The Journey Of a Silver Wolf

Chapter Six - Future Memories

* Soaria *

Solitude

It is a word that makes people feel bad. Some are looking out for it because they are hurt, and they just need time to repair their broken pieces of glass by caling it life. But there are always people who lived in loneliness for too long, and now the only thing they really want is not being lonely. Believe me I was once there, traped inside of the lion's den trying desperately to get out. Now the lion's den is the only thing keeping me alive. Well if we don't count the devices that are always beeping near my ears. Which is such annoying to listen to it day and night. Maybe two days straight. But maybe it is what I deserve. After all I am nothing more than a pathetick and scared Luna. If I didn't provoke Chuck everything would be alright. Maybe there would be a war but Isa wouldn't be harmed. I would be still me. The self where I am silent on the outside but screaming and scratching inside. If anybody thought that I am tought as the female heroes in fairy tales then they are horibbly wrong. Do you know the animal called Ardwark? Well I'm like it. I am completely fine with the one I love and cherish, but when Chuck comes in I run and hide so he can't find or see me. Well I don't mean like literally hide, but I just take my lively self which is always happy,smiling or giglling and switch

it with the side that is liked by Chuck. The side where I am always silent,sad, with no-emotional look,submissive or clearly broken. That is who I am and who I was supposed to be. But now nothing matters. I am alive. Hopefully. It's hard to explain. Let's just say that by remembering what he did to me drains all the blood from my face, and makes me feel like a corpse. Living corpse of course.

“Doctor, I'm her best friend. Please tell me what's wrong with her.”

Even the words of my friends, family or just acquaintances are so distant but so close in the same time.You know I can hear them so clearly yet so badly. Maybe a little nap help me get my strength back. Just for once I will let myself sleep with the feeling of being safe in the embrace of my second home called hospital. Even tho I am in coma my mind isn't. And learly it has it's own opinion on sleep. After all, one brief blink of an eye won't hurt me. Let's hope so.

* In Soaria's dream *

Where am I? Everything looks so ... so enchantly. This is for sure my paradise garden. The only thing that's missing is Coldplay sinnging Paradise. But even without that song it is a dreamy place. It looks like painting. There are meadows decorated with wild flowers, roses, dandelions, bluebells and many other in every posibble colour. There is so many of them that even if you wanted to count or name every little flower you couldn't. Every meadow meets each other in one point, and that is an enromous crystal lake. From my spot I see how the lake reflects light or just diferent shapes of trees with flowers, so it looks like it is made from little crystals. The shapes look like art. It is like looking at something throught glass. But the glass is translucent. Like windows in church. Behind the lake is a forest. It is maybe made of spruce and oak trees. What makes me a little uneasy is ten little humans with wings made out of te finnest material I have ever saw dancing around the crystal lake. And mostly the woman standing on the the water. Maybe I am so crazy that I see avatar in a real life. The woman is gorgeous. Long and curly silver hair is decorating her flawless snow white skin which is decorated with glimmery crystals. Her long white dress is coming to her heels and is ending somewhere deeply in the lake which is only making her look more like some godness. The flowness of the material of

her dress is curving in the water while the part of it on her back which looks looks like a cape is flowning in the wind while it reflects the sunrais. Really interesting material. I know a lot of materials for dresses because of Isa, but this one is clearly something else. After all it isn't even taking her down the water because that the normall clothes or materials do in water. Even the colour of it. I've never seen such white dress. Wait what am I doing looking at someone while I should be thinking about where am I and how will I get home. And as I'm looking around I see no one else, so the only way I can get my answer is by asking her. Let's hope she speaks english. The moment I walked up to her she turned around as if she knew I was there. Interesting but creepy.

“Uh, good day ma'am, could you pleae tell me where are we? ”

I asked her my question and now I only need to wait. While I was waiting I fastly looked at her. She looks a lot like me. We have the same hair colour and eye colour and same face features. Creepy. I feel like I know her,like her being part of me. Why?

“Interesting. Dear maybe the answer you are seeking is not in your mind but in you .”

her dress is curving in the water while the part of it on her back which looks looks like a cape is flowning in the wind while it reflects the sunrais. Really interesting material. I know a lot of materials for dresses because of Isa, but this one is clearly something else. After all it isn't even taking her down the water because that the normall clothes or materials do in water. Even the colour of it. I've never seen such white dress. Wait what am I doing looking at someone while I should be thinking about where am I and how will I get home. And as I'm looking around I see no one else, so the only way I can get my answer is by asking her. Let's hope she speaks english. The moment I walked up to her she turned around as if she knew I was there. Interesting but creepy.

“Uh, good day ma'am, could you pleae tell me where are we? ”

I asked her my question and now I only need to wait. While I was waiting I fastly looked at her. She looks a lot like me. We have the same hair colour and eye colour and same face features. Creepy. I feel like I know her,like her being part of me. Why?

“Interesting. Dear maybe the answer you are seeking is not in your mind but in you .”

“Wait, what do you mean by that? Can you read my mind? ”

“Everything will be found once you deep down dear. And to answer your firstquestion this is my home. Our home.”

She is so catchy. And what does she mean by our home. I have never lived here. What does she want me to know by poeting and phrasing? But mostly what does she mean by it is our home. I live in the reality with Isa that i***t and my pack. Of course it is beautiful here, and I would like to live here but my home is somewhere else.

“Dear, I can't keep you here any longer. Everything has its own time and place. And maybe one day we will meet again. Have a nice way back to reality to your friend.”

Wait what! What is happening! Am I really vanishing?!

“Oh, I almost forgot. Little girl be ready and strong.”

* The end of the dream *

Ever since the dream ended everything has evaporated with me and instead of the paradise garden I see blackness, I don't even know for how long and finally I can open my eyes. At the first sight everything is white and bright. The walls are white, my bed is white, the floor is white. God so much white. What did I do to get to a hell wrapped in white colour. Like I know hospitals are mostly white and have white rooms but it is so depresing can't there be like brown or green rooms.

“Hey oldienow for real and last, tell me where is she and what's up with her. If you won't I promise you on hair of my mother that I will bite you and get my informations with you or not “

Oh, my God, Isa. If I was able to stand and walk I would go there and slapped you both. Don't get me wrong docotr but she will bite you if she says so.

“That is what you call work Mr. uhh ... Chester? Do you have your soulmate ? Oh you do, and does your soulmate know how mutch your mouth smells. You should brush them five times a day. I can't even get myself tothink you kiss her with that mought of yours. “

Okay this was something else. Keeping my laughter at bay was never my thing, maybe that's why Isa came running in like her life dependet on it. Well as posibble as she could because she fell with cruntches on the ground and when she stood up she laid on a bed near by and turned to me.

“You are so interesting yet so annoying kind Isa.”

“I know thank you, but that isn't esential, but it is you being alive and awake! ”

Finally? Really like I know everyone loves me but a few hours won't kill them.

“What are you trying to say Isa?”

“Well, it's a little complicated.”

“And what does that mean ,complicated, ?”

“Well, that means thatyousleptforamonth.”

“What I didn't heard the end goodly. Try to say it slower.”

“Well you slept for one month straight.”

Now there is place for the blessing of godds for me or maybe a good old wake up call.

“ Good joke. “

Please start laughing. That was a clear joke. I'm sure it was a joke. I would never slept for a mont. That's not possible.

“A month?!”

“Well yeah.”

God, I can stab her. Really just this time, then I'll never do it again.

“Isa, what happened while I was in coma?”

“Uh there is a new Alpha and Bet, and the Alpha said that there won't be any ritual until you won't wake up. And the pack is a wreck he doesn't have a mate and he is making this hell for us.”