HUGS #6 Poseidon Israel Smith (GOD OF THE SEA) -Completed

Chapter 5 -Never Have His Heart

High & Untouchable Gods Society

Poseidon Israel Smith

GOD OF THE SEA

Written by: Blackrose

Chapter 5 -Never Have His Heart

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Poseidon Israel

After my daughter's birthday party, I left with Coreen to take her back to the hotel. Napansin kong she seems to be quiet all throughout our journey but I didn't manage to ask her why. Napagod rin ako sa buong araw na ito and I wanted a good drink plus a tranquil sleep. When we arrived at her suite, she didn't even offered me to get in nor stay with her for awhile so I've decided to head back home and call it a night.

On my way home, maraming gumugulo sa mind ko. One is my ex whom na hindi ko ma-explain why I am still feeling this hate for her kahit pa matagal na kaming wala. Hindi parin nawawala sa mind ko how she have used me to achieved her ambitions and how it was so easy for her to trashed our relationship ng ganon-ganon na lang. I admit na nasaktan talaga ako sa ginawa niya. Na pinagpalit niya ako pati ang daughter namin para sa mga pangarap niya. The other thing that is occupying my mind is my daughter Pretty Bella whom is obviously so fond of her mom. I've seen in her kanina the excitement and the longingness when she was with her mom. There is this undeniable fear creeping inside of me na baka hindi maganda ang idulot sa akin ng fondness ni Pretty Bella sa mommy niya. Lastly ay si Coreen. I like her spirit, so carefree and light. She's always on the go, wherever and whenever possible basta niyaya ko siya. She's so easy to be with and I knew that it is not hard for any man to fall for her. But I am not ready for any romantic relationship with her or should I say, I don't want any romantic relationship with her. We get along with whatever we have right now. Ayos naman sa kanya ang set-up namin which is favorable sa akin because we don't have any strings attached and no commitments whatsoever. She can date other men and same goes with me. Kaya lang parang ayokong malaman na may dine-date siyang iba, I want her for myself alone. Well, call me possessive pero that's me alright. Gusto ko na akin lang ang babae ko during our span of playtime.

'Israel can we talk?' I was startled when I got inside my home seeing Heide sitting comfortably at one of the cushions. My blood once again boils upon seeing her.

'What the f**k are you still doing here? The party's over! Bakit andito ka pa?' I walk straight to the bar and pour a glass of whiskey.

'I wishes to talk to you Israel.' napapikit ako to control my anger then downed my drink immediately.

'f**k off Heide! Leave me in peace will you!'

'You still love me do you? Tell me Israel. Mahal mo parin ako after all these years right?' I feel her presence behind me which stiffens my body.

'HAHAHAHAHA! Is that some kind of a f*****g joke Heide?' I emptied another glass saka nagsalin ulit ng panibago.

'I can still see it in your eyes Israel. How they glow when you saw me earlier, how it sparks. Kahit hindi mo man aminin sa akin, I knew. I knew that your love for me is still there inside your heart.' she held my arm.

Being touched by her one more time, brings back the good memories we've had. Noon when we were both happy in each others arms and how we live our world brightfully.

Huminga ako ng malalim. I hated myself more than I hate this woman right now. Only just now have I proved to myself how hard it is to deny the truth that despite everything that she have done to me and all the heartaches that she have caused me, she is f*****g damn right. She is still the reason why I have remained single until now. She is still the reason why I just played around with women at walang makakuha ng interest ko to go deeper into a realtionship. She is still the only woman aside to my daughter whom I have loved and treasured all this time. f*****g sad but true, I still treasure her until now.

'Don't amuse yourself woman!' I withdraw myself from her touch dahil nasasaktan ako. I tried my very best not to let my emotions shows. I put distance sa aming dalawa and lit a cigar. 'What we had was long gone Heide! Huwag kang mangarap ng gising because I don't have any plans of nourishing the past! Who do you think you are? Are you some kind of a fortune teller para sabihin sa akin that I still love you! Hahahahaha!'

'You still love me Israel. Your eyes can't deny it! Kahit iba ang lumalabas sa bibig mo!'

'f**k you! Damn you woman! You're so sure of yourself huh! I pity you. See Coreen? You're nothing compared to Coreen! Not even a bit compared to her! Kaya don't flatter yourself too much!'

'That b***h you're boasting at is a fraud Israel! She's a fake! A gold-digger! Bitches like her are good for nothing! They will just milked you! They will just empty your bank account to the brim then will just forget about you once they are through with you!'

