Unconditional Love

Grayson

Grayson

I have been with Emma for 5 years and I cannot get enough her. She holds herself to such a high standard and there’s no changing her mind when she sticks to something. She is so stubborn and hardheaded to a point where sometimes I give up on trying to talk to her because she won’t change her mind. She’s so independent and I love her so much. She’s been through so much and her mom doesn’t help the situation. Anytime something good happens she wants to tell her mom, but her mother stopped seeing her as her daughter 7 years ago. Having to pick up the broken pieces and helping her heal has been so hard. She goes to my mom most of the times, but I know its not the same. I couldn’t imagine my mom doing that to me. I wish I could protect her from the world, I wish I was there all the time for her but sometimes I don’t know how to. She goes to Luke when she’s feeling really emotional, and I hate that she feels like she can’t talk to me, but I also don’t understand everything she’s going through. Our relationship has never been easy. When she first came to live with me it was 3 years ago. My mom wasn’t doing so well, and I was thinking of quitting my job and taking care of her full time, but Emma said to not do that. She instead would come over to the house every other day and take care of my mom.

Rachel, Emma’s friend started to bring her boyfriend to the house more often and Emma thought she was crowding them, and she was looking for apartments and I just thought it would be a better Idea if she came and lived with me and my family. She took care of my mom, and my mom loved her. My mom used to tell me “Grayson you better marry that girl”. I want to. I want to marry her I just don’t know when the best time would be. There’s never a good time. s**t keeps happening. Emma has been in good health since she got out of the hospital 5 years ago, but my mom still isn’t doing well. Her cancer hasn’t let up. Its hard for the family still. Its hard on Maeve and she hasn’t moved out yet, her wife and her have been living at the house and Maeve refuses to leave because of mom. Evie and Theo are still kids, so Emma helps me take care of them.

I remember when I first found out my mom had cancer. She knew but never told anyone because she didn’t want to worry anyone. I was so mad at her for hiding it because I thought I could have done more to help her. I remember finding my mom passed out on the kitchen floor and I ran over to her to check if she was breathing, and she wasn’t. I performed CPR and Evie walked in the kitchen and started to cry. This was 7 years ago, and Evie was only 8 and seeing Faye on the floor like that traumatized her and I didn’t register how it made Evie feel. I yelled at her to call 911. It took the ambulance 10 minutes to get to the house and I kept thinking you better not die in my arms mom, you’re too young, Delilah is supposed to be hitting the grave first not you. As soon as the ambulance arrived, they hurried in, and it happened so fast I didn’t get to comprehend what was going on. They got my mom on the gurney and wheeled her out. I told Evie to get her shoes on and to get Theo and get to the car. I got my keys and got the kids in the car and drove behind the ambulance. I totally forgot Maeve was still at the house sleeping so I had to call my dad and I told him briefly what happened. He called me names because I forgot about Maeve, but I snapped on him and told him I was more focused on mom. I hung up on him before another insult would fly out of his mouth.

My dad is a s**t father and was s**t husband to my mom. He didn’t know when to shut his mouth when all he had to do was one thing. I was 19 and I was taking care of his 13-year-old daughter and 5-year-old son and Evie was 8 and he was never there for any of us. My priority was my mom in that moment. Something that hit me was my first-time seeing Emma was 7 years ago. She doesn’t know that. My mom went to the hospital on March 23, 2016, the same day Emma was transferred to Ocean Park Hospital. She was in the ambulance ahead of my mom’s. I never knew who she was until two years later when she turned out to be my mom’s roommate. I went to go to park the car and social worker showed up and Evie and Theo went with her while I went to go find my mom. Both the ambulances parked, and they both pulled out their patients and I was focusing on finding my mom. I accidentally went to Emma’s ambulance and when they pulled her out, she was unconscious, and my first thought was she’s so young and so beautiful and that distracted me for a good 5 minutes until an EMT asked me if I was her bf and I said no and went to go find my mom.

