The silence she left behind

“Amari! You need to continue the series! Your readers were demanding for an update of the fifth part of your book!". I rolled my eyes as I continue to type on my old MacBook. As if they can force something that I do not want to do at the moment. " I've already told you a thousand times that the series will only have 4 books! I want a vacation! ". I closed my MacBook and I started to fix my things. Kailangan kong makaalis sa lugar na'to. Ora mismo! " Hah! You were just afraid that someone will find you hiding here in Manila! Sino bang baliw ang magtatago dito sa Manila? Kung gusto mo siyang takasan, you need to hide somewhere far para hindi ka mahanap!" Kung mapera lang sana ako kagaya noon edi I would choose to hide somewhere in Abroad. Our business went to bankruptcy and our savings were gone too. I had no other choice but to stay here in Manila. " I choose to be here because I know that he would not dare to come here. He hates the city life. And tell the readers that I will be on hiatus for a meantime. " Wala nang nagawa si Jackie kundi gawin ang gusto ko. I've been working my ass off for the past four years as a writer. I continued the dream that my parents did not supported when they were still alive. Things have changed at hindi ko na pwedeng pilitin na bumalik ang lahat sa dati. I don't want to be a hypocrite because I know that I f**k up that's why I'm doing all the means to hide from him. "Paano mo naman nasabi na hindi siya pupunta dito sa Manila? The last time I checked he is now one of the hottest and richest young bachelor. You know, maliit lang ang Maynila para sa mga taong mapera." Inilagay ko sa dalang tote bag ang kahuli-huliang gamit ko na nasa loob ng opisina. " Mayaman na siya ngayon, if he wanted to look for me, matagal na sana niya akong nakita. Besides, the last time I saw him, he loathed me to death. " " Kaya ba hindi mo na itinuloy ang pang limang parte ng series? Kasi you don't know if the two of you will meet again. You know, the readers were mad as hell kasi cliffhanger daw yung series, sinong writer ba ang baliw at biglang tinapos ang story ng walang closure yung mga bida?" Jackie was my friend since I started working in Lumiere Publishing Corp. She was aware that the series na kinababaliwan ng lahat ay base sa totoong buhay ng author nito, but of course, the readers doesn't know about it. " Eh, wala naman talagang closure sa amin. Besides, no closure is already a closure". She stared at me at literal na nanlaki ang kanyang ilong sa inis. " No closure? Accla! He was asking for it four years ago! Just like what you've written! Dito oh, sa last book ng series, page 189, Clayden asked forclosure on our fifth-year anniversary. I saw his 569 calls and 237 text messages. But I choosed to disappear." Ibinato ko sa kanya ang bagay na nadampot ko at nasapol siya sa noo. Baliw talaga ang babaeng 'to! She was holding the last part of my series called " Mr. Thirteen". " Heh! Ewan ko sayo! Uuwi na ako at mag eempake pa ako. Sinabi ko na kay boss na I'll have a break for awhile. After my vacation, I will consider their proposal to write another story kapag may inspiration na ulit ako. See yahhh!" Bumeso na ako at lumabas na ng office. I walked towards the elevator at pinindot ang ground floor. I took out my wallet and stared at the image of my eighteen year-old self and him. We were so happy back then, not minding that our families were rivals. Life sucks. Just like how my life f***s me up so good. I was young and naive and easy to manipulate, that's why I unintentionally hurt the man I love the most. I was done packing up my things when I received a call from Jackie. She was panicking at halos hindi ko na maintindihan ang sinasabi niya. " Your readers were going wild, Amari! An anonymous account commented and says that; Amari Reign Camero is a pathological liar. Her whole story were full of deception! How could you support your so-called idol when all she did was to runaway and hide from all the people she hurt in her hometown! Yes, people! The series is all about her life! That's why there is no book five! Because there is no closure between her and the real life Clayden, she doesn't know how to face her own reality, so why would you support the series? After all, it is only her side, that's why Clayden is the bad guy, but in reality, Amari is the villain of her own story! Show up here! Don't be a coward and face your f**k up life!!!!! " Ano na ang gagawin natin? There are tons of negative comments and post about you sa lahat ng social media platform?". I don't know what to say, na exposed na ako and I know right from this moment, they are now digging information about me. " Hindi naman nila kilala si Amari Reign. I do not have any social media." I nervously said. They only know me as Piper, my pen name. There is no information about who is the person behind Piper, the author of the best-selling book series. Ibinaba ko ang tawag at kaagad kong binukan ang lihim kong f*******: account. Pagkabukas ko palang ng aking account ay halos manlumo ako, there are lots of article about me! TETTALK: Renowned author of the best-selling series "Mr. Thirteen" Piper, faces backlash as an anonymous account exposed her. Click the link for further details. laceychoi: Sinabuhay talaga ang pagiging toxic niya. Lol. Dessamarie: She was my classmate in highschool, they were rich! Bully at matapobre! Ganyan ang idol niyo? Lol. Anonymous account: Kung sino man ang real life Clayden diyan, reveal yourself and testify with all these allegations! It's time for you na linawin ang lahat. You were portrayed as the villain! leilei: Hahaha! I know who's the guy! Clue: sikat na sikat dito sa pinas at abroad! Isang Architect! My phone rang and it was Jackie again. I tap the answer button and pinakinggan ang sinabi niya. " You need to go here in the office, right now! Goodness! They are already involving Israel Arden for pete's sake!". I. Am. f**k. Up. Again. Halos nanginginig ang kamay ko at hindi na napigilan na lumandas ang luha sa aking mata. God! I know that all the things that I've wrote in my series were true! There is no lie! But on the other side, it was true that I runaway from the truth. I arrived at Lumiere Publishing Corp and there are now bunch of people from different media houses! I didn't expect that they will flock here, someone notices me and I knew from that moment, my life will face another hell. "Are you Amari Reign Camero?" Dahil sa tanong niya, the reporters faced me at itinutok na ang kanya kanyang camera at mic sa akin. I did not dare to answer at nagpatuloy sa paglalakad papasok sa building but with all these medias it was hard for me to pass through! " Is is true that the Clayden from your book series were actually the renowned architect Israel Arden? "- " Did you really kill someone in your hometown, Miss Camero? " " Dito naman Miss Camero! Why did you leave Mr. Arden after shooting his half- sister five years ago?! Kaya ba wala kayong closure gaya ng sinulat mo sa series? " " She killed someone? But she did not wrote that in the series! It is true that the series were full of lies! " How did they get all these informations? In was just 30 minutes since the issue surfaced at kung ano-ano na ang speculations nila! With the help of the guards, I was able to enter Lumiere at dumiretso ako sa top floor. " We need to fire her and stop the on-going manufacturing of the books! Wala ng bibili dahil sira na ang reputations niya!". I stopped opening the door when I heard my boss voice. Nanlamig ang katawa ko at halos umiyak na ako sa narinig. " But, boss! The books were worth millions! Sayang! We will let the issue die first and we'll continue the manufacturing. We just need to do something para patigilin ang issue." " Continue? And what? We'll lose Lumiere! You know how influential the Arden's is! They will not let someone tamper their heirs reputation! They already contacted us, they will sue us! " How did this happen? I only want to escape from reality because it was too hard for me to handle. I lost everything in exchange of escaping. I did regret my actions and decisions. I did not even expected that my series will blow up, but I'm scared that someone will know me that's why I hide behind Piper. I do not want to hurt the person that I'm trying to protect. Protecting him means losing him.