'Parang ikaw lang ba?' she eyed me fiercely. She's burning in rage which made me smirk. 'Besides, she can't emptied my bank account to the brim. I have more than plenty, I have billions and billions of money. And kahit pa gastusin niya ng gastusin ang pera ko, I don't give a f**k. I don't care because I am filthy rich! Or unless ..' I walk towards her until we are just inches away. I notice how she swallow a lump in her throat. 'Or unless maybe you're saying these shits because you are envious of her. Baka naman naiinggit ka dahil siya ang kinakama ko at hindi na ikaw! Tama b...' bago ko pa matapos sabihin ang huling word, she slapped me f*****g hard that my cheek stings.

'HOW DARE YOU! I DON'T CARE IF YOU f**k HER COUNTLESS TIMES DAHIL ALAM KONG HINDI LANG NAMAN SIYA ANG BABAENG KINAMA MO ISRAEL! MARAMI SILA! WALA RIN AKONG PAKI WHOEVER OR HOW MANY BITCHES YOU ARE BEDDING!'

'Then why are you still here then! Why so angry, huh Heide? Para saan pa at nasa harapan kita right now! What do you want to imply by staying here and wait for me? Why are you still here kung hindi ka naiinggit kay Coreen? What's the reason para kausapin mo pa ako ngayon? You tell me!'

'BECAUSE SHE'S A FAKE! I KNOW HER KIND! HINDI KA NIYA MAHAL ISRAEL! SHE JUST WANT YOUR MONEY!'

'Huwag kang magsalita na parang hindi mo pinakinabangan ang mga pera ko Heide! You are far more worst than her because you have abandoned your own child! Your own flesh and blood!' I massage my temple, my head is aching. 'Don't overreact as if hindi mo rin ginawa sa akin ang mga sinasabi mo! Because deep down that rotten bones of yours, you've just used me and my riches for your damn dreams! You never loved me Heide! Pera ko lang rin ang habol mo in the first place!' before her hand can move again, I stormed away from her.

'THAT'S NOT TRUE ISRAEL! f**k THAT'S NOT TRUE! MINAHAL KITA! BINIGAY KO ANG SARILI KO SA'YO NG BUONG-BUO EVEN MY VERY SOUL! NASAKAL LANG AKO SA'YO THAT'S WHY I LEFT YOU!'

'Talk to somebody else. I don't want to hear your nonsense reasons! Baka sakaling mabola mo sila with your petty lies. You can't fool me again Heide, not this time!' I head to the stairway. 'Wala ka na dapat dito pagbalik ko if you know what's best for you!' I left her all furious and shouting.

I don't give a f**k what she do now with her life. I don't give a f**k if she rotts in hell either. Tapos na ang kung ano man na meron sa amin. Matagal ng tapos ang chapter namin. I don't even give a f*****g f**k even if I still love her dahil I have learned my lesson well. What's important to me right now is my daughter and my businesses, that's it. I will not let her ruin my life once more. One mistake is enough. I will not commit the same mistake I've done before because of a woman. Never again will a woman hurt me and badly bruise my emotion.

Coreen Louise

Tinawagan ako ni Ate Lovely this morning. She have informed me na gusto niya akong makita at makausap muli. I know why. Alam ko kung bakit gusto niya akong makausap ulit. It is because of Poseidon Israel and what we are doing. Since she also wanted to check where I am temporarily staying daw ay hinayaan ko na. Tutal knowing my sister, hindi siya titigil hanggang hindi niya nakukuha ang gusto niya.

Sakto paglabas ko ng bedroom after a refreshing bath ay tumunog ang doorbell. Si Ate na siguro yun. But to my dismay, hindi ang mukha ng ate ko ang aking napagbuksan.

'What are you doing here?' bored kong tanong.

'I just wanted to talk to you Coreen.'

'I don't have any time for you Heide. I am waiting for someone else.' I was about to close the door nang iharang niya ang paa niya to stop me for doing so.

'How rude of you to act like that Coreen. Para sa isang not yet too famous na model? Baka mawala ka kaagad sa limelight niyan my dear. Kilala mo naman siguro kung sino ang kaharap mo at alam mo naman siguro kung gaano kalawak ang mga connections ko.'

'My attitude is base on who I am talking to. So since plastik na tao ang kaharap ko, why should I be nice then?'

'Ang tapang mo rin ano. Sino bang pinag-mamalaki mo, huh Coreen? Is it Israel? Siya ba ang pinagmamalaki mo sa akin?'

'Umalis ka na nga!'