When I found my mom, they took her to a trauma room, and I kept asking the doctors what is wrong with her, and no one would tell me anything. I had to go wait in the waiting room. My dad eventually showed up with Maeve and I was expecting him to yell at me, but he walked up to me and hugged me. I broke down and I never cry but I was so overwhelmed. Maeve found Theo and Evie and they went to the kid’s area to play on their electronics. They were too young to know what was happening. They were just kids. When the doctor came out, he spoke to my dad. The first time I ever saw my dad falter to his knees was that day. I went over to him and helped him back up to his feet and helped him get into a chair. That’s the day o found out my mom had a Grade 3 Meningioma brain tumor. Turns out my mom knew. The life expectancy was less than two years. I started doing all my research. For two years my mom received chemotherapy and radiation therapy. It was hard raising my siblings while making sure my mom was still alive and healthy. I got a full-time job at 21 as a math teacher. I graduated high school at 17 and went straight to college. I needed to help my mom pay her medical bills. I put the house in my name at 21. I needed to take care of my family and my dad wasn’t there.

My mom has been alive for 7 years since that diagnosis and that’s 2 years past the expectancy after all her treatments. She got stronger for a bit, but these past 3 years would have been so f*****g hard if it wasn’t for Emma. After Emma got better, she still went back to school. She has an associate degree for medical sonography and a bachelor’s degree in business. She was a paramedic for awhile and worked in the medical field and went for her CNA so when my mom struggled to take care of herself, I trusted Emma fully with my mom. I still do.

I just left Emma’s room. I’m still not sure why we still have separate rooms. She says so I can have my alone time. I honestly want to sleep with her every day. Not just sexually but I want to hold her every night. But I respect her space. She went to shower after I just f****d her. I don’t know how she can walk straight; my legs are still shaking. she’s a great f**k. Always have been but lately it feels like she is no longer interested in me.

Emma and I had our rough patch, I cheated 2 years ago. I was drunk and I thought Emma’s friend was Emma. I called the wrong person when I was drunk and Olivia Preston who used to be Emma’s friend showed up. I was drunk and I was pissed off that day. Emma blew me off and I thought she was cheating on me with her coworker Tyler Jones. So, I went to the bar and drank my feelings. Not the brightest idea. So, when I accidentally called Olivia, she showed up. She picked me up and took me to her house so Emma wouldn’t be pissed off at me. I started flirting with her and she knew I was drunk. I really thought it was Emma. That’s how drunk I was. But she was into it, we were on her couch, and I leaned in for a kiss and she didn’t stop me. She kissed me back. And then one thing led into another. The next morning, I woke up naked with Olivia on top of me. I was so f*****g confused, so I threw her off of me and she cursed me out. I cheated on Emma and that realization hurt me so much. So, I ran out of Olivia’s house and bolted the bar to grab my keys and car. I sat in my car and cursed for what seemed like forever. My phone was off, so I went to turn it on. 105 missed calls from my mother, she’s a bit overprotective and I am 24 years old, and she still treats me like a child. No calls from Emma which was weird. I also missed over 50 messages. So instead of looking at them all I called her.

You think children screech a lot; my mother was making my ears bleed “Grayson where the f**k were you? What the f**k is wrong with you? You were with that b***h Olivia and Emma knows about it.” That’s when I realized what she just said. “How do you know who I was with?” I asked her. “Because the b***h posted pictures and videos of your guys’ make out sesh and she sent it to Emma. What the f**k is wrong with you? GRAYSON OLIVER STONE what the f**k is wrong with you” she’s not wrong I was in the wrong. “Mother where is Emma?” my mom went silent which is NEVER good. “Mom where is she?” I hung up on her and just drove home.

