says.

“What do you want, Zane?” I ask him.

“Lilyis unhappy. She believes you will find your mate very soon, and when that happens, she doesn’t want to be responsible for what happens next.” He says.

“Does she think she will try to defend my honor?” The thought of Lily fighting for him, well, it made him very happy, but he knew deep down that he shouldn’t be smiling. This wasn’t a happy day.

Zane doesn’t say anything.

“You know Lily has been rejected once she won’t be rejected again and if you do reject her I don’t know if her wolf would survive it. There is a strong connection between the both of you don’t push it away and don’t run away from it.” He says

“That is just attraction talking. We can just f**k and get it over with.”

“I know what you think, but I don’t agree with you. Some of what she is feeling is the start of attraction coming together, but this is something more.” Zane sighed. “You need to either take her as your mate, Jaxton, or you will have to let her go.”

He shook his head. He could do anything but let her go.

The few times he got to see her were the best moments of his life. “She’s not leaving the pack.”

“And you’re not taking another mate.”

“Exactly. Tell her that.”

“Just how long do you think you can keep it up?”Zane said. “I’m not going to lie to you, Alpha. She is special and the goddess doesn’t make mistakes and we both know what happens when a wolf feels like it is losing.”

“I’m not going to lose. Nothing is going to happen. You need to stop worrying, and just help lily adapt.”

“Lily wants a family, Jaxton . She wants to fall in love, get married, have lots of babies. She was all alone. You know her story. Everyone knows her story.”

“Does she talk about her family?” he asked.

“The only family she has ever known is this one right here. She has no interest in anyone else. She wants to be a mother, and we both know she’d make a good one.”

“I’m not going to claim her, Zane.”

“Then to speak frankly, Alpha, you’re being an ass to her. She deserves the chance at happiness. So if you’re not going to be with her, set her free and allow her to find someone who will love her for her.” Zane got to his feet, brushed off his thighs, and stormed off.

He couldn’t let lily go.

Jaxton had spent way too long stopping everyone from getting close to her. He wasn’t going to allow another male to take what was his.

Some days later

“You look happy, what’s up? What are you happy about ?” Zane asked.

“I am not happy. I just enjoy watching you fumble as you try to teach the kids. You know you really have to be patient with them right?? You can’t just shout and expect them to fall in line like soldiers,” I tell him said, picking up some books that have fallen to the ground.

“And you have no desire to be here so what are you doing here ? ”Zane asked, taking a book from her hand and putting it back on the shelf.

“I didn’t do anything, okay?”

“It’s a Friday evening. You’ve been at the school everyday for the past week and if I didn’t have my men watching your every move I would say you are avoiding Jaxton.” Zane says. He is not wrong but I won’t admit to anything.

I shrug.

“And what if I am?” I ask with Another shrug.

“I‘ll say you are both stupid and weird people ,” Zane said.

I try to change the topic because all everyone seem to ask me about is Jaxton and all the time I don’t know what to say to them anyways because I don’t understand it too. Since Jeremy I never thought I will feel this way about someone like him. Now here I am again. Tired of running from the attraction and clueless on what to do with it.

“You’re not going to ask about all of the other jobs I do around the pack?” I ask him

“Now, you do surprise me lily green, I didn’t think you saw the life you live with the pack as a job.”

I groan. “I don’t, okay? You know I love helping everyone. It’s why I don’t have one specific job. I like to be available to help everyone and everything.” She loved the pack unlike her old pack everyone here likes her and seem to be fascinated with her. She felt good all the time and the kids loved talked to her and braiding her hair. What’s not to like ??

Even though, some of the caregivers hate that the kids hang around her so much instead of paying attention and she had still loved everyone else. “I need to leave.”

“Why do you have a sudden desire to leave? You’ve stayed for two months with no real issues. Where is your passion coming to leave?”

She stared at Zane and went to him. Taking hold of her hands, she smiled at the grumpy man.

“I know you have sworn off relationships and all men,lily , but believe me, I … I want you to have a family. I want you to fall in love and to know what it is like to bear a child.” He says looking at me with so much affection.

“Living here, waiting, watching and hoping for something better. No one is willing to ask me out on a single date.” I tell him.

“You’re twenty years old you’re still young and you still have so much to live for if you want it and if you keep hoping for the best things in this life.” He says not letting go of my hands.

“I know, and I don’t want to miss a single moment of my life. I’m getting older, and I want to have children. I want to be a mother and help raise children with my mate or at least someone who cares about me.” I let Zane go and step back.

