His Little Mistress

HIS LITTLE MISTRESS CHAPTER 1 We're done doing whatever he calls me here for. He is wearing his clothes and I am seated at the corner of the bed with my legs folded. His back is facing me… that is how he is everytime we are done having s*x. “Williams” I called out his name. He doesn't answer but ignores me as usual. He is like this, this is not my first time with him. “i…” I keep quiet. I've been fighting these three words for a long time now, I don't want them to win but it's like they are also saying that they don't want me to win too. Maybe it's because he made it clear when we first met a year ago “don’t fall in love and don't get attached” yeah, these were his words. He turns and doesn't spare me a glance but takes his car keys and phone on the mini table before turning to the door. “Alfie.” I called out his first name. This time he stopped, maybe because I called out his name once in a long time, I usually call him by his surname. “can.. can we talk… I…” I am stuttering. He breathes out as an indication that he is running out of patience. “Talk, I have things to be busy with,” he says, breaking my heart. Just like how he does every time. “i… I… I love you Williams” I say the words. Everything stops, even him breathing. Suddenly my heart stops beating, waiting to hear what he is going to say. I've never been this scared in my life. He slowly turns and looks at me. I stop breathing “I thought I made it clear when…” Williams “When we first met! Yes you said I must not fall in love with you but…” “Don't but me! Ashley don't even dare test my patience don't” He says calmly. Yes, this is what I was scared of. Him hating me after I said these words. “I am sorry Williams but it happened, I fought… I fought very hard for me to win against these feelings but… they won, you made them win Williams i couldn't help it…I really am in love with…” “Not with me!” He snaps. “You're not in love with me , you can't be in love with me. Not now, not ever. So don't.” Williams “But why? Why can't I fall in love with you? Why can't I fall in love with someone I've been with for a year now huh? I'm also a human being. I have feelings Williams.” I say wiping my tears. I stand up and walk closer to him. He doesn't move. “Get rid of those feelings Ashley, you don't want to be hurt” “I don't want to get rid of them, and it's not like I didn't try to get rid of them, believe me when I say I tried! I can't.” I say holding his arm. “I am sorry Ashley but…” Williams I interfere, not ready to hear the words he was about to say. “I just need one thing from you Williams… your love” He yank his hand from my grip, well that broke my heart for the millionth time. He has never done this. “I do not have that love and don't expect me to have that love.” “Why? Just give me the answer, why? Why can't you give me that love? Can't I be the love of your life?” I ask. “yes, yes you can't be the love of my life because there's already someone else” he says looking straight into my eyes. The love I want? Doesn't show in his eyes. “What? someone else?” I ask slowly moving back. He has someone else in his life? I thought… no he is lying. “You’re lying right?” He sighs and places his one right hand arm in his forehead. He usually does this when he is irritated. I don't know why I used to find it sexy until now… “i have a wife and a child Ashley” My whole world comes crumbling down. I find myself on my knees with my eyes raised on him. He has a wife? A child? “You have a wife…” “We have been married for three years, our child is one year old” he says not remorselessly. “ain’t you remorseless with what you just said? Ain't…” I ask but he interferes. “Why should I? I told you not to fall in love with me Ashley…” Williams. “Dammit, Williams! Why would you make me your mistress! Why didn't you tell me that you have a wife and a damn child? Why?” I'm on the floor. He doesn't care about my tears! I wasted a whole damn year with someone’s husband.am I A home wrecker? “You do not have to raise your voice I can hear you very well” he says, kneeling in front of me. “You made me a home wrecker Alfie, a whole home wrecker.” tears are coming out more. I am so stupid. “don’t call yourself that. My wife doesn't know about you so you ain't a home wrecker” he says, standing up. “Alfie.” I call out his name in a whisper, he is heading to the door. “I will call you Ashley” he says, opening the door. “no, don't ever call me, don't!” I say but he ignores me and leaves. He left, he didn't even say he was sorry. He doesn't even regret not telling me that he has a wife. He doesn't see me as a human being. He has a cold heart! I stand on my feet and take my phone from the mini table. I scroll