In all honestly I don’t know why we keep heading down this road. It’s like everytime we see eachother we can not keep our hands to ourselves. This, this right here is not healthy but i can't help myself. I am drawn to the man I know in my gut that would never be mine. He absolutely can not be mine. He is Cole’s dad for christ sake. Yeah he wasn’t there for him in the beginning but he is there for him now, and I do not want to make him feel like he would have to choose between his own son and me I just wouldn’t do that to him. Rubbing my hands down my face f**k this is so f*****g fustrating. We hadn’t seen each other since the whole tying me up on his desk in his office back at the hospital not even a single text but I needed this little break to clear my mind and to find myself and figure
