Her Secret Desires

movie night

Please be advised that this chapter contains mature contents. The following events relate to the evolution of the characters' romantic development. Enjoy

Nel's pov

I had tried to date once, a little over a year ago. Miles Brennon, he was a sweet

guy, 6 feet tall with hazel eyes and red hair down to his thick eyebrows. He was loaded, coming from old money.

But he was shy around me, which I found so adorable. Miles was very handsome, almost as handsome as the guys were. I gave him my first kiss. He was so gentle with me. A gentleman in all senses of the word.

Unfortunately, we didn’t date long. I had said yes to him in an attempt to try to get over West and the boys. I felt guilty using him like that. Kissing and holding hands occasionally was the farthest we went. He never complained, which made me feel worse.

The guys, for some reason, hated him, which annoyed me. But I had come to terms with how I was feeling, and we ended it cordially. We were together for a month. I cried the night we broke up. Not because It didn't need to end but because I would never be able to let the guys go.

Everything with Silas was so new to me, erotic and intense. I did not know a person's touch in this way before, igniting my desires. I couldn't ever imagine the things I’ve experienced… I felt would ever be possible.

I now understood why they said that no one could handle "it." I was terrified

my first time. His dominance… His size was..large. Painful and yummy. I was learning things about myself that I never knew.

One being I liked a little pain… and Silas never hesitated on sedating my every fantasy. Desires I didn’t even know that I

hungered for.

I have found myself completely in love with him, and it was intense. I knew he did, too, yet his was a furious inferno, and I welcomed the engulfing affection he gave in every possible way.

Most importantly, I loved that although I was his. It didn’t change me the four best

friends' unconventional dynamic, which seemed to be… changing, which he encouraged.

(Flashback) 1 year ago

I'm on the couch watching one of my favorite love stories of all time with Ryan Goslin and Rachel McAdam. Sniffling wrapped in a blanket. Kil is on my right. Completely focusing on the movie.“Why

would she listen to her father if Noah meant that much to her?” Kil said.

His words vibrated against my head as I lay on his chest while he played with my hair. “Noah could have stood up for her.'' I

said “ He was just doing the right thing by her” he said.

Kil and I loved a good romance movie. No one outside the group would have ever believed bad boy Kil would be into tear droppers. It was a privilege that only we in the circle would experience. He was a teddy bear at heart.

Which I would never say out loud. My left leg was on a sleeping West’s lap. His big hand, on top of my thigh, so it didn’t fall off. While his left hand is on my ankle, where

he was massaging.

Silas's hands were on my right calf, making circular motions while he sat on the floor in front of me. Aubrey was resting her back and her head on Kil's shoulder, sleeping.

It was Movie night monday, and I was my turn to pick the movie tonight. So we sat huddled together. The apartment was enormous, and there were empty couches on the side, but this was how we always ended up.

We were an affectionate bunch. Touching was a form of dialog.

As we watched the movie, I began to lose my focus. Silas's touches were simple, direct, and very, very distracting. But there was more to his caresses than normal, causing goosebumps to form all over my

body.

I tried to remove my leg from Sila’s grip. I looked at him, not understanding the joke. But he just raised his eyebrows, playing innocent. I glanced inconspicuously at Kil while he leisurely stroked my hair.

Kil was still watching the movie. His complaining had turned into grumbles of annoyance. He really did like the movie.

Silas hand was now under my blanket, caressing higher and higher slowly leading up to where my thighs parted. My eyes

fluttered, as I tried not to close them from the pleasure. While my lips parted ever so

slightly. I was so confused and so aroused by what was happening.

What was happening? Did I want him to stop or keep going? I didn’t understand what my body was doing. Yet I knew what it was saying ‘keep going’. ‘Don’t stop’.

His hands were so big and warm. He had

differently grown into an even more sexy rugged version of his old self, and I was not complaining. Especially with his hand between my warm legs.

Silas's hands kept going up higher until he reached my inner thigh, then he squeezed it, and I all but moaned, telling me that this was really happening. I opened my eyes, not even realizing that they had closed on their own.

I was met with his heated, lustful storm eyes. His eyes were intense, and they gave a sense of promise in them. My breathing picked up, and I had to bite my lip to try to keep my composure.

Silas’s juicy lips lifted up into a smirk as he stared at me, my reactions with mischievously glint in his eyes. I couldn’t think straight as he stroked my skin, leading to my warm wet valley.

Kil was still rubbing my scalp. The twins' hands felt so good. How on earth had no one notice what was going on, especially when I was so, so close to coming? My core was so wet. I wanted it, I want

it.

Sh*t there was nowhere left for him to roam except my pegging fold. I clench my hand in a fist. I tried to control my lustful thoughts. I just wanted to push his fingers up.

He was so close. So very close. He stroked harder. His thumb was just a half centimeter away, oh g*d!! I began to try to rub my legs together. But for some reason West’s hand had an iron grip, and I couldn't move my leg.

I needed just a little friction on my wanting cl*t. I finally felt the heat of his thumb on my bottom lips. This was it! It was like a ghostly caress. But just like that, he pulled away completely. What the actual hell?!..

I was so shocked and frustrated! His smile grew wider as he played with his thumb that was so close to my fold on his lips. Starting at the erotic act. I felt heat rising to my face.

I knew my face was red like a beat tomato

from embarrassment. I don’t know what got into him! Ugh, I don’t know what got into me! I got up and made my way to the bathroom so that I could clean myself off.

Maybe I heard wrong, but I could have sworn I heard someone say “that was so fu**king hot.”

I finally came out of the bathroom to Silas standing in front of the door.