on my contacts list and block his number. It will be hard but I hope I forget about him sooner... ASHLEY With my 25 years of living, I've never thought I would find myself crying for a man, a whole married man! He made me feel worthless when I confessed my love to him honestly. I regret it with everything in me. I should have kept my feelings a secret and bury them somewhere deep in my heart… but then if I didn't, would I have ever found out that he was married? “Friend can you please stop thinking about this man?” Blanca says. She doesn't understand does she? I'm going through a surprise heartbreak and the man responsible for that doesn't care. I wipe my visible tears and gulp down my savanna. “I just can't ... I can't forget about him… he… I love him. It's not easy, I swear.” Blanca looks at me with pity before coming to sit with me on my sofa. “I love him Blanca, I really do!” I let out a cry when she takes me in her arms and gives me a hug. “you have to learn to let him go. He is someone's else. Your life doesn't have to revolve around him. There are plenty of fishes in the sea… you're the one who used to say that, remember?” she says, letting out a faint laugh. Yeah I remember telling her this when she was going through a heartbreak. “At least your heartbreak didn't involve someone who was married. Mine is probably showering his wife with love as we speak.” I say letting out a chuckle. He really won, Williams really won! “I know it's going to take time but locking yourself in this white and grey apartment isn't going to solve anything but make you more depressed.” . She says rubbing my back. “He is not worth your tears, truly speaking.” she continues. “You used to like him for me though and you wondered why we were not making our relationship official… oh God‚ I should have noticed the red flags;” I cry more. This all feels unreal. It's like he will just call me and tell me to come to that hotel. I miss him so much, “yeah, I ‘used to', not anymore. I hate him now. He hasn't tried to call you not even once and you still think he cares? Come on friend.” she says, standing on her toes and starts clearing all the bottles of Savanna’s I've been drinking. “I blocked him friend.” I'm trying to reason with her here. “Oh come on, don't act like you're stupid. Isn't he a businessman?” Where is she even going with this? “He is” “Does he not know how to email someone?” She really talks facts hey. “He doesn't know my e-mail address” I defend. “Is his sim card the only simcard in this world?” she asks. Yeah she won. “You better stop defending that man Ashley, I'm not even joking,” she says firmly. One thing about my friend? She will tell you facts no matter how hurt you're. She will let you learn the hard way. “Do you still want your job?” she asks stopping what she was doing hands on her hips. “Yeah I still do…” - Me “It has been three days without you showing up at work. Do you want Portia to fire you?” she says. We work together at a bookstore and Portia is our manager. “I told her that I was sick, friend‚ I will come back to work soon.” - Me “Soon is tomorrow right?” “Yes”. I really do not have to lock myself in this apartment just because I fell in love with a man that's married. It won't change anything. “Your phone is ringing,” she says, handing me my phone."it's an unknown private number. “Answer before…” “I don't have the energy to talk to people at this moment” i say... “But if it was Williams you were going to answer it right? b***h answer that f**k€n call now!” she says and presses the answer button. I bite my lower lip placing the phone on my ear. “Ashley’s phone, hello?” I wait for the other person to say something... “Why did you block my number baby?” It's him. He… he called me with a private number. My breathing process changed. I hold the phone tight. “You won't be able to get out of my life baby, you're mine and you know that.” I quickly take the phone out of my ear and turn it off. Blanca looks at me with a confused face “Who was it?” “Williams” i say breaking down. I can't… I really can't do this anymore. I'm shaking in her arms. This is how much that man has damaged me. “stop crying for this man please friend‚ I'm begging you” Her voice has changed, it's no longer the firm one but an emotional one. I know that she can't bare to see me like this. We've been friends since we were young. She knows that this will destroy me more than anything if I continue like this. “Okay, cry as much as you want. Let everything out. Cry tears of forgetting him. But promise me, promise me that after this, you will never ever cry for that man. Please cry…” she says sniffing. As soon as she says this I let out a scream accompanied with my cry...