The Fight For Light

Chapter 35 Illusion? Dream? Or Both?

Jayce's POV

"Jay.."

"Jay.."

"Come back to me.. please " I hear from Percy as I groan out trying to open my eyes that seemed as if they were glued shut.. So awakening from this slumber to get to my mate, who obviously needs me, seems to be a harder task than expected.

"Jayce please." I hear again in a lulled tone as if she is going into the other room making her voice fade.

"Jayce!" Is suddenly yelled, as my chest is pounded on but not hurting, just getting my attention.. I jumped up in a flash, tearing my eyes open to see my brother Daniel with a playful grin upon his face. He then slapped me again on my chest while turning to walk away, as if I'm supposed to follow him, so I quickly follow, not understanding what's going on right now. "Daniel? I thought you died? Wait.... Where are we?" I ask him still following in tow, right on his heels, because I would imagine he is a figment of my imagination, that can disappear into thin air, at any moment.. Especially since I think I killed him the last time I saw him.

"Oh I did die.. You hit me straight to the noggin.. headshot.. Done in an instant.. Lights out for me.. Finite.." He states casually, walking like we used to as best friends and brothers, just to have serious talks, when things were tough. I'm brought out of my thoughts by him adding. "I had a discussion that turned into a deal, so I could talk with you.. I had to make sure you knew, because of how things ended, that I really don't hate you.. jealous of what you have, like usual. I let the greed cloud my judgement.. it is something I wish I could take back but we can't. I know you and Percy tried to talk sense into me, but that still was not going to change the fact that I do have feelings for your mate.. I don't know how I would have felt about my own goddess given mate, but all I knew was how I felt about her, even if she didn't reciprocate those feelings."

"Then why did you do it? If you knew that you wouldn't have her heart, you obviously knew that she wouldn't be happy with you.. So why even do it? Especially to me of all people, your own brother?" I asked him, causing a deep breath to leave his lips. "She's got to be the light creature that all the myths are talking about, you know that right? She has to be the being that helps light up all the dark.. and I just wanted that for myself, being apart of the solution, being the savior of the world with that gorgeous light fae at my side.. I didn't want you to have it, you get everything good, I just wanted to have something good for myself and it didn't matter how it made everybody else mad.. All I knew, is that it made me happy.. It's selfish I know, but I can't help the way I feel. I tried to ignore the feelings at first because they struck me like a bug bite.. but the more I tried to resist the more I craved her.. My feelings continued to only get stronger, to the point I didn't even sleep, couldn't stop thinking about her and the future we could have without you there " He says blatantly to me, catching me completely off guard before he continues. "For a moment, I actually thought I won.. That is until all my lights abruptly went out." He states as he chuckles in disbelief.

"Being honest.. So did I.. After you cheated, then when I saw you flip her over your shoulder, with her pleading eyes staring back at me.. I knew in my heart that was my last shot.. My one and only chance to save her before I died." I explain to him as we both nod talking about this as if it's some casual situation, not my brother almost killing me to take my mate.

"So I'm dead?" I ask not actually wanting to know the answer because I'm scared of it. "No actually, you're barely hanging on.. Thanks to your mate and her being so stubborn, while loving you with all her heart. If she would have given up after a little bit, like most would've, then you would have died, but your hard-headed mate wouldn't give you up." I heard from a soothingly sweet voice that's behind me. I turn around quickly to see an older woman emerge from an illuminating light, now in front of me.

When I see the dark long hair, purple eyes and elegant white dress I think I know exactly who that is. "Moon Goddess." I say kneeling down, bowing without hesitation. "You can call me Seline, Jayce." She states and then adds, before I can even inquire why she is here.

"Daniel did you get everything off your chest before you go? I said I would only give you this moment to say your piece before you have to move on." She reminds him as I look up to see him nodding, before letting out another deep breath. "Jayce, I just really wanted to say I'm sorry because I love you, but not sorry because I love her.. Just take care of the girls.. and you better not f*#k this up or I will haunt you." He says as I slowly stand. "I will take care of them the best that I can, Dan.. I swear on my life." he crashes his body into mine hugging me in the biggest but best brotherly hug I could have ever imagined, making tears well up in my eyes as he backs away from me slowly. "Bye Jay." he say disappearing into the nothingness as I feel the tears fall from my eyes, knowing he is really gone.

