TEARS

~Victory odele~ My name is Victory odele.I am the only child of my parent. My father died when I was at the age of 15, that was the age I finished my senior secondary School waec and we were left behind to suffer the threats of life. My mother is a prayer warrior who firmly believe in God. She taught me many things in my tender age and ensured that I was being trained in accordance with God's word. She always tell me to avoid bad friends because bad friends corrupt good manners.she bore all my responsibilities and promised to enroll me in the higher institution. She hustled and borrowed money just for the achievement of my ambition in entering higher institution;Atlas it was a success. Here I am in another world, Studying medicine and surgery in the university of Cambridge. At first I was eager to meet new fans but I remembered the words and advise of momma "Never be too anxious to make new fans, Not every body is allowed to be in ur friendship lest they destroy thy ship and you sink into the sea"; Remembering all these made me to focus on my purpose of coming to school. In my department, I was the most brilliant, Every other students were looking up to me,To become like me but yet I was never associating with all who came to me. Words and rumours started going round the school that I was prided,yet I listened to no one. Every Friday and Saturday after lecture, I was always going to scripture union as instructed by momma.  But the drumbeat changed when I allowed myself to become social in the school. At first, my sociality started with my roommate whose name is fedric. We usually go to lectures together and she also study the same course with me, I made her my bestie, not because she was brilliant but because she was very kind and generous. My friendship with her later became a daily talk in the school. My vision towards her was to establish her in the same Christian fellowship wit me not knowing that she was a "wolf in sheep's clothing". Deep inside of her she was boiling to establish me to her side but I never knew until one faithful night around 10pm, she woke up and took her bath, after dressing up,she called "Hi, Vicky, I am going out for a night part. Do you mind going with me? She asked. At first, I thought it was a joke but I never knew she was serious, she kept on speaking until I saw the seriousness in her. "Fedi but when did this night party of a thing started? I asked looking at her But she smiled and walked out of the room. I couldn't believe what happened.i entered into prayers and started praying on her behalf. Around 5am in the morning, I heard a knock at the door,I opened behold,Fedi,she was drunk and used. "FEDI what happened to you? I shouted But she paid no attention to my words because she was under the influence of alcohol. Later in the morning, She woke up from sleep,we greeted each other and I tried to discuss with her based on last night but she gave no ears to my words. Her lifestyle this time was changing, The fans she now walks with were all seductive, I preached and preached but she was eardulll to my words. All these continued happening but I never stopped loving her because she was my bestie, my love for her was excess, my friendship with her was strong so I couldn't hate her despite of what was happening. One faithful night reached,we were both studying in our department around 9pm,I told her that it's already too late but she insisted that we should study more because our exam is at hand; at first I didn't agree with her but I later agreed to her opinion just because of the love I have for her,we continued studying until I slept off in the process. The time was now 11:30pm and there was no vehicle moving around at that time. When I woke up, I checked the time, behold and behold,it was a late hour. "Fedi!!!" I shouted. "Why shouting my name that way nah? She said waking up from her pretentious sleep I told her the time is late, how are we going to get a vehicle,are we going to spend the night here? Words were already too much on my mouth and our house is very far from our school,I started weeping but she told me to stop behaving like a kid, she will definitely provide a place safe for us. We started leaving the school environment, heading to a place that I do not know. My mind was not calm My spirit was never with me And that point I was already planning on how to separate from her Behold we entered into one environment "Fedi where is these and what are we doing here? I asked  But she told me to calm down, I was sheepishly following her. We entered the environment and she started knocking at the door,a young guy opened the door and she hugged her,I wanted to start going back to the school but she called me, telling me to be matured for once.i have to obey her just because of the love I have for her. We entered the room,I saw another 3 boys who were there, drinking and smoking,the room was so uncomfortable to me,yet I managed to endure. Heaven was speaking to me to leave the room but the voice of fedi kept on holding me. The young boys there were already admiring my beauty but I was too dull to respond to their words. Fedi and the other guy entered inside the room and I was left alone with the three young boys. Thoughts were already running all over my mind,oh before I could know it, they descended on me 3 boys r***d me that night,I was used and dumped. I ran out of the house; walking alone on the lonely main road,tears keep rolling on my smoothly cheeks Oh I have failed my creator I have failed my momma  What will I narrate?? As I walked alone on the road, thoughts of momma kept on running all over my mind. She hustled to helped me, she hustled to enroll me into higher institution. All these thoughts kept on pondering my mind.