Pied Piper // jinkook

14

Chapter Fourteen

Seokjin was so happy when Jungkook woke up that morning with the brightest smile that he missed, he havent seen that for a long time.

He thought that Jungkook will stay like that for good that's why it made his heart break a little when he saw Jungkook sitting on the cold floor with a bottle of beer in his hands.

Luckily, he doesnt look that drunk and there is no other bottles of beer scattered on the floor like any other night.

Jungkook looked up and ran fingers through his hair when he noticed that his boyfriend has arrived already, he saw it- the hint of dissapointment in Seokjin's eyes.

Seokjin can feel his heart beating louder against his chest that its already begging to come out. He is irritated! He is mad or even beyond that.

He should've just act like that all the way. He made Seokjin set his hopes high thinking that he would change for the better, erase all his bad habits and gave some importance to everything that he is doing.

"What now, Jungkook?" Seokjin asked letting out a deep sigh.

He let his bag fell on the floor with his fist clenched. He shut his eyes closed feeling how his heart keeps on wavering because of the bottled up emotions that badly wants to be let out for once.

"Why are you drinking again?" He asked trying to sound calm.

Jungkook furrowed his brows totally not used to this kind of Seokjin, his boyfriend doesnt usually say things about him drinking. What is he up to?

The older stood up drinking from the bottle of beer that he is holding, he almost fell onto his knees but luckily gained his balance.

Seokjin attempted to took the bottle away from Jungkook but the older immediately lifted it up throwing daggers at his younger problem.

"What the f**k are you doing!?" Jungkook screamed, irritated.

The younger's mouth went agaped, surprised. He let out a mocking laugh washing his face with hands out of irritation.

Seokjin walked towards his boyfriend again, "Stop drinking!" He said raising his brows.

He touched the bottle of beer that it slipped away from the older's hands. Jungkook cursed and looked at his boyfriend straightnin the eye.

"What's wrong with you?" Jungkook asked squinting his eyes.

Seokjin furrowed his brows pointing at himself in confusion. He gulps down while looking at his boyfriend in disbelief, "What's wrong with me?" He asked.

The younger pulled his hair up looking down as he took in a deep breathe trying to calm his nerves.

"You! Ask yourself first, what the hell is wrong with you?" Seokjin screamed from the top of his lungs.

He shook his head scrunching up his nose when he felt his tears streaming down his face like a flood. His heart hurts so much, he can feel the physical pain in his chest that it made him choked on his own tears.

"Jungkook," He called his expression softened, "Im tired.. im so exhausted. Im so so tired." He cried, his shoulder visibly shaking.

The older was stunned, he never saw Seokjin like this. He never saw his beautiful boyfriend in this kind of state- broken, sad and as if in deep misery.

That moment, when Seokjin's tears continuously stream down his face with a look of nothing but exhaustion, Jungkook finally saw it- he saw how his boyfriend looks so vulnerable, how the glow on his face is slowly fading and how he looks just seconds away from passing out.

"I love you, I love you so so much," He said in between sobs, "But you're becoming so hard to love, Kookie. I am having a hard time loving you." He said clutching onto his chest.

Jungkook took a step closer towards his boyfriend but the younger is quick enough to take a step backwards.

He can feel his heart beating faster and his head throbbing. He swallowed the lump forming in his throat, he wants to let it all out.

"Im so tired of everything!"

Seokjin covered his mouth crying his heart out. His whole face turns into a deep shade of red because of crying and the amount of screaming, he's also having a hard time breathing because of the heavy weight on his chest.

"Im really tired, Jungkook. I am so tired of making excuses to my friends as to why I am doing all the job. I am so tired of working nonstop and I am so tired of doing all the things for you," Seokjin clears his throat, "I am so tired of you not giving a f**k in all of my hardworks!" He screamed, his veins popping out.

Seokjin harshly wiped his tears away to see Jungkook's expression, he cant read what he is thinking. He doesnt know and he is too hurt to even think about him.

"I am so tired of seeing you like this. I can give up everything for you and I can do anything for you but why?" Seokjin's voice cracked, "Why do you have to be like this? Wh.. why? Act like this and put all my hardworks in vain!?"

The younger shook his head cursing under his breathe. This is the first time that he has said something like that to his boyriend, he exploded. It just became too much for him.

Jungkook doesnt even know what to say, he just had his head hung low- accepting all the words that Seokjin is throwing at him. Deep inside, he knows that the younger is saying the truth.

"I am so tired of seeing my friends living their dreams already," He bit his lower lips, "While im here. Here! Trying to chase the dreams that is not even mine." He said crying his heart out while clutching onto his chest.

"You can just go, Jungkook. I am so tired. I am really really tired. I am so exhausted." He said in between sobs.

Jungkook blinked for a couple of times, expressionless as tears continuously slipped out of his eyes while looking at the amount of pain he caused towards the man that he loves.

The older gulps down turning his back against his boyfriend making his way out of the apartment without even saying a single words to atleast make Seokjin a little better.

The younger fell onto his knees still crying while desperately clutching onto his chest hoping for the heavy feeling to fade away.

He looked around and as if he is pulled back into reality when he didnt saw Jungkook infront of him nor any faint noises of his boyfriend's movements.

"Jungkook?" He called, "Jungkook. No, no. Jungkook!" He screamed.

He ran out of his apartment not even bothering to put on his shoes afraid not to see his boyfriend.

He keeps shouting his boyfriend's name until he reached outside the building shivering and his feet aching. He ran towards the back of the building but no sign of his boyfriend, he keeps on crying.

He looked at his feet that is already dirty and full of bruises because of running without anything on in his feet in hopes that he would see his boyfriend.

"Jungkook..."