Today has me riding on a high called happiness.
I never knew coming to terms with myself about the baby , communicating and letting things go would bring me so much peace.
Now that it's all over, I feel like I've invested my energy into cultivating negative emotions and hurting my self for nothing.
I'm not saying I'm over this totally, A baby is huge. Especially if it turns out to be really his. But I'm slowly preparing my mind for it. Not like I'm ever gonna be prepared enough.
Looking at the man laying beside me has me having mixed feeling's. Happiness, pride, remorse, pain.
Remorse for all I put him through this few months.
Through out this whole ordeal, I haven't been the only one that took a hit. Jack took major hit having to come to terms with the news of an unplanned baby, ma
