I See You

The Secret Garden

"Dean come on!" I was beginning to get very frustrated now. The mayor just opened up a new park and I wanted nothing but to have a nice picnic, take pictures and spend time with the love of my life but nooo, Dean Anderson had other plans

"Amelia, baby. You know I'd love nothing more than to spend the day with you but I don't like parks" He said for the tenth time this morning and buried his stupid head under the pillows and I rolled my eyes

"Babe, for me?" I said but he didn't budge "Look at me, I'm all dressed up, I even got my hair done just so we could spend time together and you don't want to?" I asked and he revealed his face, green eyes staring back into mine as I gave him a pout "Pleaseee" I dragged and he lazily ran his hand through his hair and threw though duvet away from his body and let out a loud groan

"Fine" He groggily said and I squealed and ran to him, showering him with kisses and he wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me towards him, causing him to fall back on the bed with me on top of him.

I admired his face and watched as he stared into my eyes before lifting his hand and drawing imaginary circles on my shoulder.

He leaned in and kissed my shoulder blade, then my neck, causing me to moan but I stopped and forced myself out of his hold

"Nope, not today Dean" I warned and stood up from the bed, smoothening my dress

"Not even one kiss?" He asked and I turned to see him giving me the same pout I gave him earlier

"No Dean" I chastised as I walked to the bathroom and puffed up my afro in the mirror a bit before walking out and seeing him in nothing but a towel. "We both know how that would end" I said and eye r***d him for a bit

"You say that like it's a bad thing" I heard him say but my eyes were still travelling down his body, the perfectly sculpted 'v' that threatened to show what was hidden behind that grey towel

"Hey princess" Dean called out and I hummed in response "Eyes up here" I felt my cheeks heat up but I cleared my throat and walked to the door

"20 minutes. Nothing more nothing less" I ordered and he turned back and started calculating something in the air before looking at me and smiling

"So that'll be 2 hours your time, yes? Okay" I ran to him so fast but he shut the door and I pounded my fist on it

"Dean Anderson! I swear to God" but he turned the shower on and began whistling to himself

I growled and stormed out of the room. I just finished with the picnic basket and I applied a fresh coat of lip-gloss since the first coat had dried off. Everything was set and perfect

All that was missing was-

"Babe, you ready?"

Dean.

A smile was on my face as I turned to him but it dropped when I saw what he was wearing

"Really?" I asked and he gave me a blank look

"Grey joggers and a white shirt? ughh" I groaned and turned away from him grabbing the picnic basket

"What?" He came up behind me and engulfed me in a warm hug that I secretly liked but didn't show

"What do you mean 'what'? I'm here dressed up and you couldn't even make an effort" I heard him sigh and turn me around so I was facing him

"It doesn't matter Amelia" I scrunched my face up and put a hand on my hip

"Really, it doesn't? And why is that" He leaned down and buried his head in my neck

" 'Cause you're so fine you make me look good" I rolled my eyes and pushed him away

"That was weak. You're slipping Anderson" I said with a slight smirk "Do you really get girls with lines like that? " He let out a loud laugh, flashing me his dimple on his right cheek

"I got you" My jaw literally dropped

I scoffed and turned away from him, heading towards the door

"Oh come on, don't be like that Lia" He cooed but I didn't listen.

I didn't hear him as he walked behind me but felt as he hoisted me up, carrying me in bridal style as I let out a gasp

"Now about that park...do they a private section?" He said and wiggled his brows suggestively at me and I swatted his chest

"Dean"

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"Ms. Davis?" I hummed in response and turned to the nurse that had tilted her head, trying to grasp my attention

"Are you ready for your walk today?"

Oh yes, the weather was wonderful and I felt wonderful today. It was strange, I never went outside but today, today it just felt right.

"Yes, for some odd reason, i'm excited," I said and Nurse Denise smiled softly at me as she placed a tablet in my hand and a glass of water on the table

"Well, I heard the florist came in yesterday, brought in a new batch of flowers and the gardeners put them up last night," She said with a smile as I swallowed my drug and downed the rest of my water.

"Oh! I'd love to see them" I said as I stood up. My hair was out today, in a nice afro. It was nice, normally it was all over the place.

Not that I cared

"Then we better get going. Outside hours only last for an hour and thirty minutes" She said and we both walked out

Have you ever thought of how lovely the color green is?

It's so therapeutic

Nurse Denise had left me to explore and I did, I've always loved nature. From the chirping birds in the morning to the howling of the owl at night.

I watched as the other patients, young and old showed the same fascination as I did.

I spotted an aisle that had neatly trimmed bushes on each side. Where it lead to looked mysterious and probably out of bounds to patients but then again, no one would notice if I were gone

I followed the brick road and saw the beauty it held at the end

A Garden

A Secret Garden

It was beautiful. As if I were in another world entirely. Butterflies flew around the small pond that lay in the middle. The sun hit the water perfectly giving it a little color and there was a bench and a swing.

Ethereal

I sat on the bench, loving the feeling of the wood, and closed my eyes, reveling in the aesthetic of this place.