“No man wants me here. My time of watching Jaxton, of waiting for him to change his mind, is just too much to me. I’ve got to move on somehow, and if that is by leaving this pack I have to take that step, then so be it.”

“You know men are not asking you I put because he has chased all of them away from you. Actually last week Hugh from training spoke about taking you about but then all of a sudden he changed his mind and asked Josie instead.” He says.

“That doesn’t mean Jax warned him off. It just means he has other options.” I tell him even when my heart starts beating faster.

Part of her wanted Jaxton go because she was scared of being hurt again but to let him go would mean to give up hopes on a beautiful future with him. To finally cast her out of the pack, and the other part, the part of her that hoped and prayed he would finally mate with her, didn’t want to leave.

No, the truth was that she wanted Jaxton to finally come to his senses and to see that they could be good together. Better than good.

“Are you okay?”Zane asked.

“Yes, I’m fine.”

“I’m about to close up for the day. You know I have to take additional rests after each full moon and these kids tire me out. I hate helping Helen but she needs the help birthing pups is not easy. They eat all the time and they grow even faster than normal human kids which means two times the normal work.” He says.

“I should drop by and bring her some flowers and cake. She loves my chocolate cake.” I tell him.

“We all love your chocolate cake. You should make more than one.” He says nonchalantly but I can see his eyes sparkle at the mention of cake. The greedy boy.

I don’t even call him out I just smile at him and shake my head. Men will be men. I give Zane a hug, grab

my bag, hug some kids , and leave the building.

The sun had been high up the sky this very day, and it had made for some really hot weather. She loved the heat. She loved the rain and the snow. There were many things about life here she loved and enjoyed.

Pulling the strap of her bag onto her shoulder, she made her way toward the town.

Misha kept her head down as she passed the town square, heading around the back of the library, and across the parking lot, toward the pack house.

She was near her door when someone grabbed her arm and spun her around.

“Do you think this is funny?”

She came face to face with Jaxton . His touch set her body on fire. In an entirely good way.

She shouldn’t care for his touch. With the way he kept his distance from her, her body should at least not betray her. Only, she craved his touch and his warmth and his smell. He smelt like the most perfect thing in the world.

Gritting her teeth, she hoped to keep control of all her senses and not to beg him for more. She would never live that down. “What the hell do you think you’re doing?” she asked.

Glancing down at where he held her, she made sure to glare at that very spot.

“Damn it, Lily, why can’t I stop thinking about you? What have you done to me?” he asked.

The growl in his voice shouldn’t be tempting, but it sent a shiver of pleasure rushing down my spine.

Did Jax know she was a virgin? Completely untouched? She had never even kissed another man, and here she was, pretty much begging for his attention. It was only Jeremy she ever loved and he rejected her anyways. The only man she had ever wanted to sleep was standing in front of her now and he was touching her and she wanted him to touch her even more dammit. But won’t she be giving him even more excuse to run away from her if she tells him that she’s a virgin.

“Do you think I’m so childish I’ve got time to play games?” She pulled out of his hold.

With his touch gone, she was able to think clearly.

Staring at him, she had no choice but to tilt her head back, he was that tall. Damn it, why did he have to be sexy and hot too? He is so f*****g hot all over. s**t. How can she resist him when he looks like this??

Jaxton was a fine specimen of a man. All hard muscles and raw edges. She had seen him without a shirt on. A while ago, he was coming back from a run and he looked so foot half naked with his chest bare and his torso open to the wind racing through his hair and giving the tousled just rolled out of bed look.

The temptation to grab him and run my hands through his hair and watch all his heavily inked muscles on display had been so hard to resist.

She didn’t ogle him for long or he would have caught her with his precise stare he would have been able to tell that she was wet and ready for him to take her hard and fast. but she had wanted to. It wasn’t fair that he was able to ignore her so well, and she found each passing day harder to ignore him.

“Why are you not being … you?”

“You ignored me for the past week and avoided me, you acted like I didn’t exist and you pushed me on to Zane like I am a kid and he is my babysitter and worst of all you keep chasing men away from me and you don’t even want me. I help out with the pack, but I want to leave. I will get what I want, and to do that, everyone is going to have to start getting used to me not being here again. I have not stayed here for long too though so it’s okay.” I tell him getting angry at his whole treatment of me.

