Her Secret Desires

The new girl

Nel's pov

I thought about what had happened on my way to my apartment. I was so aroused. I couldn't sleep. Images of West played in my head. As I lay on my bed, I imagine him climbing on me. His lips close to my ear as he spread my thighs apart for him.

I was soaking with the images that kept playing in my head... what I saw tonight. I was a virgin, but I knew how to please myself. I couldn’t contain the need to appease my demanding core. I was never clim*x hard before.

Yet I was glad that I saw West in the arms of another girl. Well, between the legs of the girl. I couldn't lie it hurt a little. But now I had to put this old crush away. West wouldn't be mine. Plus, I didn’t have it long, only two years…. Ok, that's a long time.

but I would have hated it if that feeling went future, and then something happened like… Oh, I don’t know, like, me becoming the

next flavor of the day…. I’d lose one of my best friends. Nothing was worth that.

They had been with me since I was seven, and we protected each other. I couldn’t have gotten through my parents' accident if it

wasn’t for those four. We were protective of each other, goofy and very affectionate toward one another. Some may say too much. But we didn't care..

It was comical watching girls throw themselves at the boys. The twins in particular. Silas gave no reaction to them, just a political smile. Kil would be bored with the girls getting more and more annoyed with their persistence, accepting the ones who just wanted him to f**k them behind the bleachers.

Yet when the group was together, it was all laughing. Sila’s dimples would show... they were so sexy. Kil’s dimples were slightly deeper, tempting, and biteable.

The hate and the disgust I received from the other girls were so tangible and laughable. They glared at me but dare not say

anything in fear of repercussions from the guys and their family. So they settled on gossiping.

I had my experience with gossip in school. The name calling became worse after my parents died. It was like I had become free game to them. “You can't hide behind daddy’s money now” Brittany said to

me one time, with a way too sweet smile.

It made no sense to me. I had never told my parents what went on in school, so why would that affect me now? Plus, I was still financially well off. Even if I couldn’t access the full amount inheritance until I was twenty-one, which didn’t bother me in the slightest.

What baffled me most was the notion that I ever became alone. Life would be much easier for them if they got it through their skulls. I was a package deal.

To be clear, I didn’t need protection, but I had more than enough. A few jocks had made a lapse in judgment a few weeks back at West’s Party by trying to make me more… “cooperative” one night.

They attempted to slip something into my drink when they thought I wasn’t looking. West beat the sh*t out them, the guys were pissed.

They were pissed with me, too, because I tried to hide what happened. I really hated getting on West and Kil’s bad side. Aubrey fussed at me for putting myself in danger.

Silas…. he was the worst. His silent treatment lasted for a week. It would have been longer, I couldn’t take it anymore and cried. Silas hated it when I cried. I hated it when they were mad at me. I don't know why I could literally get on each nerve.

But when they were really mad, all I wanted to do was make them forgive me in any way I could. I wanted them to feel better, to make them happy by any means. When they were displease with me... It drove me crazy.

My phone beeps. It was a text from Aubrey.

“ Where are you bit**, I can't cover for you forever!”

“I’m around the corner” I text her

“Thank god, I’ll see you soon than” she wrote

“Bit**, witch Brit is all over the guys again. You would think they would be able to smell desperation” she continued

Aubrey is the new addition to our little group. We met our sophomore year. She had just moved to Crestbourne. It was the talk of the town. In Crestbourne, everyone knew everyone. Especially in high society, her father ran a lucrative home security company.

I knew that it wasn't fun being talked about in town. Suprising we hit it off instantly. we've been inseparable ever since. Aubrey is a little rough on the edges, but she has a big heart..well to people that she deemed worthy. I was glad I was on the list as a worthy candidate.

With blue, flowy hair past her shoulders and blue eyes that looked like the rarest blue diamond. Aubrey had an edgy aesthetic with choker and combat boots. I bet the same is true today.

It was her signature fashion piece. She was edgy and had curves for days. You would think she was a 5’5 "Victoria's Secret model with beautiful pouty lips that always smelled of strawberry flavored. I always

caught the guys checking her out. She was a temptress to every man and woman and a reckoned to be feared.

She was a bi**h to most, but a total sweetheart to me for some reason. She made a few girls, run away crying. They 'accidentally' spilled milk on me at lunch. But I still felt a little bad for them. It

was brutal. “They had it coming.” she would say.

I was looking at my text from Aubrey when I turned the corner and banged right into a wall. I was so confused. Was I really that clumsy today? It's just great! I have to hurry!

I picked up my phone and my bookbag off the floor. “Are you all right? I'm so sorry” said a deep voice. He sounded familiar. I looked up and saw Jeff from the football team with concern in his eyes.