It almost reminds me of

"Beautiful isn't it?" I know that voice

"Dr. Anderson" I acknowledged and turned to him. His hair was in its usual unkempt state but he still looked very attractive. He still had his doctor coat on even though it was a Saturday

"Yes, indeed it is" I replied and watched as he walked and finally sat beside me. "Almost reminds me of -"

"A memory?"

"Yes" I said and looked to him with a surprised smile "How did you know I was going to say that?"

He shrugged lightly "Lucky guess" He simply replied and I wanted to say something but didn't know what so I kept quiet. "It also reminds me of a memory"

I looked up at him with a wide smile on my face

"Really? Tell me. I'd tell you mine but, well, I can't just seem to remember it" He looked at me and I bit my lip in anticipation.

His eyes turned to the crystal pond and I just continued to stare at him

"Gardens, parks...they were places" He paused "Places my girlfriend loved to go" He said and laughed a bit "I never liked them but she did so I found a way to like them too"

I couldn't help but smile

"You have a girlfriend?" I asked and he turned to me.

"Yeah, I do..." He trailed off and we both stared into each other's eyes for a bit before I looked down at my fingers.

"Where is she? I'd love to meet her" I said and when I looked back at him, his eyes seemed to hold pain but they were gone the minute they came

He cleared his throat

"She's..um..she's not here at the moment" My smile dropped as I tried to process the information

"I'm so sorry Dr.Anderson." I didn't really know what I was apologizing for but he looked hurt and it seemed like the nicest thing to do

"There was an accident" He started "She was pregnant and I was driving her to the hospital....I didn't look where I was going and a truck..." I gasped and covered my mouth

Oh my God

"She was hurt, bad, was going in and out of consciousness as she was in my arms. The hospital was five minutes away so I ran. She lost so much blood. I-." I don't know why but I shushed him and gave him a hug

Hugs solved everything, I watched it on Barney some days ago

He hugged me back and I didn't expect it but it seemed like we both needed that hug. I rubbed his back as we stayed in that position for a while.

"It's okay Dr. Anderson. I'm sure she loves you. You'll be alright" He pulled back and looked at me, green eyes filled with tears threatening to spill out

"I tried, f**k I tried to save her. the doctors tried." He looked down and I just had sad written across my face

"She didn't make it?" He took a while before he answered

"She did" My heart was filled with a little bit of hope "but the baby didn't and when she woke up..." He looked up at me and I felt my eyes gloss over "She didn't even remember me"

A tear slipped from my eye.

I wanted to comfort him, be there for him. I wasn't his girlfriend but I felt his pain.

"Wh-where is she now?" I asked and his eyes were back to the pond

"Mental Institution" I covered my mouth once again and I was fully crying now

All those memories that they shared

Gone

"Dr. Ander-"

"Dean" He cut me off and when he said his name, I felt something. I can't describe it but his name, sounded, familiar.

It tugged at my heart

"Dean" I said and he looked to me, tears had streamed down his face too

"I can't begin to imagine what you're going through. I know what it's like to not remember anything, who you are, where you're from, your last name. It's terrible. Some days I have to be reminded what my name is" It was my turn to face the pond as more tears fell from my eyes "I hate it. Sometimes, I remember things. Like gardens, silk sheets, happiness, love" A soft laugh left my lips

"I want kill myself sometimes you know? I get so frustrated, I feel or see just a glimpse of who I used to be and I want to go back to that. Being happy. Not surrounded by plain white walls, mean nurses, and drugs all day. I just wish I could remember" Dean held onto me, pulling me into his chest and just holding me

When was the last time I'd been held?

"Don't you ever say that okay? You need to be strong Amelia, I need you to be strong. Please don't leave" I looked up at him, I just couldn't imagine the pain he must've been through

"I need you to be strong Dean," I said and cupped his face in my hands as I rubbed his cheek with my thumb

"You promise me okay? You be strong for your girlfriend and I'll be strong for you okay?" I asked and he tilted his head in my palms

My tears hadn't stopped flowing

"It's been a year" He whispered "I'm starting to think she'll never remember me"

"She will" I firmly said "You have to believe in her Dean, even if the doctors say otherwise. If what you had really was love then trust me, you will both be reunited again but right now. She needs you, she just can't remember yet" My tears had seized but the emotion in my voice was extremely thick

Deans eyes met mine again and I felt a pull towards him, it was so strong

"I see you Dean" I said "Your pain, your sadness, your heartbreak. I see it all but I also see love and passion and strength. You fight for her. Do it for me"

He grabbed me by my waist and put me on his lap, both of my legs straddling him as he held me close

"I'm only doing it for you Lia" He said and brought his lips on mine

The kiss was slow and when his lips met mine, I held onto him tight as my tears resumed their descent. We moved in sync and nothing else mattered. It didn't feel wrong, it felt right and I wanted nothing more than to stay like that, kissing him till the end of time

I pulled away and we both stayed put, foreheads resting against each other.

Dean buried his head in the crook of my neck and I ran my hands through his hair

Pictures paint a thousand words....or so the writing on that poster said in the lobby

Paint this.

"Love is that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own."

― Robert A. Heinlein