SCARS

Amory's POV I stared at the big billboard at the LA airport waiting in irritation for my friend Carmen she is returning from seeing her dad who lives in California, her parents are separated but somehow she managed to stay happy and currently lives with her Mom, I sigh in annoyance as I check the time, I really hate waiting for her or anyone even if it's carmen, talk about annoyance, I know I was going to get annoyed the moment I see her all too perfect smile directed at me, I always hated the fact that she is happy, too happy for my liking her family is not perfect but she is always smiling, in contrast to my own which was all too perfect at least that is what everyone thought, I was not close to being happy I don't really care now, it's already a foreign word anyway, my parents are together but their faces only makes me want to throw up especially my mom, I sigh and stood up from where I was sitting and looked around the building, people where going and coming with their luggage some chattering and laughing with their friends and family and immediately a feeling of nostalgia hit me as I saw a scawny boy with ginger hair. " Hey what is happening, ...hey Raph.. Raphael are you really crying in the airport, woah what happened to I'm a big boy now" I teased my younger brother as he tried sniffing back tears that was threatening to escape hie eyes, he was finally going to achieve his dream and I couldn't be more happy for him, he couldn't say anything and just hugged me tight crying to my shoulder, I gulped as I pushed back my own tears.. " I.. I I'm going to miss you Ames" he called me sounding so weak " I'll miss you too champ" I said before we separated his eyes was glossy, I chuckled and went to ruffle his scattered hair looking into his sharp orbs that looks like he was about cry again, I wanted to say something again but was interrupted by a cancerous voice behind us " Okay that's enough, you will miss your flight, that's enough baby boy let's go" my mom said smiling before separating us, I glared at her but quickly shut down the anger that was brewing in me at her sick voice and turned to Raphael, smiling at him " I'll miss you Raphael" I said and he waved at me " I'll miss you too Ames, ugh..ugh come visit me often" he said before leaving, I watched him leave. *End of flashback* That was the last time I saw Atticus. " Hey!" A voice startled me and I turned to see Carmen with her pink luggage smiling at me, I don't smile back, I don't need to, I just stare at her in annoyance as she happily strolls towards me, I roll my eyes at her excitement and start walking towards her too, she immediately stop as her attention diverts to a something __ someone my eyes moved to see the person standing before me and I wish I didn't look _ it's Velda, and her Cancerous make up filled face, I look at her with her exergerrated dressing with heavy earrings and jewelries that obviously cost more than a luxurious house will cost, people were complimenting her and she basked in it. I probably didn't mention my Mom was coming back today too, and she must be joking if she thinks I'm her to welcome and pick her up, her eyes moved to me and she smiled which almost made me sick, I breathed in and walked past her pretending she was never there, she frowned at me clearly giving me a disapproving look and was ready to say something but was quickly interrupted by a group of reporters that immediately flooded her line of view and she immediately fixed her expression smiling to the camera and giggling like she was not scowling just a second ago making me snort " Thought so" " Woah you look like someone owe you 200 grand" I narrowed my eyes at her " You are late, and technically you owe me two hundred grand! Did you forget" She just laughed it off and started telling me about her trip half of what I don't care about, before she paused to look at me " By the way aren't going to ugh... talk or I don't know, acknowledge your mom, she kinda have been glaring at the back of your head" I narrowed my eyes at her, she knew the bad blood between me and my mom " Fancy walking Carmen??" That quickly shut her up as she shook her head immediately mouthing " Nope, forget I said anything" I rolled my eyes at her " good, now let's go before I change my mind" I say before walking towards my car and she squealed excitedly running after me. ************ Mom can I..I" I hesitated as I looked at my Mom's perfectly manicured nails as she trailed her hands on my feet before she proceeded to untie the laces of my ballet shoes, I tried to move my leg from her but she had a tight grip on it before she quickly removed my shoes to reveal my feet that was filled with bruises, especially my toes that is already beyond recognition because I kept tripping during dance practice out of fatigue leaving me with numerous injuries, I was practically limping because of it. I looked at my mom my eyes pleading practically close to tears to " Mom I want to take a break maybe a week.. no three days, my feet need to heal for me to continue". but my mom looked at me and frowned dropping my feet in discontent " It looks fine to me Amory, this is not enough for you to take a break it just an excuse to stop It is how an athlete feet should look like, it's nothing to complain about" I continue to plead tears threatening to come out as I looked at me but that only infuriated her more and called Coach to schedule a meeting for my practice this time with her watching me to make sure I don't bail out. I was mad... Clearly because that was the memory that came to hunt me this morning as my mom continued to complain that I missed ballet practice, she still has come to terms with the fact that I had become rebellious within a month she was away, that I wasn't the little crying girl who would shrivel up at the mention of her commanding voice. Right now I don't care, I hated ballet and I wasn't going to hide it anymore nor will I pay any attention to her anymore "Amory your behavior is becoming a real problem why won't you listen to me " I didn't say anything as I reach the the dinning room and went past to the kitchen to get coffee before heading to school with every intention to ignore her, I haven't been to school in a while and I wasn't going to keep skipping classes especially since I very much intend to graduate . "Amory. stop. come . here" I felt a shiver run down my back making the scar on the back of my neck tingle, Amory in the past will get on her knees and wait for the punishment but the Amory right now was different, right now the only thing that came slamming back to me was anger, I became furious and I turned to look at my mom and she had that expression that made me... I breathed in and left with the coffee in my shaking hands I was trying to keep myself under control take my bag and leave before I acted on the things the voices in my head was ordering me to do, and at that moment , she made the mistake of trying to repeat her order which finally made me lose control and out of instincts threw the glass cup I was holding in her direction with the full intention of shattering her head in the process, at least that will be able to save me from hearing her sick voice, but luckily for her Dad came downstairs in time to pull her out of the way as he screamed in horror "Amory!! that's enough are you trying to kill your mom" He said looking at me " Well hold your wife and warn her neve to use that voice on me again if she doesn't want to end up in the ER" Mom was looking at me in horror trying to process what just happened and recollect herself as my dad held her from my assault , I paid her no heed before taking my bag and leaving the house still seething in anger, this wasn't the way I wanted to start a Monday morning in school but I couldn't stay here either, so I took my car and left to for school I'll definitely find someone to release my anger on when I go to school .