Just saying the words out loud was enough to make her sick to her stomach. She didn’t want to leave anyone. The pack finally felt like home. Here she didn’t need to try so hard. They just embraced her. Although they were wary of her before but over time they embraced her and welcomed her in with open arms when they realized she wasn’t a threat and even though some women were resentful to her thinking she was there to snatch their Aloha but she wasn’t at first and she just wanted to be happy but now she just wanted him to kiss her and touch her again. It was unlike anything she has ever felt before. Different and good.

Sinking her teeth into her bottom lip, she tried to control her emotions.

With Jax so close, she couldn’t help but run her gaze all the way down his body. He was dressed in a pair of jeans and a grey tee shirt that just screamed hard-working man. The shirt molded his body and showed all the ridges and contours of his hard muscles. It’s like he did it on purpose to get a stir out of her.

Her p***y grew wet, and her n*****s tightened. This was the first time her body had awakened in front of him and he knows about it because his eyes widen and he can definitely smell her wetness. Hands clenched into fists, she took a step away. She didn’t want him when he still felt like it was a bad idea. She wanted him certain of her so he doesn’t reject her when he is done with her.

Jaxton’s eyes flashed blue, and she couldn’t help but gasp. His wolf was close. The tension in the air mounted. The scent of his wolf filled her senses.

Give into him.

Bend over, let him have you. Grab his neck and kiss him, sink your teeth inside of him and pull from his Essence.

Beg. That’s all that is going through her head right now.

Unlike her, her wolf had a little more restraint. After being denied for so long her hussy of a wolf was ready to jump his bones right there and then.

Jax was not going to see her lose her mind, and she wasn’t going to allow herself to be rejected a second time.

Jax wouldn’t turn this into some sick game and lead her on again only to disappear for another week till he thinks it’s time to play with her again.

“You can’t keep me here, Jax ,” she said. “You’re going to see that. I am good to go now and i think it is time I moved on.” I tell him.

“You’re going to piss off the pack?” He asks.

“Not the pack, just you.” I winked at him and couldn’t resist kissing the tips of her fingers and blowing him a kiss just to tease him and make him angry too at the same time. Why not? It is fun.

It was her parting to him as she turned her back on him.

Come after me.

Take me.

Fuck me.

Claim me.

Love me.

Just touch me. A kiss will do!!!!!

Jax didn’t do any of those things as she got into her room. Just as she knew he would. And a little of her heart broke as she entered her room. Staying in the same building as him does hurt like a motherfucker.

He’d seen her. There were many times he’d watched her with his hand wrapped around his d**k, admiring the view. He was a sick f**k. She was too young for him and she had gone through so much already. He wouldn’t burden her with his lust! He could never. But he could. He was lying to himself. He wanted to. He needed to. To touch her, graze her face and have her want him in equal measure was messing with his head. He had made a vow to himself to protect her from pain.

Lily was going to be the death of him if he wasn’t careful. She clearly found it good to torture him with the aroma of her wetness.

She didn’t want to stay anymore, she wanted to leave. Some of the ladies have been complaining that she doesn’t help out with chores.

It was his job to keep the peace. He couldn’t believe how much havoc his father had wrecked on the pack , and he didn’t realize how much Lily helped to center him and help him not to lose his cool. Just by breathing her scent it does that to calm his wolf.

No one was willing to do all the work and take on the responsibility of fixing the whole place. They were happy with him taking on the role for everyone and everything.

Running his fingers through his hair, he stepped into the bar, and the moment he did, he spotted lily. She wore a dress that clung to every curve of her body.Lily had always been the kind of person to hide her body. She was shy and insecure but she is not that woman right now. The woman I am looking at is anything but shy and insecure.

The bodice of her dress seemed to be tight over her t**s, and it pushed them up, giving an amazing sight of her cleavage. His d**k started to swell at the sight, and life was just not fair. His body wasn’t playing fair with him right now.

All he wanted to do was drag her away from the crowd and f**k her hard.

Do it. Make her ours. His wolf was getting tired of waiting. He was tired of not saying f**k it to hell and just claiming her.

They were starting to get overwhelming. Each time he looked at Lily, he imagined her full and ripe with his child. He wanted to pump his c*m deep inside her p***y, to fill her up until she had no choice but to get pregnant.

Not only did he want to f**k her raw, he couldn’t help but look at her mouth and think about those plump lips wrapped around his length, or how tight her asshole would be opening up to his d**k.

There was so much he wanted to do to her.

To f**k her. To put his c*m into every single available hole in her body.

He wanted his scent all over her. Marking her so all other males knew she was owned.

Lily was on the dance floor, her arms up in the air as the music filtered through the speakers. There was no live band. Sometimes the pack would get together and put on a live performance, but not today.