'I don't see what Israel saw in you. I don't know why he bores himself sa'yo. Halata naman sa mga katulad mo ang pagiging isang gold-digger.' nagsimulang kumulo ang dugo ko.

'Talaga ba?' hindi ko na pinilit pang isara ang pinto. Bastusan pala ang gusto ng isang ito, eh bastusan ang ibibigay ko.

'And besides, inamin na sa akin last night ni Israel kung ano ang real score between the two of you.' ngumisi siya and let herself in. Umupo siya sa sofa without being permitted. 'You see my dear Coreen, hindi naman ako nagulat sa mga inamin sa akin ni Israel. You're both using each other. Naggagamitan lang kayo. There's no love involved sa relationship niyo, well kung realationship nga ba ang tawag sa meron kayo now. Everything was just a show off yesterday. Am I right?'

Sinabi nga ba talaga ni Poseidon ang real score sa amin sa babaeng ito? Kaya ba kung umasta ang isang ito at magsalita ay parang siguradong-sigurado siya? Damn you Poseidon! Ako pa tuloy ang lumalabas na kahiya-hiya ngayon!

'What's your point?'

'My point is, it's but natural to Israel to play around with women. I'm pretty sure na hindi naman ikaw ang first na makipaglaro to him. Sabagay, with his looks and charm and... His wealth. Who wouldn't want to play with him right? Kaya unang kita ko pa lang to you at my daughter's birthday party, I already knew that you were a fake. Hindi ka talaga engaged kay Israel. He just used you at pumayag ka naman para ipakita niya sa akin that he have moved on. And masyado kasing obvious ang pagiging gold-digger mo, ang pagiging mukhang pera mo. Magkano ba ang binayad sa'yo ni Israel to pretend to be engaged to him?'

'Hindi ako gold-digger! At walang money involved sa amin ni Poseidon! Watch your words Heide because you don't know me!'

'Oh? So there's no money involve! Then what is it? Your body? s*x perhaps.' tumawa siya ng malakas na ikinairita ko.

'It's none of your damn business! Ano man ang gawin namin ni Poseidon ay wala kang paki. Naiinggit ka lang dahil akin siya!' I chuckled loudly.

'Sa ngayon, maybe his yours. But just remember, my dear. You can have his body but you will never have his heart. Ako lang ang sole owner of his heart. He can play around kahit kailan niya gusto but at the end of it all, sa akin parin ang puso niya. Kahit anong gawin mo, katawan mo lang ang gusto niya sa'yo.' tumawa siya ulit.

Ang galing manira ng umaga ang babaeng ito. And before she can totally ruin my day, I open the door widely and smile at her.

'So tapos ka na niyan! Pwede ka na sigurong umalis since I am expecting a visitor.' tumayo siya and look at me from head to foot.

'I pity you Coreen. You knew so well na ginagamit ka lang ni Israel to extract his heat yet ayos lang to you? Ayos lang sa'yo na parausan ka lang niya? That there's no love involve sa inyo? Sabagay nga naman ay magaling sa kama si Israel. Walang babaeng hindi masa-satisfy kapag si Poseidon ang kasama sa kama. But at least sa amin we both love each other when his making love to me before.'

'You know what Heide, I pity you more. The way you are acting right now ay mukha kang babaeng pagkatapos pagsawaan ay sige parin ang habol sa lalaking obvious naman na ayaw na sa'yo.' I saw how her eyes burn in anger na ikina-ngiti ko. 'Ayaw na sa'yo ni Poseidon dahil losyang ka na! Of course he wanted a more younger woman na pwedeng magpainit sa kanya anytime. Na iniisip pa lang niya ako ay halos makaraos na siya!' her jaws clenched. 'Imagine? He even visited me to New York several times just to be with me, just to f**k me countless times. Why would he do that if he isn't head over heel crazy about me right?' pumamewang pa ako and smile wider.

'Ang kapal ng mukha mo b***h!' she was about to slap me when a hand grip her hand harshly.

'I wouldn't do that if I were you.' my smile widens more upon seeing my sister.

'And who is this b***h?' mataray na tingin sa akin ni Heide.

'This b***h lang naman ang kakalbo sa class A mong rebonded hair at class A mong outfit if you lay a hand on my sister's face.' napatawa ako ng malakas sa sinabi ng Ate ko.

'Really now! Excuse me! I'm not a fan of class A's! Baka sa'yo ko gawin ang sinabi mo!'

'Wanna try me Miss?'

