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Chapter Fifteen
Seokjin is just staring at the white plain boring wall of his shared room with his boyfriend with tears still streaming down his face, expressionless.
He tried calling Jungkook and sent him lots of messages but he got nothing. He even apologized for all the things that he said telling the older to just come back and he will make it up to him.
Seokjin looks at the door opening that reveals a worried looking Taehyung with a tray of macaroni soup and a bowl of fruits for the younger.
"You should eat." Taehyung said.
He sat on the edge of the bed putting tje tray on top of the side table looking at Seokjin, he cant help but to worry towards the younger.
He received a call from the guard of the building telling him to come over in an instant- when he heard that it was something about Seokjin, he didnt think twice and drove away from the comfort of his home immediately.
He was surprised when he saw how wasted the younger looks, it's as if every ounce of energy has left his body already that he cant even look at Taehyung straight in his eyes.
"I cooked this for you. Take a bite, okay?" Taehyung said trying to sound bright.
He took a spoonful but Seokjin shows no sign of interest and just shook his head with tears streaming down his face that made Taehyung panicked, he put down the soup to comfort his friend.
Seokjin wiped his tears away and reached out for both of Taehyung's hand crying his heart out.
"Tae, please. I.. I didnt mean everything that I said. Help me, find Jungkook for me." He desperately said while still crying.
Taehyung took in a deep breathe cupping the younger's cheeks to wipe the tears away before letting out a faint smile.
He doesnt know that he will come to see Seokjin in such a state. This is unlike the person that he knew, Seokjin doesnt like to show his vulnerable side to anyone and seeing him breakdown like this- he must've been so hurt to let his guards down.
"Can you sleep first, hm?" Taehyung nods his head trying to encourage Seokjin, "I'll try to call Jungkook." He said.
Seokjin shook his head vigorously crying even more as he held Taehyung's hand tighter similar to a child getting lost in the midst of a sea of people.
"Seokjin, please," Taehyung sighed, "I will do my best to find him, believe me. So sleep." He said.
The younger gulps down when he saw how determined Taehyung is, he didnt say anything again and just lie down on his bed while still whimpering with his cheeks tear strained.
Seokjin knows that he was wrong in some point, he shouldnt have gone that far. He knows that Jungkook is probably mad over the words that he said and he completely understand that.
He wants Jungkook to know that he said that out of anger, it is not like he is blaming Jungkook for all the bad things that is happening to him. This is his choice, the older doesnt have anything to do with all the decision that he is making. It is not fair for Jungkook to hear those kinds of words from him.
Seokjin shut his eyes closed with tears slipping out of it continuously, he can feel his heart thumping so loud against his chest and the pain in his throat from crying too much.
He is afraid, he doesnt want to lose Jungkook.
He wants him back. He doesnt know what will he do without his older boyfriend. Jungkook gave him enough reasons to continue and live his life. What would he do with it if Jungkook is not with him?
"Taehyung..."
He immediately looked at Seokjin flashing a warm smile that made the younger's heart wavered.
"He will come back to me, right? Jungkook wont leave me." He asked, desperate to get the answer according to his liking.
Taehyung caressed his cheeks before slightly pinching the tip of his nose.
"Yes, he will come back. Who would dare leave someone like you?" He playfully said.
Though, Taehyung knows that he mean those words.
He wants to see Jungkook just to snap at him and make him see what he's missing. How can he do this to someone like Seokjin? He should've stayed no matter how hurtful those words are and he should've made Seokjin feel wanted and loved. He failed at that- the second he turned his back against his own boyfriend.
After thirty minutes, Taehyung left the room quietly afraid to make any noises that would wake up the younger.
He just came home from work before he had that argument with Jungkook, that's why Taehyung insisted that he should take a rest now. He can see how emotionally and physicallye exhausted Seokjin is.
Taehyung heard the door opened revealing a frantic Jimin with his boyfriend Namjoon following behind him with paperbag in his hands.
"Where's my friend?" Jimin asked, concerned.
Taehyung lifted his index fingers up motioning Jimin to be quiet as he pointed at the room, "He's sleeping." He mumbled.
Jimin sat on the couch shutting his eyes closed as he muttered a lot of curses under his breathe before opening his eyes only to roll his eyes in disbelief.
"Sorry, Tae. But your cousin is such an ass." Jimin said with so much irritation laced in his voice.
Seokjin is more vocal towards Jimin regarding his problems with the house because he knows that if he will tell Taehyung about it, he will immediately do anything in his power to help and Seokjin doesnt want to bother Taehyung everytime.
That's why Jimin knows how hard everything is for his older friend. Though, he cant also help but to admire how positive Seokjin is.
He has numerous job and everytime that they see each other, Seokjin always looks so damn exhausted and weak as if he is just seconds away from passing out but he can still the glint of determination in his eyes, he can see that even though he is tired- he's still more than willing to do anything to make their relationship work.
That irritated Jimin a lot. He knows, he knows how passionate Jungkook is when it comes to art and stuff but that is not enough for them to survive.
He is not working! That is acceptable since Seokjin is preventing him to get a job but he could atleast do the household chores and stop f*****g drinking all the time and make Seokjin clean up after his mess. On top of that, he shouldnt even have wasted those money for alcoholic drinks!
"Im going to find Jungkook," Taehyung cleared his throat, "Seokjin needs him back." He worriedly said.
Jimin dramatically gasped before rolling his eyes at Taehyung making sure that the other saw it.
"Go, Tae. I admire your martyrdom!" He said, irritated.
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