"If it counts for anything, I am sorry.. But I had to let this play out, mostly because I needed you to see that not everyone can be trusted, even our own siblings. You sometimes trust too easily and need situations such as these, to help open your eyes to the real world. I'm sorry but it's the way of the world and a hard lesson we have ALL learned one way or another.. like your mate.. her best friend since she was little, betrayed her by trying too hand her over as a gift to give to her newly found mate.. because as we already discovered, love will make you do crazy things.. I'm just happy your mate didn't hesitate today." She states shaking her head as I curiously ask. "What would have happened if she did hesitate?"

"Oh we would still be talking, just having a completely different conversation." She says feigning stress by fake wiping her forehead. "So why are we talking now?" I ask her just needing to know. "Well between you and me, Daniel's right, she's the light that you need to bring everyone together.. The light of the dark.. but you need to be able to accept differences from all around.. not just with wolves, but all the creatures you can help out. because it's not just about you, your future or what you want with your mate.. Which is something you will get as long as you go along with all of this.. But I just need you to be able to accept the beings of all types, right now more than ever.. They need help just as much as you do.. They need a protector just as much as your pack does, and you guys can do that.. But you need to be able to come together just working as one, always doing things how you do it best.. But you need to always keep your mate close, cherishing her.. because she loves you more than you would ever know.. We all need to just accept that there's going to be bumps in the road that show you can't trust everyone, but also showing who you can trust.. most you can, but not all.. I'm just trying to get rid of this darkness and it will never fully be gone, but we just need to get rid of it as much as you can.. They're is always going to be light, but that means there will still be dark.. there's nothing you can do about that, just make sure you're keeping the light within yourself and not giving in to the pressures of life that might make you want to trail elsewhere." She explains full-heartedly to me.

"Does Persephone know?" She scoffs at that comment and waved me off as she halfway rolled her eyes before saying. "She wouldn't believe me, even if I told her.. she doesn't think highly of herself at all, let alone what she could do for everyone else.. She just uses her powers for good and that's all that really matters to me at this point.. She's going to have to learn to self-love eventually, but that's only coming in time, especially with you at her side.. You make her feel good about herself, that's not something that I could never tell her or show her.. Only you can, so just keep up the good work but know that your babies are going to come into a harsh world, but you can still protect them no matter how hard it gets, and show them they are not alone out here.. even if it's not just wolves." She explains further, as I nod taking in her words.

"So what can I do to get back to her? Like, how do I get out of this place? I don't even know where I'm at." I ask her as she giggles before responding. "That's easy, close your eyes take a deep breath and think about your mate.. I mean, she's been calling you this entire time and talking to you.. You can't possibly tell me that you don't hear her voice." she states plainly, as a matter of fact.

I nod to myself, trying to give me the internal motivation I need to try to figure this out.. I don't want to look stupid in front of the Moon Goddess, but I still don't know what I'm doing.. I close my eyes and think to myself, about my mate. But I don't feel any different though, so I peak one eye open and take a look around.. I'm still here and the Moon Goddess is smiling at me.. I groan out before I close my eyes again, trying one more time.. but I can't stop thinking about Daniel and about everything that has happened.. that I can't even clear my mind to remotely just think about her.. that must be the issue.

"You are correct. That's the issue, you just need to focus on her voice and nothing else around you.. before you know it, you'll be right back in her arms, alive not well exactly, but still alive all the same." She shrugs her shoulders, still smiling at me. I take her advice and nod letting her know I understand.. I close my eyes and think to myself, not about any of the sounds around me. But just as the moon goddess said, I have to concentrate on her.. I can hear her once again, her lulling voice is almost echoing in my subconscious, letting me know that she is there. I might not be able to see her or touch her at the moment, but it's comforting knowing that she is still there.

"Jay my love, please come back to me.. I can't do this without you just please don't let me do this without you.. You're supposed to be my happy ending, the Moon Goddess told me before I stepped foot out there with you, that you were my happy ending.. That you were the future I wanted.. That you could give me everything that I've been craving for my whole life.. Just needing to feel complete and loved.. See so you can't leave me now, you just can't, you need to come back to me please.. just don't leave me alone." I hear sniffling and crying as I feel a gentle touch to my chest again.. but not like the touch before, not the one that abruptly woke me up and scaring me beyond belief.. This one is gentle, soothing, and comforting.. This feels like it could be her, I try not to get myself too excited because I haven't had much success with the other times.. So I just slowly peak out when I open them.. wanting to see my surroundings, and thank goodness it is her beautiful face.. Even with the tears pouring down from her eyes across her cheeks, looking so distraught.. It is still her, she's in arm's reach so I try to reach up.. But my arms don't really move I feel so weak, that I don't know if I can't pick them up, but for her I have to try.