Nagsukatan sila ng tingin na hinayaan ko lang. I knew my sister oh so well. Mukha lang siyang angel pero she's wicked than a witch kapag ginalit siya. Sumandal ako sa door post and watch them na para bang nanonood ako ng isang eksena sa pelikula. Kung saan nagtagpo ang kontrabida at ang bidang kontrabida rin.

'I can sue you! You don't know know who I am for you to talk to me this way!' binawi nito ang kamay mula sa pagkakahawak ni ate.

'And you don't know me either Miss. I can buy you triple times your worth. Name your price which I know na mababa lang malamang.'

'Damn you! The both of you! I'll sue you both for harassing me!'

'Go ahead. But for now, lumayas ka na dito habang nakakapagtimpi pa ako. I don't want to ruined my newly manicured fingers sa retokada mong pagmumukha!' mapang-asar na ngiti pa ni ate kay Heide.

'Tatandaan kita! This will not be the last time you will see me!'

'Write my name then please. Para talagang hindi mo ako makalimutan at matandaan mo ako. Mukhang bobita ka pa naman na nagpapanggap na matalino at edukada. It's the one and only at hindi kailan man rinetokeng si Catherine Lovely Laroza Wittsburg Reiz. Remember that in that hollow brain of yours. Now shoo!' winagayway ni ate ang kanyang kamay para paalisin ang bruha. Heide was all red in anger as she marches out of my suite. 'Let's go inside Coreen! Palagi kong sinasabi sa'yo na huwag kang mag-eentertain ng mga taong hindi kagandahan! Baka sabihin pa ng marami na pangit ka rin! Walang pangit sa lahi natin!' we both laugh loud na ikinatili sa inis ni Heide saka malakas na sinara ni ate ang door.

'Nice one Ate.'

'Huwag kang tatawa-tawa jan Coreen Louise! Tignan mo yang kagagahan mo! Simula pa lang yan! Sinasabi ko sa'yo babalikan ka ng babaeng yun!'

'Si Ate naman. Salamat Ate ha, the best ka talaga kahit kailan.' mabilis ko siyang niyakap ng mahigpit.

'Kahit naman ikaw ang pinaka-suwail kong kapatid sa lahat, hindi naman ako papayag na may mang-api sa'yo.'

'Kaya nga love na love kaya kita Ate.'

'Malaki ka na Coreen, alam mo na ang tama at ang mali. Pero sana naman ay dun ka sa tama.'

'I know.'

'I think I have to talk to Poseidon Israel about this. Hindi pwedeng ganyan ang set-up niyo!'

'Huwag na Ate. Ako na ang bahala.' tinitigan niya ako ng masama bago ako niyakap ng mahigpit. 'I promise that I will take good care of myself Ate.'

'Hahayaan kita sa kagagahan mo Coreen but please naman, mag-iingat ka.'

'I promise Ate. Hindi ako magpapabuntis kay Poseidon not unless he tells me na mahal na niya ako.'

'Asa ka pa.'

Time flies so fast. I'm back in New York. I haven't seen Poseidon lately dahil narin sa busy ang schedule ko. It's December and plano namin magkakapatid na mag-reunion for this holidays. Tyempo dahil out of the blue ay nagparamdam si Poseidon and invited me to their Christmas celebration sa society nila. According to him ay isang Carribean Cruise daw ito. Since I've never been to the Carribean, why not. Kasama daw lahat ng members ng society nila kaya posibleng makakasama ko rin dun ang ate ko.

He fetched me here in New York. Seeing him again plus the thought of being with him on a cruise totally thrills me. As expected, everyone is present. My sister and brother-in-law were here with Ziggy saka may kanya-kanyang partners rin ang ibang members ng society nila.

The places where we went through were truly spectacular although hindi natuloy sa Carribean Sea at sa South Pacific kami nag-cruise. Akala ko nga pupuntahan namin ang underwater resort ni Poseidon na sa internet ko pa lang nakita pero out of way daw. The entire cruise was magnificent pero ang sa tingin ko na pinaka-highlight ng travel namin ay yung pag-declare ni Ares Timothy Li ng pagmamahal niya kay Hazel. Napaka-romantic talaga na nakakakilig. Who would have thought na may sweet bones rin pala ang isang mukhang astig na lalaking kagaya ni Ares.

Naiinggit ako honestly. Sana ako rin. Pero hindi mawala-wala sa isip ko hanggang sa pagbalik namin sa Philippines ang mga salitang sinabi ni Heide sa akin sa hotel. That I may be Poseidon's companion now, na akin nga siya ngayon... But I will never have his heart.

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