Theres more to that story but its not worth repeating. She was a mistake. So I just found out I am going to be a dad. I was going to propose to emma tonight. And she just topped me without even knowing. I like winning so I tend to make things into a competition and she won without even knowing. This girl has me blown away all the time. So my plan to get down on one knee to the girl of my dreams. I didn’t think about it, I was just going to do in the living room while we watched a movie. Hey don’t look at me like I have three heads. I am a very not detail oriented person. Ill invite all of my friends and her friends and that’s how this Is going to go. so I text the groupchat. Yes I blocked her out of the groupchat before I texted them.

Grayson – yo guys come to my house tonight?

Luke – did you mean to use the question mark

Matthew – that’s grayson for you

Paul – why whats going on

Maeve – im home all day why the f**k am I in here?

Calypso – language b***h

Paul – calm down lesbos

Grayson – ENOUGH

Luke – whats going on man?

Grayson – I want to propose to emma

Maeve – in what way and why are you just mentioning this? Has your dyslexic head gotten high? Are you okay bro?

Jack – damn your sister is insulting you

Ryan – maeve don’t you have dyslexia too and dysgraphia

Maeve – f**k you ryan

Calypso – whats your plan?

Grayson – movie in living room and propose

Luke – no

Maeve – are you stupid? Seriously? I know dad is stupid but you? What the f**k? Calypso is more of a man than you and she knew how to woo a girl. Emma will reject you off this poor excuse of a proposal.

Jack – maeve chill

Luke – grayson why?

Grayson – shes a simple girl. She wanted one book for her birthday. Shes not you maeve. She wants simple. And whats more simple than to be surrounded by friends and family?

Faye – hes not wrong

Maeve – MOM! SERIOUSLY! YOU HAVE BEEN HERE THE WHOLE TIME AND YOU LET HIM COME UP WITH THIS CRAZY IDEA!

Faye – mae take it down a notch

Jack – you told her

Faye – jack you need to come over anyway and give me 500 you owe me

Matthew- what the f**k did you do man?

I close the chat. Jack broke moms expensive fan thing and shes still mad about it. So that’s my plan.

All the guys come over and Rachel was too busy and then called me a d**k head for my plan. Emma came downstairs wearing plaid pajamas and an oversized tshirt. Shes wearing my shirt. Damn she looks hot and I want to bend her over this couch hold on where is my mind going. “hey babe, whats going on?” she sees the room of people. “we are all going to watch a movie” she looks at me concerned “what movie? And why so many people?” I hesitate but someone answers before me. “we are going to watch A Walk To Remember” says maeve. That’s emmas favorite movie. “oh can I watch with you?” she says but something is up. “emma you okay?” she responds “yeah just got off the phone with edith” maeve chimes in “oh that b***h”. Emma sits on the couch next to me. I have the ring in my pocket and her thigh can feel it. She looks at me and it looks like shes looking right into my soul. “emma?” “yeah”

“we have known eachother for a long time and I love you. I will always love you. Everything that has happened and we have stuck by each others sides. I want to be by your side forever. I want to be your partner. Your teammate. Your forever. Will you marry me?” she looks at me but not with happiness, “ I love you grayson. I do….” I got up and cheered and so did everyone else. I picked her up and kissed her and she stopped me and told me to put her down. “ I love you grayson, but no. I will not marry you.” She walks out of the living room. What?

Jack – what the f**k just happened

Maeve – ill go talk to her

Luke – no I will

Luke leaves and goes to talk to emma

Maeve – is there something going on between luke and emma?

Grayson – don’t think that, that’s gross mae

Faye – its not that. Let her be and let luke talk to her.

Luke – em whats with that

Emma – you wouldn’t understand

Luke – emma whats going on

Emma – I cant marry him

Luke – he loves you

Emma – I love him but I cant

Luke – its him isn’t it. Faye told me awhile back

Emma – you know?

Luke – he wont ever find you em

Emma – im still tied to him legally luke

Luke – what did you think was going to happen when you date someone for a long time em?

Emma – I thought I would be divorced by then but I cant marry him now please leave